This is so true for me. I think for me it’s the fear of not having something in my life to fall back on. But I suppose that’s not necessarily true… bcuz as I’m typing thus, I feel like I can fall back on my HP or fall back on supports or fall back on healthy coping skills… instead of the unhealthy. Hmmm
I might have to look into that book 
I wouldn’t mind getting some recovery literature. Love hoe u worded the idea if the little and big monster lol its very true. We all may have diff addictions but the mental aspect is all the same!
Thanks for ur ongoing support Kevin! Ur amazing!!!
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Checking in
Day1
So appts are over. Things went well. My Dr is prescribing me a new atypical antipsychotic med… one that is similar to my old med but that should produce less side effects. I know some people get hung up on the labels of some medications… they sound scary lol but it’s just medical terminology If the med works and it helps me to manage my emotions and thinking which therefore helps me to stay clean… I’ll take it! Give me the craziest sounding med there is lol I’ve been on so many meds over the years and it’s been a challenge for sure to find the one that fits me best. My old med helped for quite some time but it just isn’t working anymore. So on to trying something new anyway, got some cleaning done and will do abit of yoga soon!
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Today is day 6. What a weird day it is for this one. I woke up this morning super tired and just could not get out of bed and going easily. I also have this weird sensation of constantly being throaty today. My mouth feel so dry no matter how much water I drink.
It’s also been an emotional one today. There are moments where my focus seems so on point for the first time in years. Then there are moments of feeling down and blue. Like I just feel blue about myself and, maybe it feels like I am doubting myself some. Im just trying to stay focused on work today. Tomorrow will make it through the first week. I am looking forward to it. It’s making me a little excited.
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Been a bit up & down today, but checking in day 8! Certainly better than last Monday when I was only just getting over the weekend hangover and lack of sleep!
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Day 102. Man I feel heavy today, kind of sick almost hopefully not. Got some amazing feed back on my tattoo from some of my tattoo groups and my home facebook. My mind tells me it’s fake and they are just being nice. On to another day much love
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577 sober. I feel like I might be getting slowly but surely on some sort of a track. It’s not fast and it is bumpy, but hopefully will eventually lead me to my destination.
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I have to reset everything. Day 0 again.
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A massive congratulations to you 
plus 1 day 
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I know I’m a day late with these but so what, well done on getting your 90 back
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Your SELF. We all take the easy option bc we want what we want, we do have a choice but we choose the option that has instant gratification with less effort. We are spoilt, we are selfish and we are disillusioned to the point of insanity. You gotta want sobriety like you want oxygen bc lack of either is gonna leave you dead.
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Absolutely 
it IS me…
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I’m sober today through talking to other addicts. I must get out of myself on a daily basis bc my mind is always trying to tell me lies. By helping others I only see the facts and how can I help anyone if I pick up a drink.
I have sponsees who have trusted me with their lives.
Now that’s a sobering thought.
They don’t even know they are keeping me sober today god bless em 
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Hey Thomas, welcome back my friend. It sucks resetting the timer 
I’m so glad ur here tho.
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Hey Joe. Congratulations on your 70 days that’s awesome. The only thread I’m always on is the gratitude thread. Every day. I do come and go here and there on other threads. I use to feel I got to get caught up on this thread and others too. But I’ve learned not to worry about that. It’s impossible for me to get caught up. I do like celebrating on here. The main thing I try to remember is
But, it’s the sharing that heals. Not the person that listens.
Believing In Myself
So if I need to vent or complain or whatever or even celebrate, because I think it’s important. Then I do.
You’re doing great buddy. Keep up the good work.
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Checking in, relapsed on smoking after 26 days. I’m not sure if I can get back on track right away. But I’m still sober and am really grateful for that.
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D 480
It’s currently 3AM and I’m still awake. Bleh.
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Checking in day 22 thats THREE WEEKS. Thats a long time that flew by. Going day by day. Writing out my gratitude list helps me be in a more positive attitude. At the grocery store tonight i went thru the alcohol aisle and asked myself how i was feeling, was i gonna be triggered? I flew by the stocked shelfs and realized i dont want to drink tonight. My will power is leaps and bounds from day 1…hell week 1
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Wow amazing pics!!! That building 
looks like beautiful weather!
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Checking in
Day 1
Today was really good! Started out kind of crappy. But I accomplished everything I wanted to do today (except for hitting the gym). I will try for that tmrw mrng. I have another busy day tmrw with zoom mtg, Dr appt, pharmacy, and running other errands. Will need to make sure to incorporate my readings and prayer, TS, and yoga. I hate opening up TS tho and seeing 1 on my timer. Ugh… it depresses me. I’ve been enjoying these color by number apps. It’s a nice way to unwind I find. Hope everyone is having a good night!
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