Congratulations on a week
Can i just ask is your DOC cocaine ?
As i think thats what i read in the past (apologies if its not).
It was one of my DOC along with alcohol.
Its a horrible drug and the come down from it doesnt start until day 5-7 after last use and can last for days to a week this is one of the reasons people relapse, as the downer can cause other stuff like low mood, other mental health conditions, emotions etc to become hightened and sensitive and im thinking maybe you know all this already but just incase it may help to know if you dont, i found it helpful knowing that when i was going through this stage that if i just got through today tomorrow will be better and that it does go away. Knowing also helped me stay strong through those waves of up and down knowing it does get better.
I think maybe you could be going through this stage, iv been there over and over and it feels horrible.
Remember these feelings are only temporary and you will feel better, you know it gets better and you can do this i wish you well for your recovery so keep going strong. And i hope you feel better when you wake up.
I know you can do this, i know in my heart you can do this.
Thank u so much for ur thoughtful post my friend my DOC is crack. So yes concentrated form of cocaine. Similar withdrawal and stuff Iād imagine. I find that after 3 days, the physical cravings go away (this is where Iād usually relapse). Buy yes my moods are all over the damn place. I also have Borderline Personality Disorder and am currently not on meds (which I so badly want to be onā¦ but they are expensive and we are STILL waiting on benefits). I thank u so much for ur hopefulness and love n thots I only wish the best for u as well and am always happy to see u posting! U seem to be doing well and Iām proud of you
It was mixed feelings Iām afraid. The best friend of the one wich the party was given for took me aside. Told me that his best friend was very unhappy with the fact Iām going to get married but without inviting him ore others.
It upset me to hear that. He told me he didnāt liked it, but not how much. It sounded like a big āthingā right now. It made me sad.
So tonight Iām going to talk to him and his wife and hope to clear the air between us. Not that Iām going to change the way I marry, but hope to make clear it has nothing to do with not loving him ore wanting him around me.
Monday comes around far too quick and the winds have picked up again, but after a lovely weekend am ready. Pilates this evening, and try to eat more healthy this week after the lovely, naughty food I ate this week.
@Jennajen well done on sticking to your guns at the party and lovely you have such supportive friends @paper_boats congratulations on 5 months of sobriety amazing work especially when you are going through heartbreak, keep doing what you doing @Kacialyn congratulations on 3 weeks those first few weeks are so hard, personally I have steered away from relationships as all focus was on keeping sober. The feelings will go away, with sobriety you do get clarity, good luck at your meeting. @Mno great sky have a good day @Butterflymoonwoman well done on 1 week so deserved.
Very nearly majorly fucked up TWICE today (with work, not with staying sober). Just noticed in time both times and got away with it. Phew! But doubting my ability to be trusted with anything atm.
Sorry but that makes me a bit mad. You do this for you and your (soon to be) husband. You donāt need this BS. They should be able to put their self centered feelings to the side and be happy for you. Hope talking about it helps. Love and hugs friend.
Checking in sober and hang-over free.
Finished my first night shift, so gone get some sleep soon.
When I was still drinking I would have a few beers after my night shift before I went to bed. Now I will drink tea and wait till I get tired and have some quality sleep instead of waking up and feeling terrible.
I didnāt smoke for 2 weeks, and really happy about this
Have a nice sober day my friends
@kat261 days is amazing! Congratulations with this milestone. @Soul_Man Congrats on you weeks of sobriety @zzz You are doing great days is amazing!, stay strong @Hazy Congratulations with your days of sobriety I reached this mile stone 2 days ago We got this @paper_boats Congrats on your months. hope you had a nice dinner with your mom and daughter @Kacialyn weeks is amazing. Keep up the good work @Butterflymoonwoman Yeah! week! You did it again! Congrats. Proud of you
Hope you are not feeling sad anymore after a good sleep
Day 9! Still sober, still fighting the fight.
Had a great weekend with my girlfriend. We realy enjoyed ourselfs.
Iāve got a birthday party coming up next wednsday. Thereās gonna bo booze but I donāt need it anymore!
Got my girlfriend with me to support me if the night getās to hard. But I have faith in myself.
Yes, Iām in it with you Menno. A bit mad and irritated myself. But going to try to put that emotions beside me tonight and hope I can get him do the talking to get the heat out of it.
And maybe give some space for his ego as well.
I do not gonna let this spoil our day!
Feel abit nervous approaching the quad digits, Iām abit paranoid about complacency and being comfortable. But I think it can be a healthy paranoia to haveā¦ have been spending more time on here and started back at meetings last week. Felt good to be backā¦ itās another reminder that life doesnāt miraculously become all perfect and roses when we stop drinking but we do accumulate healthier tools to manage and cope with lifeā¦
Today was the hardest day with no cigarettes, just the āheadfkā side of things, its such a mental challenge breaking free from the habit but Iāve got through today. And tomorrow Iāll get through it again. ODAAT
Todayās feels
Iāve gone from wanting to kill people in a restaurant with their glasses of red wine to just feeling very slight fleeting ādamn youā lol, I I spoke with my sponsor this morning and she said itās just the alcoholic in me being a little envious that I canāt be ālike thatā
Anyway we were away for the weekend and did loads of socializing and it really wasnāt a major at all.
Someone was trying to get me a beer and eventually I just said āI donāt drink thanksā I felt so empowered and bad ass. lol
Iāve eNever liked beer so that was probably a good thing too.
I laughed SO much this weekend. Proof that I donāt need the alcohol. Slowly but surely I am feeling so much joy washing over me.
Feeling a bit uncomfortable about not having tobacco today, but Iām huffing the vape, gotta go in for a lab practical in a bit, maybe feeling a bit anxious about the week and overloading my mind with all the stuff thatās going to happen this week. Day at a time
It takes time to sort it all out. Maybe months. Early sobriety isnāt a good time for big relationship decisions unless itās getting out of abuse. I think meetings will help. Sit with that regret a bit and forgive yourself before moving on anything.
@Dazercat Congratulations on your first old fuck discount! One of the perks I list every years for getting older is that Iām that much closer to getting a senior discount. You have offically made it. @Charlie_C Nice job on the TV. Iāve been thinking about how I want to set up a floating TV/gaming center, and debating on if I want to try and do it myself or hire someone. Have you done that before? Was it time consuming? @paper_boats five months is five months. Iām somewhat apathetic over milestones too and finally I just decided not to bother. If I wake up clean and go to bed clean, then Iāve won the day, and I guess in a way thatās the only thing that really matters. @SoberWalker When I got married, I apparently hurt so many peopleās feelings by the way I decided to do things. Who was or was not included in this or that, or whose name was where, as if my getting hitched had anything to do with anyone else. Good luck with clearing the air. Itās your life and this is about you and your soon-to-be, and no one else. I donāt know why some people need to make these types of events about them.
my DOC is crack. So yes concentrated form of cocaine. Similar withdrawal and stuff Iād imagine. I find that after 3 days, the physical cravings go away (this is where Iād usually relapse). Buy yes my moods are all over the damn place. I also have Borderline Personality Disorder and am currently not on meds (which I so badly want to be onā¦ but they are expensive and we are STILL waiting on benefits). I thank u so much for ur hopefulness and love n thots 
have a good day
weeks of sobriety 
days is amazing!, stay strong 
We got this 
week! You did it again! Congrats. Proud of you 
One of the perks I list every years for getting older is that Iām that much closer to getting a senior discount. You have offically made it. 