Oh no. Hope you feel better soon.
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I hope you are able to see thisā¦ it is Kitty and Sunshine Energy to make your long day more bearable and comfortable. Storm, storm go awayā¦
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Checking in sober and hang-over free.
Its been 1 month since my relapse, and I feel stronger and more independent than ever before.
A wise man on this forum shared a few days ago that he was grateful for his hang-overs and that the memories of those terrible hang-overs helps him to stay sober.
It made me release that my relapse after 3 months of sobriety wasnāt for nothing. The feeling after this relapse was so damn awfull and that never ever a feeling of fantasizing alcohol will be stronger again. I am so much more resilient because of this relapse and it improved my coping skills more then I could imagine!
Thinking about using is nothing more then just a fantasy that lifes in your brain, and when you let this fantasy out by giving in to your addiction, this fantasy disappears and leaves you behind with a awful, terrible feeling of shame and guilt.
That feelingā¦NEVER again. Today I will stay sober!
I feel great being one month sober again.
Have a nice day my friends.
(Wind, Rain, Sheep Cows and windmills on my hike yesterday.
Typically dutch 
)
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@Callie99 Really sorry to hear that. Life can be HARD sometimes.
@anon53116147 Kids can be tough. You are not an idiot, you are just wanting the best for your kids. Calm enforcement of boundaries is all you can do. And big praise when they are co-operative. But so hard to do when they are pushing ur buttons.
@Butterflymoonwoman You did nothing wrong taking the money you are owed. That is on the person who ordered the cake. I can understand the conflicting emotions, like u say, all the more reason to stay clean.
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I am always grateful for those very blatant reminers of where I donāt want to be anymore. The reminders of how my life was bankrupt of any sort of spiritual principle when I was in active addiction.
Alsoā¦
I have always sold myself short when itās come to my worth. I am learning that my time and energy is of great value. You are also a very valuable person as is your time. You made a product and you get paid at pick-upā¦ that doesnāt change because a different person is sent to pick up the cake.
Not your circus, not your monkey.
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Hi Caroline, Stella post hit home with me as well. This is an area I need to work on . I am sober but now dealing with the reasons I drank . We can do it 
how are you?
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I so stoked for you that you got your tattoo appointment and the shops are open again and where is that place it looks so beautiful 
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400 days
Had a clear out of my bedroom and work office,12 binliners of rubbish was shocked at the crap I had built up i then took to the tip. Lots of thinking and listening to podcasts all day and did cry when topics hit home I felt very sensitive, which is unusual for me as I have emotional barriers in place for years. I have work to do, I desperately want better emotional intelligence just finding the best way to get that. I may try my Doctors again or register again with Mind, however waiting lists are so long, and I am impatient, feel like I am I a half way house. But shall continue reading etc in the meantime.
@Its_me_Stella thank you I am going to try āacceptanceā I am on a chapter āradical acceptanceā in my DBT workbook so shall pay special attention 
@Lotusflower congrats Des on 70 days and @Pandita on your 60 daysš
@Butterflymoonwoman you were owed for your work, and the daughter would have felt that plus the support and kindness you showed would have touched her and meant alot 
you have a good heart 
@anon53116147 you are a wonderful, caring dad its hard but I think you are doing so well I had so many similiar thoughts when Sam was younger, hell I can shout! but we do it bourne out of love.
Have a strong 24 hrs all 
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Just yeah, here cleanā¦
Knocked sideways but Iām here still trying to grow from my mistakes and Iām happy to be alive x
Never wish to be dead your life means something, you may not see a purpose but i promise your enough x
Here to my next big step 2 years
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Is that your view from a window?? With all those mountains. 
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Wow youāre soo lucky.
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Congratulations on your 18 months clean that is a huge accomplishment 
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Honesty probably was worth more to your friendās daughter than the money, well done for showing the courage to share with her. Courage, honesty, willingness, open mindednessā¦ Be kind to yourself. Take it Easy!. One Day@A Time 
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30 days today, itās the last f##king 30 days I am doing!.. I am gonna go to a face to face Everytime I hit a milestone.
Iāll see whereās thereās one Tonight. I got laboratory practical this morning at uni. Trying to improve my conscious contact with the universe to keep peace inside so I donāt get stressed. Breathe, breatheā¦
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Day 132 checking in
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Congratulations, and hope you are feeling better. 
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Day 57 and going strong up super early as I always am Iāve worked the graveyard shift pretty much my whole life and thatās about to start again today I go in to do all my paperwork Iām super stoked to have another job other than I canāt complain life is cool and peaceful Iām getting messages from people telling me how proud me they are which is a bonus to being sober. I want to tell everyone have a great week stay positive and try not to let nothing get you down. Peace and take care
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Getting stronger everyday
Still sleeping like a doormouse.
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Hey girlie, did you know youāre pretty frigging awesome!? 
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Day 6 @Twizzlers thank you for your prayers in the past I really appreciate it. My mother is doing better. May God bless you @Twizzlers and forgive me because I delayed my answer to you
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