Hey thanks @Its_me_Stella and @Hazy . I will definitely check those out and I know your probably right Stella, I wasn’t mad at autumn. I just felt bad and was angry with the medicine, this is twice now we have brought her back to the doctors only for them to just up the meds she is now at 30 mgs of quilenchew I believe it’s called, she won’t take any meds that are hard capsule. I just feel like it’s with any drugs are minds keep getting more and more use to it and wanting and needing more to help us. But I will keep the faith, I just worth about my girl and want the best for her and I suck at handling my emotions, I feel like I’m no better then the shit I said I was put through as a kid. I do get frustrated easily and I also try to understand at the same time. And thanks @Hazy I will look into that medicine for myself honestly,idk thanks for the advice guys have a good night
Mike, you’re a GREAT dad.
Good for you for addressing it! It will be interesting to see how he responds to your direct approach. It is never nice to find out someone has been talking about you. Hopefully you can resolve it quickly! 
12 am. In between days 68 and 69.
I’m having a really hard time and I don’t even know why. The last few weeks have been rough. Part of me wants to give up but I’m still hoping this will pass. I don’t know.
Can you push for an in person appointment with your GP? Over the phone doesn’t feel like its enough here. Glad your Dad is on hand to chat to. That all sounds so worrying and then to have to work out the best way to advocate for your health on top of that… Hope you can get through and be heard before too long.
I am in a similar place with cigarettes/ nicotine at the moment.
Logically, I know my brain and the dopamine receptors or whatever are just attaching themselves to the idea that smoking will fix this discomfort. I know that is bullshit. I am not feeling bad because I’m not smoking. So there is no reason that smoking will make me feel better. It will just be a distraction and a delay. All giving into it will do is start a new cycle of addiction, increase my risk of health complications and decrease my bank balance.
Feeling off is normal. Sometimes there is a reason for it. If I let the feelings happen, learn how to interpret them etc then the reason might become clear and I might be able to do something about it. Or it could be something I’m not aware of out of alignment that will fix itself. Either way, it will pass.
I am not overly knowledgeable about all this stuff but I believe these dopamine reactions are really ancient human survival strategies, from a time when our bodies were more connected to the natural world. Knowing all this does not stop that part of my lizard brain wanting its tasty little dopamine treats though. Greedy bastard 
Yes, that is the plan. Hope they can fix it and if it doesn’t feel good I get a part of the tattoo removed by laser. But I do hope the have a creative plan to make me happy. I can’t look at the tattoo without my stomache hurt. It feels weird to look after my new tattoo to heal but I do not want it to heal at the same time 
Thank you for your reply, much appreciated 
11 nights to go…
PS and if you put my problem beside the war in the Ukraine this is peanuts, I know.
I’m sorry you are hitting a bump.
When I feel my confidence faltering, I turn to HALT and quite often I can remedy and feel better.
Sending you big hugs and please keep reaching out on the forum. Sometimes we just need to vent and get things out of our system.
Feel better soon.
Day 53 AF
Another funfilled weekend done and dusted. Finished reading ‘This Naked Mind’ which I found totally inspiring and will carry those learnings with me always. Hope everyone is doing ok. Take care of yourselves and each other 
@Pica It will pass. One of the most important things I’ve learned in sobriety is every feeling is temporary. Learning to sit with certain ones can be really painful or uncomfortable sometimes. Most of the time I learn from that feeling. I’ve been thinking of life as a tide. How it ebbs and flows. I look up to you and I’m so proud to be on this journey with you. Sending you love to get through this rough patch, you aren’t alone 
Day 159
Busy day today being out and about. Had a great time with my friend, my nephew and my daughter being nerds together. Barely winding down and just exhausted, thinking I can close my eyes and just pass out.
Another good day. I hope this keeps up.
I am a third of the way through that book and loving it, really helping me to challenge my assumptions. I already knew the unconscious mind was powerful but had never made the connection between that and my urge to drink!
Day 22 AF. Lovely sunshine here and am already itching to get out there. Hope everyone has a lovely sober Sunday!
Just read your story, that’s a scary thing to go trough
How are you doing today? Hope you feel better a bit and you may worry less. It’s so kind of you to reply on my tattoo problem when you have healthy issues yourself!
Congratulations with the 
days! 
Another gorgeous sunshine day and just feeling so much happier that I’m taking better care of myself.
I’ve come to realize that my anxiety is WAY down. I can only attribute this to the fact that I’m free of my addiction and all the stress that comes with it. Loving and respecting myself is a win win right now.
Have picked up a bit of weight but purposely didn’t put any extra pressure on myself in the last while. Will start hemming myself in soon. Still struggling a bit with focus and concentration at times, but trusting God and the process.
No craves or urges
Still treading carefully and very much ODAAT.
May the dragons keep sleeping and keep me in peace.
First goal: 1 month af (almost there)
Second goal: 110 days af
Third goal: 7 months clean precisely to the day on my birthday 2nd September. 
#Day 1258 
Using the Gaba supplement seems to help with me being stressed out. I use the serenity prayer a lot these days, even downloaded one in Dutch.
Bought myself new shoes to make myself happy. My old Jordan’s has a hole in the shoe sole 
This is my find:
Hope they arrive soon to cheer me up
*Today I focus on this day only and if I have a knot in my stomache I read the serenity prayer.
I hope you all have a great day and if not try the serenity prayer
Ohhhhh I love your new shoes 
I bought these as a gift to myself for reaching 1000 days. I’m so in love 
it’s been raining every day though so I’m hoping I get to wear them next week 
What a wonderful feeling to have! 
Wow just beautiful.
Those are some cute kicks all my fav colors. Hoping you can sport them next week too.