All done and no medications!! I wonāt be happy when the local anesthetic stops working
Cam Iām sorry you are having some obstacles right now but Iām so happy to see that you are back on track you are awesome and deserve happiness and peace and I know you will find that as you continue this journey. Iām trying hard to not let depression creep in. I do things I never tried. I have a therapy light that is supposed to help I take vitamin D pills and even tan. But the big thing is making myself get out of the house. I think the pool is going to help so much with your mood I wish my gym had a pool. Anyway just happy to see you 
Checking in at one hour away from 5 days sober. Hang in there everybody. And thank you because reading these posts let me know Im not alone.
Had a trigger today. A coworkers husband is terminal and not expected to survive the night. I started drinking 7 years ago when my husband 9f 20 years passed. I wanted to come home and drink. But I wrote here instead.
Thank you all for listening. Love and peace to you.
Aww love this post! So happy your clean for your suprise visit!
Thank you!
Itās really good to hear from you Danni, I kept thinking everyday where is she I hope she posts soon. Hope your feeling a little better
Youāve invested a lot into you new better life. Just hang in there. This will pass. Take a long hot bath with a decadent cup of hot cocoa. 
Ok so work done 
No longer as angry and frustrated
Thanks to checkers FRIES!
Still sober for today
Welp, off to bed hopefully fall asleep before 2am.
And have another sober day tomorrow. 
Iām so sorry youāre sick. Take care. Rest and fluids!
Thank you 
Thank you
Sorry to hear youāre having a tough time. Hang in there 
sending you good vibes
Checking in on day 209. Itās cooold. And I just want to eat sweets. 
@anon27760155 I hope you continue to feel better. Very relieved to hear from you!
Iām nearly at 40 days sober from booze. Valium taper still doing well. Havenāt re-upped Rx and although Iām taking my timeā¦it will be worth it.
Yesterday I smashed my 5Km running PB I set back in my mid 20ās to under 23 mins. Not overly fast by some standards but not bad for 47 yr old man.
Evening check in
Day 8 going on Day 9 shortly
Family has left. My mom n dad n younger brother were here from Winnipeg, Manitoba. It was a good visit! A couple moments of frustration as I get super overwhelmed with too much going on, whether that be too much noise or with it being too crowded etc. Our apartment is about 750 square feet, so itās pretty small. Anyway, my brother and dad drank. Thankfully alcohol isnāt a trigger for me. I wouldnāt want it in the home tho bcuz drinking alcohol would be a relapse for me. When I used to drink, I wouldnt drink for the same reasons that a non alcoholic would drink for. No matter what my DOC isā¦ I use/drink to escape and it never stops at 1. Anyway, Iām grateful for another clean and sober day, grateful I didnāt go to jail earlier (obviously I didnāt do anything wrong but my mind is hardwired from my past to question things Iāve done lol), and Iām absolutely grateful for u all! For all of us fighting our addictions. Just proud of everyone here! Hope everyone has an amazing day/night!
Addiction replacements in sobrietyā¦
I feel Iām in denial about my sneaker Addiction LOL 
Since I got clean Iāve purchased 20+ pairs of Jordans and dunksā¦ 20 ??? Thatās not normal lmao 
I need to find a balance where I am comfortable with all that I have. I keep trying to fill some space that was my life prior to getting clean. Iām currently filling that space with stuff. Lots of stuff. Stuff that I do not need.
I ponder the thought of when will I start to feel content. When will I be completely happy and grateful for all that I already had.
Does anyone keep trying to fill a void thats impossible to fill?
Oh and tonight, and here is another gift of recoveryā¦ I got a chance to give my younger brother a huge hug! He has never been the emotional type. He used to give handshakes instead of hugs lol and we hugged today. And I told him how damn proud I am of him and how much I absolutely love him!! And he told me he loved me back. Gave me a hug. Omgā¦ after all I put him thru in my younger years. I can never go back to that. I donāt want to fuck up anymore. Going on 9 days now in 2 hours. I got this!
Congratulations on your 8 days, 7 days were a hard number if I remember correctly.
Let your I canāt become an I donāt want to. I canāt for me has the impression of well, if I could if I wasnāt addicted to that shit I would like to but poor me cannot handle it. Noooooo, I donāt want to ruin my life. I donāt want to poison my body, soul and mind anymore.
Thank you so much for this! I believe words are so powerful. I like how u rephrased that 
makes a huge difference behind the meaning
Thanks!!! We out here fighting aināt we!!!