Checking in daily to maintain focus #38

I also used the steps patches and gum to quit smoking
ciggerettes, i quit the same day i quit alcohol i had to, i was so worried a ciggerette wouldnt be enough by itself and would lead to a relapse, i smoked and drank lots together, too much association for me.
The steps fot quitting smoking worked for me.

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@Butterflymoonwoman congratulations on 12 days :hugs:
@Deep 11 days is brilliant.
@5th_dimension 435 days wow your going strong.
@anon86198612 Congrats on 19 days.
@ Seb 30 days yayyyy.
@Rainwater 1255 days amazing!
@Hopeful777 404 days congratulations.
@Lotusflower 75 days congrats.
@Rockstar24777 602 days is great.

Congratulations to everyone here, and anyone i missed for today, im so gratefull to be apart of this community.
Wishing you all the best and thank you all for such lovrly heart warming support day and night :hugs::hugs:

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:sparkles: :sparkler: :dizzy: 30 days!!! Congratulations!!! :dizzy: :sparkler: :sparkles:

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Checking in
Day12
Feeling anxiety right nowā€¦ butterflies in stomach, racing heart, fast breathing. Had to really sit with this and figure out what was going on. Literally had an out loud conversation with myself like I was some kind of counsellor of myself lmao

Q: Youre feeling anxious? Why?
A: Cuz my hubby is coming home now from work and he has money
Q: Okay, but what about this situation is causing the anxiety?
A: Bcuz I worry that he will ask me if we want to use and I will cave. I am afraid that I am not strong enough today
Q: Sooo how does him asking you to use result in you using?
A: It doesnā€™t.

That was my ah ha moment. Bcuz 1st of all I have a choice whether I use or not. No one can make me do that. Then also, I realized that I am making myself worry over nothing. I am predicting what will happen when he walks thru the door. The truth is, Idk. It could go either way with him asking me. By feeding into this anxiety and worry tho I am making the craving stronger and realisticslly i cpuld be getting anxious for nothing. Then finally I realized the word FEAR in this conversation I had with myself. Going back to fear or faith I realize that what I need to do is connect with my HP. Asking for inner strength. Having faith that my HP has my back and that I CAN get thru ANYTHINGā€¦ even if he asks me.

Result: Hubby came home in a good mood. We chatted about his day. Heā€™s going for a workout. Then we will order supper :slight_smile:

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Day 28 just checking in

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Day 33. Had urges after work. Remembered HALT and turns out I was tired. Took a nap and Iā€™m doing good :+1:t3:

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Well I wasnā€™t completely wrongā€¦ He came back from his workout and he did make a comment about using after he asked about what to eat for supper. And I said no Iā€™m okay (very casually) and completely changed the topic back to supperā€¦ said pizza was fine. I was doing a guided meditation as he walked in the door. So i was super calm lol honestly if I wouldā€™ve remained ā€œstuckā€ in that anxiety and fear and did nothing to pull myself out of it, idk if I wouldā€™ve said no. But I said no and itā€™s okay :slight_smile: going to preheat the oven and eat :smiling_face_with_three_hearts:

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Isnā€™t it amazing what we can do for ourselves if we just stop and listen to what our bodies need? Itā€™s amazing!! Way to go for getting thru that!

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Thank you, yes. I just used to go with my impulse and drown everything in booze. Iā€™m grateful for everyone here and what I can learn from you all.

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Day 289 of no self harm. Feeling okay today. My friend is back home so heā€™s there if Iā€™m in bad shape.

Today is the 10th day in a row Iā€™ve checked in. Iā€™ve had this app for years and never used the community feature. I am so amazed by how much love and support there is here. You guys are the greatest and you all deserve nothing but wonderful things

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You do see the progress here, right? A few weeks ago, saying no wasnā€™t in your wheel house. Now it is. Itā€™s a new tool that you have and youā€™re using it well. KUDOS :clap:

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Thank you @Twizzlers! :sunglasses::metal:t2:

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Ya ur right!!! Absolutely!! Thank u for noticing that! Iā€™ve been on TS since Feb 22, 2020 (I canā€™t believe itā€™s actually been that long)ā€¦ and I struggled every 3 days. Couldnā€™t get past it for the life of me. Now my longest streak is 25. And I could NEVER say noā€¦ at least thats what I thot! I said no without any hesitation this time. Didnā€™t even think about it afterwards. I guess I have some progressā€¦ slowly but surely :slight_smile: thanks!!! I appreciate ur comment!

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Finally checkin
Day12
Im relaxing now. Ate pizza and icecream for supper lol but still stayed fairly close to my daily calories. My hubby and I are fine. Was worried about him getting cranky when I said no to using but he isnā€™t. Itā€™s like it never happened. I find it abit disrespectful that he even asks me cuz he knows I donā€™t want to use (not that he really takes an interest in my recovery or what I do to stay cleanā€¦ its very personal to me anyway), but I have also shown him in the past MANY times that my word meant nothing when it came to quitting. I was always jumping on the band wagon to get clean. And I always fell off. So for him, he must think I donā€™t mean it? Idk. Actions speak louder than words anywaysā€¦ I know this. I am super super grateful tho that he has never once gone behind my back and bought some without me. He never comes home high or never buys for himself and uses in our home. I am very grateful for that bcuz my exs would and I HATED that. It was too difficult to stay clean. I know I have to SHOW him that Iā€™m serious. That in itself it another motivator to stay clean. Glad to be doing self care tonight instead of fiending for more, spending hundreds of dollars on garbage, or not sleeping thatā€™s for sure! Hope everyone is having a good day! Luv u all!

