2 days behind you… 30s are dragging 
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Yeah they are! Great job you, and soon you are on 40’s aswell. Keep it up 
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Keep coming back… 500 days sobriety is awesome. Every day clean is a miracle. I had 260 days … nearly got 40 days back. Hard at first but the road of sobriety this time was remembered easily and learning more this time on a daily basis 
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Glad you’re here and congrats on 13 days, as well as feeling good!
So glad you are back @M-be-free49. You’ve been such a valuable contributor and I’m grateful to be on this journey with you.
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If anybody can share what an “inventory of myself” is , please tag me… just starting to write step 4… @Dolse71 ?
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Thanks for sharing this & welcome back. It’s so difficult that moderation voice … It’s often there in the background for me. But it’s helpful to read what you’ve said, it works until it doesn’t. And ultimately it will probably always go that way (for me anyway) & I need to remember that - so thank you.
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That is going to be awesome. Yes I’m sure the artist will want to work with you and tweek some things to make it more his or her style. The colors are definitely going to make that pop I love it can’t wait to see it
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Maybe summer… I’ll get it. I’ve got to be a good and get may exams out the way first 
. Thanks for replying mike 🫂
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“We made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves”
Step 4!!!
Congrats on making it to step four, this was where I started to find some real “freedom”.
So the whole purpose of this step is to sort through all of our own bullshit to find out who we really are!!! I mean let’s face it when we are in active addiction we aren’t honest with anyone including ourselves. By doing this step we are trying to free ourselves of living in old useless patterns, ways that will not serve us as we move forward learning to live without substances. Don’t get overwhelmed you simply need to put it all down on paper to the best of your ability so that it can be freed.
When I got my fourth step out on paper was when I saw some very obvious patterns in my behavior. Step 4 is amazing, I am coming up on Step 4 myself in this set of steps I am doing. I am really looking forward to digging deeper this time. I feel like I may have written too little last time so I will be going for shit this time.
Hope that answers your question.
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Day 592. Romanticising drinking, using, partying, hooking up. Not craving though, if you get what I mean. I mean at this slump where I am, unable to focus, unable to leave my house. I only in the past week have realised that I have been isolating myself big time. Developing social anxiety. Not wanting to do anything else than just be. Watch tv and lay on the couch. Pet cats. I dont feel a lot of emotions. I dont feel actively empty, but I do feel like my life is a shell. Before I used to try to connect with others so much. Yes, via substance abuse and partying. But I had people around me. I still do but I donr care. Well its not that I dont care, but I dont care about putting in effort. I am just building a cocoon, devoid of human touch, connection, experiences, outside world.
I dont wanna drink, I never wanna go back to that. But I dont know what the hell this limbo is. I dont feel bad, I dont feel depressed. But i also kind of dont feel. It all feels so very unimportant and uninteresting to me.
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Aaaah thank you so much.🫂… It seems it’s gonna be a ride and I just have to go with it … surf the wave 
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I understand this so well and I have been looking at it alot. " What is this “limbo?”
What has come to me is that this is the “grey” that I have never experienced in my life. Being someone (like most of us) who live driven by extreme emotions and chaos this “easy” feeling is new. It feels very uncomfortable at times, I often don’t know what to name it. It’s not numb, it’s not empty, it just is.
I think for the first time in my life I am just “being” and this is what it feels like.
Haha I am a humanbeing!!! Not a humanlosinghershit!!!
Congrats on your recovery. 
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Glad you back Emm, you were missed 
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Thanks for the reply 
. It’s nice to hear from others. I’m only 16 days, but determined to stick it out this time . For me it’s alcohol.
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When I started a business (hair) I flyered lots, I gave it my all talking to people about myself and how much training I had behind me, and everything and everything… I got very few and far between customers,
Then I just kind of let go of the self promotion, and instead focused on the clients I had and the business by refinement, book keeping, right products, clean and tidy all the time , right tools, but most importantly I was honest to myself about the love I had for my trade and my skill set, (always had low self esteem and never thought I was that good)…the more passion I had for myself, my trade and accepting my value as a skilled tradesperson, the clients literally just appeared and built one after another after another. Started with me, left to the universe to magnetise those clients to me 
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@Dansig big congrats on 9 months, that’s a lot of hard work 
@M-be-free49 I’m so glad you’re back 
I don’t have any questions, just stick around 
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Checking in another sober day ! 24 days sober so far !
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@Hazy stella explained it very well there , it’s also where the steps really started working for me too steps 4 and 5 changed everything for me
I would add that there is 3 parts of this step your resentments , your fears and your sex conduct which is not as bad as it sounds but I’m sure your sponsor has explained this to you
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Glad to see you. Thank you for sharing your bend in your journey. The path isn’t straight for any of us.
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