Maintaining my streak at the gym which is really helping with mood stability and in turn my anxiety has kept at bay, so I am happy with that. Love I cam support my son who is under alot of pressure in his final year at Uni, remembering key exam dates sending message of good luck, ringing post exam etc fully present and being nervous for him
@apes2020 on a plane! warm sunshine on a beach glorious enjoy.
Apparently not, else you wouldnāt be afraid of it
Bingo. Without a leap of faith, no one would change their lives around.
Sometimes all it takes, is a simple comparison. If those who took that leap of faith appear to be happier than those in active addiction, itās probably worth it.
Morning . Getting a bit nervous, first day back for second semester at uni. (Iām a mature student so I already have paranoid hang ups of not being good enough next to A level kids)ā¦
Iām looking forward to new material, but Iām getting a belly ache and gonna have some brekkie.
Still a toilet and bathroom to clean in our old house and some assembling to do in my exā new house.
This evening the online memorial service from the Dutch Sanghaās, first one in my own language.
Finally Iām calming down again but the release of stress and tension of years goes too slow. Each time I get to let go a bit of it, I have to get back on board again. It feels somewhat hopeless, like Iāll never be at ease again. But hopefully after next term on board, when all is back to normal, Iāll finally have all the time to myself again.
But well, at least I accepted and admitted that Iām burnt out again and after almost 4 years of stress followed by a breakup and moving, I understand it had to happen (again).
On the bright side : from here on, there finally a new life ahead of me. The real me. Acceptance took some time but sometimes it just feels like letting go a big weight weāve carried around forever.
āTo be beautiful means to be yourself. You donāt need to be accepted by others. You need to accept yourself.ā
That quote from Thich Nhat Hanh was posted by someone in my online Sangha at the same time I shared there and in my NA homegroups that I finally was ready to accept myself.
Itās a beautiful thought in a way, that he passed away shortly after I got to that point. Like he waited for that to happen.
Coffee. Itās that time of the year where I really start longing for spring. Also has to do with the fact it has been grey outside for days. Well, it canāt be helped. Iāll have to practice patience. Also I have to work on getting the grey wintry feeling out of my own head, because Iām feeling that a bit as well. And I can do something about that.
Feeling I could be on my way towards depression. Very early stages yet, and plenty of time and room to prevent it. Going to start that right now. Physical exercising I already am. Need to do some mental health stuff. Therapy will stop in a couple of months and I need to be prepared for that. Got to move on with my life. My social life. Retracted in my shell a bit. Work wise, social life wise, every wise. Been taking steps back and itās time to move forward again.
Thank god Iām sober and clean. That means I actually can work on myself. That means I see there is a problem in the first place. That means I can move forward. Never again going back to drinking and drugging.
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Make it clean and sober. Itās the only way towards a better life for all of us. One day at a time. Love from Amsterdam.
Welcome to your sobriety and welcome to this place Julie! For me Talking Sober has been the difference between failures in the past and success this time. Thereās tons of support to be found here, support to get and support to give, as well as a huge body of knowledge about addiction and how to beat it. The more the stronger we are so very happy to have you aboard! This thread is one of the busiest ones on the forum, so youāve come to a good place to begin your journey on this forum and in your sober life.
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Wishing you happy reading & happy participating and hope to see more of you Julie!
Husband had booster yesterday, was ok this morning so we went for breakfast and walking, but he felt it this afternoon, and was too bad to even open medicine packets unaided .
Have been feeling pretty on the ball lately, then today got a call that I forgot to take my son to his programming class. It is once a month, and easy to forget. Even sober monkeys fall from trees.
Had a difficult eveningā¦ teenagers and 10 yer old requiring a lot of support to stay in task complete homework etc ā¦the regular. I think I was just oververly sensitive because I was tired from work and had a headache.
Went to a meeting and my mood reversed back to gratitude and strength. Iām thankful for being sober and not reaching to.my old ways to dealā¦I am thankful for being a present and active mother and sober for the evening routine instead of halfway in .
Breathā¦
Some to dos todayā¦goal is to complete my Yoga assignment then will reward myself tomorrow with a well needed Mani/pedi and gold cross I am gifting myself for my progress but more importantly for my faith strengthing. So grateful for both. My HPā¦heals
Checking in, 445 days without alcohol. I feel lonely, not that Iām alone, but because of the people who stepped out of my life or let go of my hand when in trouble. I donāt know how to get out of this and how to let resentment go, Iām hurt and disappointed. Iām not sure if I can build up trust once Iāve lost it, but at the same time Iām unable to let those people go for good. Iām stuck in this emotional trap and that prevents me from connecting to the few who stayed by me.
Hello all! Just checking in, hope everyone is having a great day, if your not, take a moment to count your blessings, We are all here, fighting to be sober. Thankful to be Sober and never looking back. Have a wonderful day everyone.