Pretty ordinary weekend, still sober so there’s that. Just riding the bumps not alcohol related.
I had a guy buy a desk from me today but when he came to pick it up it didn’t fit in his small Ute so I offered to drive it to his place in my 4wd about a 30 minute drive away. When I got there he insisted I take a bottle of wine and 6 pack of beer as a thank you. I really didn’t want to take it but also didn’t want to offend him so just took it and passed them onto my eldest son.
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Well, here I’m again. I’ve not been here since a very long time, some of you may know me still.
I’m on day 2 today. On Friday I slipped and drank. It was all too much. The pandemic, the war and friendships that broke bc of the pandemic.
Well, I did it once and I’ll do it again.
So, hey guys and gals 
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Congratulations!
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Welcome back! Disturbing times right now for sure.
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Day 91 Check in yesterday I got my 3 months sober even though I had work from 3am to 2pm it was a chill day but while I was getting ready to leave I saw a crew member rushing to finish his work so I helped I ended up leaving a hour later which was all good so then my brother wanted me to come through and hang and his lady made dinner which I definitely needed it was good times didn’t get home till late and now getting ready to leave and start the day all over again I’m not going lie kind of tired but I woke up to messages from both of them telling me how proud they are of me so I’m going use that positivity to get this day started. I hope everyone has a great day we are sober and we are winning. Peace to All
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What a great post, I loved reading this. Great job for 3 months and 1 day 
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@JennyH Huge congrats on reaching a full month Jenny! Good times and bad ones. Drinking helps with nothing and you know and act it. Excellent work. Keep going.
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Glad to see you Sabrina. Sorry for the circumstances. Well, you know the drill. One day at a time for all of us. We do it together. Welcome back.
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Prayers and hugs Paige. We all have days like this. Hope you have a better day today.
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Huge congratulations Jenny on 1 month. Keep at it ODAAT.
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Good morning everybody Kat here checking in on Day 214
Still at the hotel with parents and kids woken by the fire alarm. Having fun hanging out and swimming. Makes me feel sorry for the few trips I took here under the influence of drugs. Being clean means I get to really be present for my children which is what they deserve.
@CATMANCAM congrats on your clean time and thanks for the shout out! You are doing great.
Love to all of you and have a great clean and sober day!
Kat
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Sunday is here. Day of rest… relaxation.
Prepared Sunday dinner yesterday…seasoned so just to cook later roti and curry chicken.
Hanging low with the children trying to just be my oldest son says I always have something planned which is true so today going to just be
Serene, strong and sober 24hr.
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Happy Sunday! 24 more hours under our belts. Ok, I currently do not have a belt on but you get what I mean lol.
Had a good storm last night and it’s still very windy out. I’m sure my garage cans are half way down the street.
No day off this week for me because there is a tournament today and some of my students are competing. So I need to get my happy butt out of bed and hit the road.
Have an awesome day!!
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It’s great to see you again. Welcome back.
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Hey all, checking in on day 630. I hope everybody has a good one!
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I’m totally beginning to realize each moment of being sober is so much more real. I too enjoyed time with my family so much more being sober last night. I don’t know why I think alcohol will enhance the experience when in fact it does the comlete opposite. Cheers to connecting with loved ones with a clear mind and to truly being present.
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If I could put 10 likes on this comment I would. I also have to fight fantasy thoughts after 20 + years of porn addiction. I do alot of self talk. Yesterday I went to a festival and saw plenty of beautiful people. One in particular I saw her and I didn’t want to just focus on shapes which my brain loves to do. I just said to myself “human being… cut it out bro.” That self talk snaps me out of it. Avoiding social media helps too. My wife wondered why I still block the internet on my phone. I need those barriers in place as daily reminders of my journey and what I don’t ever want to go back to. At that same festival I saw a beautiful lady and I literally said outloud which made me laugh…“oh boy…day 108.” It’s a daily battle…not with porn…like @KevinesKay said just taking ownership of your brain and controlling it. Toxicity level barometer is great.
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Day 109
Just checking in. Have a great day everyone!
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Hey everyone! Made it to day 7. I’m excited to make it through today to get my first week down. This past week has had its ups and downs for sure. Lots of self reflection and of course, being scared about what this will bring. Trying to find an identity without the alcohol is a completely new experience. I’m just experimenting finding out the things that I love to do. It’s been a frightening but exciting journey. It hasn’t been easy, but it feels so worth it today.
Thanks to everyone here. You have helped me in so many ways. Glad to be a part of this community!
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Day 11 to Day 0
I think there is no other way than Sobriety.
12 days ago I wrote this:
about 15 years ago because of night job, parties and reading Nietzsche and Tibetan Books of Dead and so one day after party and lack of sleep I got this Panic Attack that ended up in Ambulance. I later had Panic Attacks every day for 4 years. Started to drink Clonazepam and got addicted. Later I got depressed and Depersonalization - Derealization syndrom. Everything was getting worse and worse. Nothing helped. And One day one Famous Bioenergetic / Parapsychologist helped me in one hour he only talked to me and said everything what is wrong with me and what I need to change to cure myself. I started to heal from that day. No panic attacks, no drugs, no dp/dr for like 10 years now!!! After my alcoholic father stabbed me almost to death while drunk few years later I was going to one doctor who helped me to remove tention from my neck and back. We talked a lot about life with that doctor and I mentioned the name of that Parapsycholoyst who helped me. The doctor was like 
I KNOW HIM! He changed my life like 20 years ago. He was a Fighter and someone beated him so badly that he became almost disabled. Nothing helped and he went to that famous Bionergetic. He gaved advice to go to China I believe and since that day his life changed, he was healed and later started to heal others and became good doctor.
Coincidences sometimes still freaks me out and gives me some flashbacks of that Derealization and axiety. Some says there are no coincidences, those are spiritual things. I am very familiar with Kundalini energy and such things… but lets not dig that deep.
In other hands I know what is 23 Enigma, and at the end this shows how incredibly human mind works. If you attach to one thing you can see everything in it…
But still when something like this happens it freaks me out. And since I dont have Panic Attacks I dont like those flashbacks.
And today I saw this post:
That every World War date numbers combined is equal to 68 and that 2022 02 24 sum is also equal to 68 that gaved me that flashback again. I know that about 20% or more of my relapses are because of this and addiction, but going into sobriety is always stresfull in a way, and when you combine some of your brain errors like this I can now understand why it leads me to relapses or resets.
At least I have no reason to lie to myself or to drink tomorrow and I will continue my journey.
Yes because of my anxiety I did reset today. I just have this fear. There was like 1 time I almost died and 2 times that was very close to it, and every time I get this strange coincidence sensation I get very uncomfortable. On the other hand I feel like I need to go through this. But I dont feel like I am ready. Sorry
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