Thank you!! 
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Look at you! Awesome, awesome job! Way to go rock star 
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Congrats Brandon! Youāre doing amazing, happy to see this!
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Thank you Frank!!
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Well Iām so glad your are here and able to talk about things. I was hospitalized with anorexia when I was 13 which turned into bulimia. I had a severe fear of specific foods and suffered from specific food avoidance for many years. I consider myself fully recovered. Iām still super health conscious and I think about what I put into my body but but I donāt feel that it is any part of an ED.
Iām glad youāre super aware of yourself and know your triggers. I also know a lot of people that donāt have eating disorders that still have disordered eating so of course itās super important for you to be aware of your situation but I hope youāre not being too hard on yourself about eating a perfect three meals a day and snacks. I think sometimes we can strive too hard to have things the way we really think they should be to be ānormalā when we have to remind ourselves that other people skip meals and have food sensitivities and it doesnāt mean theyāre falling off the tracks. I donāt know if this was helpful (and I certainly hope Iām not making things worse) but I just wanted to say Iām glad youāre here.
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Checking in
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Morning TS fam! Hope everyone is well 
Woke up feeling good this morning. Literally my stinkin thinkin has vanished (for the most part) over night haha. I am excited for today as hubby and I are heading out to Michelangelos: Sistine Chapel art exhibit. Literally this would have never been something we wouldāve done in the problem. My God we barely had enough money to buy groceries at a regular supermarket (it was either applying for food hampers or buying stuff at the dollarstore to get by).
Iām feeling very grateful today. I was kind of nervous about yesterday and this weekend. It makes me nervous still when hubby and I are together for long periods of time cuz I worry that one of us (mainly him as of late), will ask about using. I havenāt even had the urge to ask. He hasnt either but I do get that āusing vibeā from him sometimesā¦ like yesterday. Thankfully he doesnt bother asking me. And lately I have been using mantras sort of to change my thinking about drugs. For example: When I repeatedly say out loud certain things about myself, it becomes what I believe. I do this by saying positive things about myself everyday so that I can begin to believe them and increase my self-esteem. But I also do this with drugs. When I start thinking of using, I will say out loud, āDrugs are disgustingā, āDrugs are toxic and poisonous to my bodyā, āMy body is my temple and I want to treat it wellāā¦ this kind of stuff. I used to think drugs were my best friend to be honest. And now I canāt stand them. It literally disgusts me to think if putting something into my body that hurts me. I am trying to re-wire my brain lol
Anywayā¦ I have to finish that dreamcatcher today and do some cleaning up also. Should be a beautiful day!
Love to all
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Wow this is huge!!! Snowboarding is hard too! So glad u got to experience something soo positive! Proud of you
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Oh my gosh! You totally motivated me to make a dream catcher!!! I made one years ago-Iām going to try to get stuff to do one today!!!
I used to be so creative. I donāt do stuff like that anymore.
And yeah I totally hear you about saying things out loud or even writing them down. Our reality can be what we tell ourselves. We are writing our own story. Positive affirmations work well but also like youāre saying speaking about drugs or alcohol ā¦Iāve done the same thing āAlcohol is toxicā āAcohol does nothing good for my bodyā Alcohol causes Cancer" etc etc. I even had a bottle of vodka in the cupboard and I put a skull and crossbones on it with all the reasons why I didnāt want to drink. Anyway thatās a little different than what you are saying but I thought Iād share. Iām kind of rambling 
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Thanks for sharing 
It is similar for sure! Itās almost like turning something negative into a positive. Those negative things (like negative self talk) can actually be transformed in the same way for something positive. If it works for the negative, it will work for the positive lol
I love making dreamcatchers. I posted some up on the art thread I think. This one Iām doing today is for my hubbys coworker who is struggling with alcoholismā¦ well him and his wife. Its a bit diff as Iām doing the Leo Constellation in the webbing. Iāve tried other forms of art but realistically the only forms of art I have a passion for is baking custom cakes and dreamcatchers. I smudge the dreamctacher when im done too. I talk alot about God now, but for many years and how I started my journey of spirituality, was learning the Aboriginal culture back homeā¦ the medicine wheel, the 7 sacred Teachings, the medicines and their uses, smudging, sweats, drumming, ceremony. The culture is beautiful and I still incorporate it into my daily life so I will smudge the dreamcatcher when itās done to cleanse and set intention for them
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Iām really noticing that caffeine affects me differently in the morning now that Iām not drinking, or maybe its just because Iām not drinking in general, but my anxiety is super high and it wasnāt when I first woke up and was laying in bed reading these posts but after two cups of coffee Iām feeling really unsettled and a little shaky and a little short of breath. Itās a beautiful day here and Iām excited for it but I donāt know if this feeling is actually a good feeling because I have more energy from not drinking or if Iām actually just feeling super anxious. I would get on my spin bike or go for a run to burn off some of this energy but I need a rest day because I teach so many fitness classes and Iām suffering from a slight hip flexor strain from overuse. Probably help if I could do a meditation but I just donāt know if I can do that right now. Anyways I know Iāll figure it out- just thought Iād share cuz it does make me feel better.
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So proud of you Dana!! 
you are honestly killing it!!
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Day 631 clean and sober today. Have an amazing day everyone I love you guys!!! 
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Thank you so much
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Caffeine is an interesting drug. It really affects people differently on an individual level, but also depending on what other things we may or may not be taking into our bodies.
There is a large thread on caffeine, which Iāll link you to. A lot of it is talking about quitting caffeine, but even if you have no intention of quitting, it would be great to have your experiences of how it affects you after getting sober in that thread if you ever feel the urge.
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Next youāll be to 3 weeks then a month and so on. Keep up the good work. Peace
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Hey Dana
Thanks hun. Sitting in the chair as we speak.
Blessed day to you my friend.
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7 9/16 M AF Checking in clean and sober and enjoying the coffee!
Hoping to get some exercise in today and get outside. Grateful to not be stuck in shame these days. Ty HP for the blessings in my life!!
Thank you all for sharing, enjoyment was felt.
Dear Tao, help me stay on the Pathā:pray:š§āā:hugs:
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Slava Ukraine!
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@Butterflymoonwoman yes! Michael Sealey has lots of sleep hypnosis/guided meditations on youtube and his voice is incredibly soothing.
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