Checking in daily to maintain focus #39

[anon27760155]

Hey all,

Smashed my phone… So struggled to get on here.
I’m getting stronger everyday… Im under the respiratory clinic, there is shadowing on my lungs from the scan… reassurance from the specialist that it’s fine.

Im back and forth to my hometown and where I live at the moment. The death of my nan and the way we found out has made the relationship with my mother stronger and the fact she has shown me the mum who cares.

My only goal this year is to reach 2 years of being clean…

I had a cover up tattoo on my neck… it was an old nickname from my swinging days…

I hope you all are doing well, don’t be hard on yourself… Give yourself some self love and worth x

Here’s to 2 years of changing my behaviour!

[Nordique]

I’m so glad you’re doing better!! Thanks for updating us

[Pica]

I’m so sorry to hear this thinking of you.

[Deep]

Hey guys.
Checking in day 24. Just about to go to bed.
Have a great day guys.
Bye

[Hopeful777]

So sorry Stella our dogs provide comfort and pure, uncomplicated love thinking of you

[Maggie27]

Lol. I have a 13 lb Maltipoo and HE takes up half the bed (granted, it’s a twin)
I hope you can get some relief!

[Dan531]

Dang. I’m sorry

[Seb]

So sorry to hear of this. It is a very sad thing to go through. Sending strength your way.

[Mno]

It’s great to see you Danni. Just keep going ODAAT. As you are. It makes me glad to see you sober and clean and fighting and living. Hugs and love.

[Mno]

I’m so sorry Stella. I hope you can feel some of the love that we all send your way.

[Hazy]

Thanks. Was short and sweet… didn’t talk for long. Was very nervous. Probably didn’t make much sense. But people were really nice sharing back

[Hazy]

… Thank you @Charlie_C . That means a lot. Thankyou. I felt really angry at myself this morning. It’s done tho. And I should be proud of that.

[icebear]

This is so hard. I am so sorry to hear that you are losing another dog, @Its_me_Stella. It sounds like they had a good life and were lucky to have you. Wishing you strength.

[Gbw3006]

Checking again another sober day !

[Tragicfarinelli]

Lying in bed awake for past two hours, anxious and off. Listening to the radio and my dearest OH snoring away starting to worry about being tired tomorrow for work. Not sure why I’m finding it so hard tonight…I feel like I should be past this now.

[Nowenbrace]

7 2/32 M AF. Checking in sober and nicotine free! Finally gifted the bottle of wine away so no alcohol in the house
Ready for afternoon meditation to let go and let be 🧘‍♂️
Congrats for all milestones today, good work!!

[Misokatsu]

I am sad to hear this. But I know u will be there for ur fur baby, and sit with the sadness, because that is the next right thing. Sending strength

@anon27760155 What a meaningful tattoo! And after surviving all u have, u can definitely get to 2 years.

[Alisa]

Thinking about you @Its_me_Stella , so hard. Thinking about you and family. The love is always there. Sending you strength comfort and thoughts.

[paper_boats]

Checking in, day 150.

So close to 5 months, I was hoping to be able to celebrate such an awesome number of days but I’ve had a constant migraine all day instead. Might just have my rest day early and just be lazy with my daughter all day/evening because this headache doesn’t seem to be subsiding and I don’t like taking medicine unless absolutely necessary.

I used to hate Thursdays, now it’s like they never even existed.

[SadMemeQueen]

From today on I’m only going to share how many days clean I am on milestones. I will of course update if I am no longer clean, but the coutning is adding a lot of pressure that leads to me wanting to relapse.

I really don’t have the energy to go into depth about today. It was a lot of family drama and family being shitty. Nothing major, just generally fed up.

Not wanting to relapse. Just stressed. I hope you all are well