Checking in, 445 days without alcohol. I feel lonely, not that I’m alone, but because of the people who stepped out of my life or let go of my hand when in trouble. I don’t know how to get out of this and how to let resentment go, I’m hurt and disappointed. I’m not sure if I can build up trust once I’ve lost it, but at the same time I’m unable to let those people go for good. I’m stuck in this emotional trap and that prevents me from connecting to the few who stayed by me.
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Love this! Lol 
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And her I am Checking into a hotel for the week to escape the heat wave that has desended apon us poor humans here lol
We are literally living polar opposites 
that fascinates me!
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Hey all, checking in on day 590. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Day 69
Hello all! Just checking in, hope everyone is having a great day, if your not, take a moment to count your blessings, We are all here, fighting to be sober. Thankful to be Sober and never looking back. Have a wonderful day everyone.
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Day 36
I had the most vivid and realistic dream that I relapsed. It felt so real. I even had to reset my counter which felt heartbreaking.
I was so relived to wake up and realize that I did not, in fact, drink a few bottles of wine. It feels so much better to be sober!
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Day 18 just checking in.
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Checking in
Day 2
Morning has been really good. I feel like I’ve sort of got myself out of my relapse funk. I feel amazing today. I did my readings and prayer by candlelight and then planned my day. Today is my payday and I have absolutly no urge to use. I have good things planned for my pay, plus it will be very busy! I am seeing the dr this afternoon about my new meds so hopefully that will go well and I’ll begin feeling like I should. Had a scare this morning tho with hubby while he was at work. He started up his Zoom Boom to warm it up after doing the inspection (this piece of equipment absolutely needs to be replaced, it’s not in great working condition and my hubby has complained and filed paperwork about it many, many times). Nothing seemed out of ordinary during inspection… no weird sounds or smells etc. After starting it up, he went to the C Can and as he’s coming back to his machine, there were 3 coworkers putting out a huge fire. My hubby took pictures after the fire was put out. There is a fist size hole in the tank. He is not at fault at all thank God and he is okay. Hes been operating machinery for like 25+ years so the safety guy was upset that the company is not replacing the machines once they get to this sort of state. They keep repairing and repairing the machines. I know they are expensive but still… anyway, prayed to my HP and gave thanks for my hubbys safety. He believes he could’ve lost his legs in the explosion/fire if he had been sitting in there while it warmed up… or worse. Omg 
Anyway, all is well. Have a great day everyone!
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Hi Kat here checking in on Day 174
Enjoying the sunshine this morning and remembered to take my Vitamin D and B50. A few times a week is better than nothing I suppose. I am better with my prescription psych meds though, those go down every day.
Interview in a few hours for Nursing Home job I am excited! Will have to buy some new scrubs.
Thinking of you all and hope you have a great sober day.
@Butterflymoonwoman close call glad everyone was safe Industrial accidents are no joke! Also well done on Day 2 and no desire to use
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Thanks Kat! I’m excited for and ur interview!! It will go well 
I feel it! Hugs to u girl!! So proud of you
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Day 592 clean and sober today. I hope everyone has a great day today, love you guys!!! 
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Congrats on your 2 weeks sober
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Caught this yesterday but was too busy to post it…
I havent caught a fun screenie for ages
Yesterday was my daughter’s 16th birthday. It was a good day for multiple reasons. She of course had a nice time, we spent time as a family and I spent a lot of time in reflection. This is her 4th birthday I know that I have been sober for. I can’t remember if I was drinking at her 2nd birthday or not, I definitely was at her 3rd. Being into my 3rd year of recovery put a lot of things into perspective for me. When I had her I was 7 months clean from meth, I had just walked away from a very crazy street life, I had left a 7 year relationship with one person, gotten pregnant by another and ended up alone. I had just lost my dog, who had seen me through all the darkness I experienced on meth, she was my life, and now I had a baby. I had no recovery support, I just disassociate myself from all the people I had been running with and started a new life. I dealt with NOTHING. When I ended up relapsing I was so hard on myself. I couldn’t figure out where I had gone wrong. I thought I was such a failure and that I would never be able to get clean and didn’t deserve a life or happiness. Now when I look back on this time that I cleaned up and how fucked up I still was at 7 months clean; I have so much compassion for my 32 year old self. All I can think is “holy shit, you didn’t have a chance.” I cried a lot yesterday, I cried because I can finally see it and feel freedom from all that guilt and shame. I have been telling myself I was doing my best because I was, I was trying so hard! But now I can feel freedom from all that shit.
2005 just wasn’t my year.
2019 is.
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Welcome Julia 
Welcome Julia.
This is a great caring supportive sober community. It works if you work it. I use the Sober Time app for my counter and access the Talking Sober forum from there.
Hope to see you around.
Day 113 for me AF. Been a rough week. I have a huge trade show Friday - Sunday for my business. Prepping is hard and long hours. This show is a booze soaked party where people do business. I’m very nervous about being in that environment but I really need this show to keep orders flowing. My husband and I have a determined plan to stay sober and minimize our exposure to the drinking. We’ve been practicing what to say and do, and how to excuse ourselves early but I’m still scared I will fail.
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Yup, I’ve also felt that way at times and have to trust myself to know what is best for me. Stick to certain threads, reduce my screen time in general, try not to over analyze what is going on with me (easier said than done!) Ask myself if it feels like I’m running away (a tendency of mine) or if I really just need a break or to focus my energy elsewhere. Take a look at what else I’m doing for my well being, also, and make sure I have routines, tools and support. I have a lot to be grateful for by being on TS, but I’ve had to learn to strike a balance that feels healthy. Everyone is different, though, and this can be someone’s main safe place. Glad you brought that up! You’re definitely not the only one!
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Hey guys. Checking in day 1
Feeling a bit tired due to the slip I had.
Also went to the gym today and gonna finish off the night with reading a book.
Have a goodnight. Bye
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I’m so over it! It’s beautiful and sunny but I’m the dedicated dog walker and it’s no fun anymore and now we are getting cabin fever. Waaaahhhh 
Looks like a slight warm up on the way for us, might go see the bald eagles this weekend for my birthday! I think the winter funk has arrived earlier this year…I’m hoping that some time outside will help. Hang in there!!!
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This. This is a thing of beauty and a testament to all your efforts. I’m so proud of you 
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