Checking in daily to maintain focus #39

I do not know either :woman_shrugging:
Just heared from my aunt heā€™s angry too because we choose his and his partnerā€™s birthday as wedding date. If I could do it all over again I would have told nobody about the wedding and would have married secretly!
But I thought letā€™s share the fun! How wrong I was :frowning:

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Awesome :tulip::tulip::tulip::tulip::tulip::clap::clap::clap::clap:

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Superstar :clap::clap::clap::clap::clap:ā€¦ proud of you!.. Practising saying no and meaning itā€¦love that :two_hearts::two_hearts::+1:

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Nice !!! :slightly_smiling_face::cherry_blossom::muscle:t4:

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I hope you donā€™t let this spoil your special day. When my husband and I got married I let everyone push me around. I wanted a quiet small wedding but I ended up with a big over the top wedding that I couldnā€™t even enjoy. And I still had pissed off people! To this day I wish weā€™d just run off/ eloped. Stand your ground with patience and resolve.

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Hi Kat here checking in on day 201ā€¦

At work on 6-2 days which is awesome going to hit the gym after work and Zoom Healthcare professionals meeting tonight.

Had a great in-person meeting last night with a 2-year celebration and powerful speaker. I gotta tell you all, this works if you work it!

Love and have a great sober day,

Kat

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Checking in
Day 7
Good morning beautiful people :cherry_blossom:
Had a pretty good sleep. Had 1 panicked wake up during the night over an awful dream. I can remember who it was about but not what happened.
Today is Family Day here. Hubby is home. He is taking some time today to go shopping and get a few things. We will clean the fish tank today too. And Iā€™ll tidy up around here. Think one of the fish might be having babies soon too :flushed: Not sure but it looks like it!
Self pity is gone thank God. Sometimes i honestly just need to end the day a bit early (well yesterday I went to bed on the later side actually. But I know when I need to just shut er down).
Hope you all have a wonderful Monday free of your addiction!
:butterfly::hibiscus:

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Thanks @Becstaā€¦.glad I put my recovery tooā€¦.and I know right a nighttime baby shower with a bar.

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Another beautiful picture. Thank you Mno

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Happy Mondayā€¦beautiful sunshine here in Ontario. Today is family day.

Taking the kids go carting followed by board games. Thankful to be sober and aware to be present for my family today!

Strong serene 24 allā€‹:pray:t5::heart:

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Great job!

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Thank you so much!!! How are you doing in ur recovery?

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Doing well most days :slight_smile: some are better than others but thatā€™s the nature of things. Thanks for checking!

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Absoutly eh? Living life in lifeā€™s terms isnā€™t easy some days lol :upside_down_face:

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Day 619 clean and sober, smoking reset. Todayā€™s my Friday I hope you all have a wonderful day!!! Love you guys!!! :sunglasses::metal:t2:

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Trigger Warning - Childhood Abuse

Checking in with 193 days. Iā€™ve been doing pretty well with sobriety and not having the urge to drink. My days are mostly filled with exploring, reading, meditation, and dreaming. If thereā€™s any advice that Iā€™ve consistently given myself, itā€™s to never stop dreaming and using my imagination.

The areas Iā€™m not doing so well in are the heaviness that hits me at times and not being understood by others. I used to have a belief that being understood somehow meant that person owned a piece of me. I hope that makes sense to someone. My beliefs have changed, and now I want to be understood about some thingsā€¦ itā€™s frustrating at times when Iā€™m not. I struggle with not taking it personally.

Iā€™ve always been a little different. I honestly believe it began with being raped at such a young ageā€¦ 9 years old. Adults love to say that children are resilient, but theyā€™re really not. When trauma or big changes come, kids hold onto that. They bring it into adulthood, into relationships, and into parenting. Since becoming sober, Iā€™m still learning to cope, and being misunderstood makes me feel so alone. Iā€™m not special because of what happened to me. But I am a deep thinker, I am a little weirdā€¦ Iā€™m struggling some days to like myself, because whatā€™s the point of speaking, of sharing, if no one gets it.

I also know myself, and Iā€™m learning from my sobrietyā€¦ this will pass. I just have to keep trudging on.

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I think you explained that very well

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Day 130, girls came over for a little so chillen and relaxing with them. I swear it hurts like a nother when your so proud of something and get absolutely zero feedback. But w.e Iā€™m fucking proud all that matters, and before anyone says donā€™t worry what anyone thinks, literally think of hitting all of your milestones or better yet your one year and gettinf absolutely zero recognition on it. It fucking would hurt, but pick myself up move on like a big boy and carry on I guess no responses is better then laugh reacts and shit, itā€™s not validation im looking for when I post the shit on FB but criticism what could I do better where can I improve bc literally having different perspectives is niceā€¦ Still love what I do and will continue loving myself and my work. Tread mill should be here soon canā€™t wait

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Hi Mike congrats on your sober time. Your doing awesome and you know itā€¦and it shows. Talking about the shit helps which your doingā€¦acceptance helps too we can only change ourselves! Congrats on the treadmill I have one too and love itā€¦ā€¦helps release a lot of energyā€¦love a good sweat!

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I feel youā€™re on the right way by beginning to understand yourself. We do that by becoming sober. And working our recoveries. In a sense I feel recovery isnā€™t always the exact right word, because what is there to recover? We build ourselves a new life, a new self, a new understanding.

We build ourselves a new life on the ruins of our former ones. We do this for us. Yes, itā€™d be nice if others get us. But I feel the first thing is to understand ourselves. Only when we achieve that, others may see a glimpse of the real us.

At least I feel this for myself. And Iā€™m finally making some progress. One day at a time, ups and downs, ten steps forward nine steps back. Sober and clean. Big hugs friend.

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