The reminder is helpful, that’s what I’m trying to tell myself. Thank you so much, it means alot
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Thank you 
this community is so kind
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Day 8
This morning has been so busy! Woke up at 7am, made coffee, got ready, did my reading and prayer, then started tidying up the apartment for an appointment. Feels good to be clean and to be able to have the energy to take care of things instead of miserably suffering thru tasks. Anyway, my mood has been iffy. I have been waking up super grumpy lately. But I realize that I can change my day at any point! Finished the appt and then my husband got that $100 prepaid visa card in the mail today (the covid incentive). Even tho I know it can’t be used at the atm to take out $$, my mind started spinning about using and for a brief second my mind went to, “well if we could take out $$, it would probably be okay to make only one call”. Stopped that thot right away. 1st off, it’s never one call and 2nd of all, I can’t emotionally or physically use again. Took me a sec to process all this and I was abit slow in remembering my tools but Im emotionally okay now. Not triggered at all or holding onto it. Just let it go. So now I’m going to the gym in about an hour 
Saw this today and thought it was funny lol hope it doesn’t offend anyone but recovery can be such a crazy roller coaster sometimes lol Anyway, luv to all! Hope everyone’s is having a great day!
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What a relief! Hope u continue to get better and stronger.
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You’re allowed sweetie!!! 
Wonderful to hear from you!
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Hahah! This made me giggle hard! Thank you! 
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That’s good, Dana. You’re getting better and better at all of this over time. Stick with it. We’re all rooting for you. 
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Checking in sober.
I’m going to leave the days alone for a bit.
It all feels a bit like day 1 at the moment. Had no idea how hard that year was going to bite.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight. 
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Checking in. Day 7.
Feels absolutely amazing. I’ve been and gone over the past 5 years.
My little man is now 10, happy and healthy. I am still sharing my home with my 75 year old father who has an alcohol use disorder, alongside mental health concerns. I am seriously dating a lovely guy. I am working an awful lot to keep the show of life in suburbia afloat. I have lost 7 kegs this year and am exercising regularly and eating clean.
The wine crept back big time and along with it the procrastination, irritability, brain fog, low energy and difficulty concentrating and completing tasks. I have some behaviour I regret.
A switch has flicked and seven days later I feel lighter, brighter, determined and brilliant!
Have a great day everyone. Engage in the world without fear
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That switch flickering is a beautiful thing. I’m so damn happy for you.
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Happy birthday,
it’s my son’s birthday today too.
It’s also Spanish 3 kings Day,sort of Christmas day in Spain, and I have family there. 
. Hope you have a wonderful sober birthday 
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So good to hear from you again @anon27760155.
Hoping you make a full recovery! Take it slow!
Love prayers and hugs your way
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Check in day 46. Im so sick today and hardly able to even get outta bed. Covid test tommorow morning
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Milestones can often be bewildering and underwhelming at the same time. But however confusing the feelings, the action is the same simple act of not picking up that first drink. 
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Still Day 8
Sooo… again, experienced another blessing of being clean. This one was VERY unexpected. Don’t even know what to think!
So im getting ready to go to the gym. My phone rings… it was the front door of my building (someone buzzing our unit).
Man: “Can I please speak to Dana (last name)?”
Me: “Speaking”
Man: “This is Calgary Police Department, can you plz come downstairs we need to talk to you about an urgent matter”
Me: Heart stops… “Ummm ok what is this about?”
Man: “This is regarding an urgent matter”
Me: Heart stops… anxiety rises… thinking I don’t recall doing anything stupid crime wise since I’ve been in Calgary lol
I get on the elevator, praying lol, elevator door opens and its my family!!!
Ahhh!!! I haven’t gone thru that kind of highs and lots emotionally in a long time. I was vibrating, literally lol
Now this is great! But I am also grateful bcuz I was clean and sober for this surprise visit. Especially having that using thought earlier. So grateful I didn’t use. And then also, this is a very good reminder to not doing anything stupid as I don’t like generally being questioned or interrogated by police. I almost cried seeing my family and not police lol
Sooo grateful for recovery
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Good evening everyone! Today was a little more normal, more of a routine and that was so good for me! Getting ready to make dinner and do absolutely nothing but rest after. The kids are all negative, the better half is still positive but today seems to be better, which makes me very very happy, I miss my husband. I managed so far to be negative through all this, not sure how, but it has allowed me take care of everyone. I am over Covid though. My favorite thing is to take care of my family. I hope everyone is doing well, it’s nice to see some new names and of course comforting when you see familiar ones. Day 24 for me and it’s been a busy 24 days, a guess a negative to a positive I wish you all the best evening or day, wherever you are.
@CATMANCAM super happy to see your posts, hope all is well, sending hugs.
@ShesGotMoxie how is your son doing? I how much better and it’s behind you hope all is well with you!
@anon27760155 cannot tell enough how I am to see your post and know that your ok
@Callie99 I hope all is well with you! Any good books lately let me know
@Butterflymoonwoman congrats on 9 days!!
Again I hope everyone here is well and healthy! Here’s to another sober 24
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@apes2020 I really hope your back feels better soon 
@anon57836609 Good Luck for your theory test 
@Seb welcome back 
@Twizzlers congrats on triple digits 
@ShadowFax happy sober birthday! 
@anon52066378 congrats on 40 days
@SelfLove_42 congrats on 50 days
@seekingsolace sending strength
@Bassanova congrats on 2 weeks
@Andrea4 feel better soon
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@anon27760155 so good to see a post from you 
sending prayers thank you so much for checking in 
@Pica sending strength
@rabbit congrats on your week
@Newlife5 feel better soon
514 days no alcohol.
75 days no nicotine.
13 days no binge-eating.
6 days no cocaine.
Today has been hard. I had using thoughts, but I’m conscious enough to know that the addict voice is lying and chasing a high that doesn’t even exist, yet still it persists.
Had the treatment on my feet at lunchtime, we booked a follow-up session for a week today with the view to stop treatment due to it not working. I’m really gutted about this, I was really hoping I could start getting back out for long walks to clear my head everyday. I might still start doing this and just manage the pain with ice, but by doing this it will make the condition worse so I’ll discuss with the treatment lady next week.
I am getting really swept under by the depression at the moment. I really want to take action and start going back to the gym and swimming again, my membership is frozen until 16th Feb but if I get the go ahead from the treatment lady next week, I will ask if it can be unfrozen early.
Also want to start reading more again, I used to feel good when I read, somehow lost the habit.
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I’m so sorry you’re feeling badly, Cindy. I’m sending healing energy and hugs to you right now. 
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Thank you for checking in on him, Ami. He’s doing much better! I’m so thankful it didn’t keep him down too long. It’s great news that the kids tested negative and you’re well! Your hubs is next.
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