Checking in daily to maintain focus #37

10 hours ahead! :rofl: I didn’t know where you were!

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Day 88. Some little things going on,mom is a little upset with me bc I haven’t jumped on a tattoo for someone or finishing hers with the cameo picture frame. And I’ve told her I just simply don’t feel comfortable doing them yet, but for some reason she gets upset with me when I say I don’t feel comfortable doing them. Idk I don’t understand why she would be upset over that, I don’t want to fucj anyone up that’s gonna push ppl away even more. Anyways I’m grateful for another day sober, I did sleep alot yesterday, maybe that’s what really bugged her. I was sore and tired from Friday evening sledding I figured my body just needed it. Anyways much love

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Thank you for saying this because I just cannot keep up with this thread anymore! And I was feeling a bit bad about it because this used to be my bread and butter thread, my main focus on TS. But…I just have to let it go. :+1:t3: I hope we get to see your wedding dress!

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Good morning! Today will be day 13. I’m back to work today after being off a week and a half. Not looking forward to the backlog of emails. I’m glad to have something to do during the day to keep me busy. But I worry a little about getting back into the routine, because that routine always involved wanting to drink after work.

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Hey all, checking in on day 575. I hope everybody has a good one!

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Another year older coming up for this old Scotsman 12,901

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I’m in my 50’s so no white dress for me. But if I where 20 I wouldn’t wear white either.
This is my first marriage. A wedding was never on my bucketlist. But now due to Covid we where thinking: we haven’t done that before…so let’s do it! :grinning_face_with_smiling_eyes:
No guests, just us and our adult children. All dressed up for eachother. I wanna wear a coloured dress, my Dr. Martens boots and black leather jacket :smiling_face_with_three_hearts:
And maybe I share a picture afterwards, who knows :wink:

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Congratulations! Yep keep it simple! Crazy but when we got married now this year it will be 20 years ago, we had 400 guests. But in this life now, if i got married it would be on Zoom and cost A FRACTION OF THE COST!!! I remember ordering 500 pieces of chicken from Popeyes right, at the end of the night, IT WAS 4 PIECES LEFT!!!

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Morning/Good afternoon/Good evenings all(Australians!)

Day 54 check in, feeling tired but happy, my babies exhaust me but this is a special time in my life having a 2 year old and a 1 year old so i try to take it all in, everyday. Have a good one!

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775 days without gaming
0 days without abusing technology

Yesterday I was on my pc until 1:30 am, until I fell asleep. It was to write down some revelations about my life. The day before it was 2 am, also to spent time on TS. I’m going to have to concretely write down boundaries to avoid these grey areas. I’m not going to call it a relapse, but I’m not gonna call it sober either. So it’s day 0 for me.
I notice it’s getting harder to control myself. Only 2 more days until I can order a new phone and put external restrictions on my phone. I don’t like the feeling of borderlining active addiction. Sure, I’m not watching TV, youtube or on social media. But I do spend a lot of time on TS now. Too much I think.

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That’s a huge victory for sure!

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Made a list of behaviours so that it’s clearer what counts as abuse for me.
Sobriety levels

Level 1: Save
-Not using technology

Level 2: Risky
-Using approved technology up to 3 hours a day(excluding music and homework)
-Using approved technology until 11 pm

Level 3: Borderline
-Using approved technology up to 5 hours a day(excluding music and homework)
-Using approved technology until midnight

Level 4: Relapse
-Using approved technology more than 5 hours a day(excluding music and homework)
-Using approved technology past midnight
-Using unapproved technology

Approved technology consists of essential apps: Bank app, school app, whatsapp, work app, insurance app, public transport app and others I need. Talking sober and music are also approved.

Unapproved technology consists of recreational technology: TV, YouTube, Social Media besides TS, podcasts.

This is just a rough draft and I might make an excel file in which I put all apps I use(d) sorted as approved, unapproved and grey area.

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Good morning all :heart: Day 98 AF. Morning run/walk done, coffee is percolating thru my veins, Bible study this morning via Zoom and then work work work for the afternoon. I hope I get a glimpse of the sun today it’s been a long gloomy patch. May the sun shine on y’all :sunny:
@StarK31 Congrats on your 40 days! :tada: @Scrammbles @Newlife5 Congrats on your 50 days! :dizzy: :partying_face:
@Mich80 Congrats on your 60 days! :dizzy: :tada: @Grumpybeard Congrats on 4 months! :boom: :tada:
@ShesGotMoxie :heart: :tada: 150 days! Congratulations! :tada: :heart:
@SoberWalker :dizzy: :partying_face: :boom: 1210!!! :boom: :partying_face: :dizzy: @Rainwater :tada: :boom: :partying_face: 1230!!! :partying_face: :boom: :tada:

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Today I have 1450 days of sobriety. I am 11 days away from hitting 4 years. I had to stop and think about that yesterday as I wrote my 4 year birthday on my calendar: I could not even get 3 days sober and I wanted it so badly but never thought I’d be able to get 4 years. Now here I am, by the grace of God, AA, and just focusing on one day at a time. I used to be on this forum a lot, especially in early sobriety, and it helped me tremendously to see that I was not alone. Hope everyone has a great day. :blush::blue_heart:

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Today at 686 days I got talked to at work about punctuality and honestly I felt so helpless in the moment that I nearly decided to get to the store right then.
I’m good now but that was stressful.

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Day 11 Sober

Feeling good! I appreciate this forum abf the members that share their successes and struggles!

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Checking in day 37.
Had a terrible day yesterday so just getting it off my chest. I was verbally abused by a very drunken family member and it left my children very shaken and upset. It didnt trigger a relapse which I am very grateful for. I was actually full of pity for this person who has not yet realised how this poison ruins relationships and has a knock on effect to so many other people. Glad I have somewhere to share. Much love to allā¤

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Checking in Day 50. Feeling pretty proud of myself today. :slight_smile:

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Thank you very much!

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Checking in
Day 12
Woke up clean and sober. I slept heavy but im still very tired. Hubby is at work so I have some time alone today. I am being so vigilant with my routine right now. Readings, prayer, TS, taking care of responsibilities, online meetings etc. Yesterday, saying no was tough, BUT it was abit easier than the previous day before that. Hubby told me yesterday that he was extremely stressed out and I suppose me saying no added to that. Well not my problem honestly. I’m not responsible for how he feels. I tried to be supportive to him with his stress only for me to get shut out basically. So this morning, I texted him… told him how much I love him and that I care about my life and our relationship so much that I’m going to do whatever it takes for me to be a better person and wife. I said I’m doing all this bcuz I really want what is best for us, for our relationship, and for our future. I’m sorry that u are feeling stressed. I realized that being clean makes me feel like a bad ass lol I feel so strong! I have my voice back and im listening to myself and acting on it. Its alot of work for sure but I feel sooo good! Anyway, I’m getting ready to start my day. Have some grocery shopping to do. Visiting with family is next. And then relax I guess :slight_smile: focusing on the 24 hours ahead with strong faith!
Luv to all šŸ«‚

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