Im so sorry that you’re going through this.
A loss of a dog is the loss of a family member 
What has helped me out with the situation is acknowledging/appreciating all the love you two gave to each other and how you were both lucky to have had shared such a loving bond.
I will be going through it soon again, my old man has been surviving on borrowed time, its a miracle he’s been alive this long. I’ve had him since I was in high school.
My heart goes out to you.
Meant to say something earlier but got going with the girls. Just wanted to say thinking of you and keeping you in my thoughts, thank you for everything your an amazing person 
Congratulations on 10 days! 10 days is a huge deal be proud of yourself.
Thanks everyone for your love and support. Heading to a meeting because that’s what I was taught to do…
Hey lady 
hopw ur evening gets better. The meeting sounds like a lovely idea! Hugs xo
Evening check in
Day 3
Day was decent. I feel like I did what I set out for myself to do. Have to keep checking in with myself constantly tho. My mind is sneaky and wants to stir up shit lol hubby came home. I’m doing my best to be just more cheerful and pleasant. He is joking around with me abit more and that’s actually kind of nice. Coming up to Day 4 tonight. Feels like it’s been ALOT longer than that since I’ve used. Grateful for that distant tho. I am really enjoying where I’m at so far in recovery. I feel it working. Obviously I may need to adjust as time goes on, but for now this feels right with what I’m doing and how it aligns with my recovery 
Hope everyone is having a peaceful evening/day! Hugs 
Day 735~ Hit my 2 year sober anniversary on the 13th!!! 
My life is no longer consumed with alcohol and how I’m going to get drunk. My life is now consumed with diapers and bottles and pumping and feedings oh and Laundry 
lots and lots of laundry. I no longer pass out wondering what the hell I did this time to embarrass myself. I now pass out from pure exhaustion from the 3 AM feedings. It’s all worth it though for those sweet baby cuddles. There is nothing like it. The peace, love, and pure joy I have right now in my life is beautiful and I owe a big part of that to my sobriety. None of what I have or the life I’m currently living would have been possible hadn’t I decided to stop drinking. This journey has brought me through the darkest of days and taught me the hardest heart wrenching lessons but it has made me the woman, wife, and mother I am today. I thank God everyday I was given a second chance. I love this community and all my dear friends I have made at TS. I’m forever thankful for you all and appreciate the love and support. 
PS: Baby Leila saids happy belated Valentine’s Day 
Oh and of course the cow 
pic!
Had a good job interview this morning with a satellite TV installer. Went well I think but they’ll call tomorrow with either a yes or no. I’m so nervous about this I almost want them to say no. Then I wouldn’t have the pressure of doing a regular job, unlike that gig at the hospital which wasn’t too challenging. Plus, there’s a week long training in Wichita. They pay for the hotel, but I don’t know how I’d get there. And I’d miss a medical appointment I have for the 22nd.
I’d like to just leave this up to my HP but I tend to worry regardless. Anyway, in the midst of my confusion, I ended up ordering a pizza, negating all the gym time I put in this week. 
So, how is everybody else doing?
@Dragonflygirl82 Congrats on the 2 years!! Give Leila a Valentine’s hug and kiss for me!! 
So cute. I might sound weird for saying this, but man I miss my babies bald heads and rubbing my nose on there little tiny soft heads and getting that baby smell… So healing seriously. Congratulations on your two years
Not weird at all! I love doing it too! And sniffing them thanks Mike I appreciate it I hope you are doing well.
Thanks so much!! 
Thank you!!
Belated congratulations on your 2 years!! So awesome to read how wonderful life is going for you in sobriety 
And what an absolute little darling you have, I also could just sit and inhale your baby, best smell ever. Sounds totally weird but know you get it 
Alcohol, drugs, porn, gambling, over eating. Could somebody tell me if I’ve missed anything 
the good news is I don’t have to sweat it when having to stop the ‘Paul’s next great idea’ bc 1 program fits all… We just remove self from the situation. Works every time.
Love this post!!! Absolutely correct for me! Literally anything can become an addiction for me 
Aww, how precious! Wonderful to see and glad u are doing well, apart from the lack of sleep of course!
Day 94 here…
Loving my new Recovery home and community.
Loving Red Rocks Church Littleton campus and my best friend coming along with me. Always an experience there for us both. (Individually)
Grateful to be of service to my friends.
Finally got one of our storage items sold today. It helped considering work has been slow.
Ex husband attacked me bad, verbally, all week and now won’t answer when I call to chat with the kids. I’m sorrowful to hear he decided to medicate our 10 year old.
Oldest sister also attacked me this week , calling me a manipulative bitch then told me to F off after sending her a Happy Valentine’s text. I’m thankful I’ve grown to a place of acceptance and love , in spite of people.
Been back in touch with some older, wiser and mature in their spiritual walk women whom I’ve known for many years. That’s been great.
Went to see an old friend who was once my CAC III therapist turned dealer turned friend. It was rough seeing her in the shape she is in. About 40 lbs lighter and heavy in the dope game. God bless her and my heart just broke open with love and wanting to nurture her as she once did for me.
I go hard for my people. Yet I know when to draw a line and wait.
I walked around some tough parts of Denver just observing where needs ought to be met. Considered what I need to pack in a backpack and give away to those who need or ask.
Applied for non-profit positions to get experience to build a resume. I got hands on experience of the other side like a triple crown winner tho🏆 lol
And I’ve got a heart of gold or palladium for the people out there still in addiction, homeless and broken.
I’ll take another 24.
Love you all, my brothers and sisters.
Thank you Dan 
@Misokatsu thank you congrats on all the 5s
@ShesGotMoxie thank you
@icebear thank you congrats on 250 days
@EFountains congrats on 3 months
@Wasabi79 congrats on 500 days
@zzz welcome back 
@Its_me_Stella sending so much love and strength 
@Maggie27 welcome
@Dragonflygirl82 oh my goodness! I’m so happy for you, congrats on 2 years AF and baby Leila
@DryIn785 good luck 
556 days no alcohol.
21 days no cocaine.
Woke up feeling 100x better than yesterday, physically and mentally. My lows really scare me, especially when they come out of nowhere.
Managed to get all the cleaning done today and the agent came to take photos, glad that’s out of the way. Hopefully there’s some interest from investors.
Of course I’ve had to ruin a good day by ordering anorher takeaway and bingeing again. I literally can’t have any junk food ever because it leads straight back to this.