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@Bran522 thank you :blue_heart:
@SoberWalker thank you :blue_heart: congrats on your beautiful number :tada:
@ShadowFax thank you :blue_heart: I love your photos :star_struck: thank you for sharing :blush:
@anon86198612 sending strength as you navigate your other addictions :pray:t2::blue_heart:
@Hazy feel better soon :pray:t2:
@TigerMatriarch congrats on 4 months :tada:
@Nordique congrats on 600 days :tada:
@anon74766472 sorry about the vertigo, I can empathise with how awful and unsettling it is, feel betttler soon :pray:t2:
@anon53116147 I am praying for you :pray:t2: you do want this, itā€™s your addict lying to you thatā€™s making you think you donā€™t as you know, keeping posting :blue_heart::pray:t2: Just seen your more recent post, naps and food can really change your mood and mindset canā€™t they :blush::raised_hands:t2:
@kat261 congrats on the new job going well :tada: and for your growth and handling your craving differently :tada:

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@Hopeful777 thank you :blue_heart:
@Seb congrats on 30 days :tada:
@Twizzlers thank you :blue_heart:

543 days no alcohol.
8 days no cocaine.
5 days no binge-eating.

Another miraculous day of peace from my addict. :raised_hands:t2:

My cats know Iā€™m sober again, they are hiding less and showing their appreciation with even more affection than before I relapsed :heart_eyes_cat::heart_eyes_cat: it breaks my heart to realise that my using affected them somewhat, because they are my whole world. Grateful for their forgiveness. :smiling_face_with_three_hearts: I do have a dilemma though, but Iā€™m trying not to panic. The only brand and flavour of wet food that Prince has ever agreed to eat appears to have gone out of production, it isnā€™t showing as an option on the website I have a subscription to, itā€™s not anywhere else online, not even on the brandā€™s own website, I am very worried, because heā€™s so fussy, any time Iā€™ve tried to put anything else in his bowl he has taken one sniff and walked away in a mood. I spent hours on the internet last night searching for it and for any other food that was atleast the same flavour and in gravy not jelly, but there was nothing, but Iā€™ve been doing some research, and have found a food by the same brand as his favourite dry food, the is supposed to be specially designed for fussy eaters, it is twice the price as his other food, so Iā€™ve only ordered one box to see if heā€™ll eat it, and it will be worth every penny if he does. :pray:t2:

Because of my new health issues, I currently am unable.to walk long enough to do my grocery shopping, Iā€™ve always been too anxious to order a home delivery of groceries because of having to interact with another human and not knowing how the groceries get from the van to my kitchen, but now that I have no choice, apart from my ED demon trying to insist that I went back to just meal replacement shakes :roll_eyes:, I have taken the plunge, I have a delivery coming between 10am and 2pm on Monday.

These may seem like strange issues to write a check-in post about, but acceptance, and willingness to try something different/new, can appear when things like this arise for me, and it helps to reinforce that I can apply these at other stressful times as well.

I had the best therapy session I have ever had, we spoke about the 5 nightmares I had on Tues and Wednesday and he showed me how they may have related to our relationship and how I feel about him, it was a perspective I never considered because I always relate things to my past/current/future experiences/fears, and for once I donā€™t feel triggered to harm myself with any of the addictions Iā€™m currently working on, and that feels like progress. :raised_hands:t2:

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Great check in Cam!! I hope prince likes his foodā€¦ cats can be difficult.

:orange_heart::dizzy:

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@kat261 congratulations 184 days.
@anon53116147 congratulations on 113 days, hope you start to feel better :hugs:
@SelfLove_42 79 days thats brilliant.
@anon74766472 day 1188 way to go!!
@Nordique wooohoo 600 days thats inspiring :+1:
@Misokatsu congratulations on 542 days!
@TigerMatriarch wow 4 months yayyy.
@Dansig congrats on 272 days.
@SoberGuyUSA 1288 well done thats amazing.

Anyone i missed the last couple of hours congrats to you too!! Its hard to keep up o this thread but im trying :slightly_smiling_face:

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129 days

Im up now its 6:25am on Saturday morning, i usually spend saturdays cooking and relaxing watching tv my favourite programmes.
But iv decided my cousin who is actually my best friend is re-decorating her home by herself so im going to help her today with what ever she needs, iv been selfish for too long when i was actively drinking and now i feel im in enough days of sobriety to offer help out that isnt an easy task for me decorating but il be abe to handle it.

And i feel proud to be able to take on a task that isnt for myself and i dont think im putting my self under pressure, i feel i am setting a realistic goal and it will be nice company too, as i still isolate myself alot atm.

Have a lovely day everyone il check back in later when im home. Glad to be here with you all.
Today myself and all of you here have helpes me to stay 129 days sober and i appreciate you all and your sobriety too.
:slightly_smiling_face:

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Hi Dana, trying to be consistent with goals I set for myself; keep anger issues at bay, gym, do my self help reading, meditation, wim hoff breathing, journalling, eat 3 meals a day etc etc, I have to have structured routine, or it all goes to shitā€‹:blush: I have improved now so when I lose motivation for a little while I am back on it ASAP. Where in the past my lapse could be monthsā€¦ I have to do lists everywhere ā€¦ and you are so right it helps so much in recovery, the feeling of accomplishment doing all what you set out to do. But I have an odd lazy day as well equally important. I admire the tenacity you putting into your recovery :100:

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