Thank you 
I talked to them for a little while today, only one of them knows but he was proud
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@Jonachav123 congrats on double digits 
@Hopeful777 thank you 
and I really hope you can get the day off 
@JennyH thank you I hope your children are okay and that you feel better soon
@Dolse71 congrats on 17 months and 1 day
@Mike36 welcome 
congrats on 52 days and inspiring others
@Charlie_C oh my goodness, Jackie is so adorable, what a gift
@Bomdhil welcome back
@moonchild7994 congrats on 2 years 
@Soberelliott congrats on 30 days sorry you’re.struggling, sending strength
@SadMemeQueen congrats on 10 months
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@Deadman cool catch 
congrats
@Thirdmonkey I hope Ms. Monkey and the rest of your household all continue to be well
@Becsta @ALC227 @AyBee congrats all on quadruple digits
561 days no alcohol.
26 days no cocaine.
3 days no binge-eating.
Fell asleep before finishing so this is my check-in for last night.
Today I managed to do my cleaning again, without cocaine. The professional photographer came to take photos and do a floor plan this afternoon. Soon, the flat will be advertised online, initially targeted at ‘investors only’ for two weeks. I am hoping for a miracle.
I finally had the courage to ask a man to be my sponsor after the CA meeting tonight! 
Absolutely terrifying. I am to send him my gratitude list every day and call him every morning at 11:30. It was unfortunately very obvious that just like my experience with NA, this fellowship also consider mental health medications as not being sober. I’m not going to let it stop me from continuing to attend meetings and do all the work. All I know is this; I’ve been on all of my meds for many years, they saved my life, I’ve only ever taken them as prescribed, they have never made me feel any ‘high’, I’m just not suicidal 24/7, and I’ve never even thought about abusing any of them, the same goes for my meds for my physical health issues. Sponsor said ‘its a grey area and I’m not a doctor’. I’m already terrified of calling him in just over 5 hours, I’ve got no idea what I will talk about! But I’m so grateful for having the courage to finally ask him. 
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Woooohooooo
Congrats on asking him to be your sponsor!!! It’s nobody’s business but your own what medication you take. Your recovery love, not anyone else’s. If people bug out because you take clean time and you’re on an antidepressant I would suggest they take a look at the program they are working themselves, not yours.
I’m so happy for you!!!
I have noticed a big shift in your posts. So good!
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423 days
Got the day off so going to interview tomorrow, which is at an assessment centre, involving role play!! My worst nightmare, just not going to think about it too much
@Charlie_C Jackie is adorable you are a great Grandfather
@Bomdhil sorry you have had to reset, any insight to your trigger? Keep fighting and well done for getting back
@moonchild7994 wow congratulations on 2 years and sending best wishes for you and your toes
@TigerMatriarch great catch with your numbers
@SadMemeQueen congratulations on 10 months well done
@Deadman great catch, great numbers 
@Butterflymoonwoman love your dreamcatchers, I always have them in my van, yours are so pretty, going to see if I can find a kit. You have inspired me
@Misokatsu love that poem! I bred as well
@Becsta wozzer amazing 
congratulations on 1000 days
Have a strong 24 hrs all 
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HI Stella, sorry the day has arrived to release Annie spirit she was such a lucky dog, and sure you will continue to feel that spirit. Big love to you
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Hey Cam you are making such great steps be very proud, I am for you… not familiar with NA but it strikes me wrong that MH medications are even in the loop, these can be vital for people. I would suggest that’s your personal business not theirs.
Good luck with sale …
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Goodmorning all! Checking in on day 11.
I’m gratefull to be sober at this moment. And I choose to be for the rest of the day.
Got that birthday party tonight. Others will be drinking. But not me. No sir!
If one is not enough, have none 
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Day 155 checking in
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Day 155.
It’s been a very busy day and I’m currently at the gym when I remembered that I was reading through the checking in posts earlier and I didnt get a chance to finish reading them all or actually check in. So here is my check in for today, better late than never!
It was actually a really good day, nothing extravagant even happened, I just started my morning with therapy and was in a good mood ever since. I’m hoping that I have more consecutive days like this ahead of me.
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- Coffee. I did sleep a bit better, only woke up twice. Could it be the fact I have the day off which makes me more relaxed? I really need to make work of finding other work. Why is it so extremely scary for me to give this job up and find something new? So scary I’m totally paralysed ATM. I made so much progress in so many areas of my life. But in this one I’m still stuck.
We’ve been talking about stuff we want to do, talk about, practise with, in the final ten sessions of the schema group therapy I’m in. This has to be the focus for me. Inside and outside therapy. Sober and clean or I’m sure nothing will happen. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Clean and sober. Love from Amsterdam and the Strawberry Mountain Wilderness in OR. I love Oregon.
@Its_me_Stella 14 Years is a good run, but it’s so hard to let our friends go. Very sorry for your loss.
Hugs.
@SadMemeQueen 10 Months is huge Megan. Big congrats.
@Nowenbrace That’s a pretty sight Owen. Good one.
@Hopeful777 Roleplay… You’ll get better at it each time they force you to do it. Success.
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@Becsta HUGE congrats my sober sister and quadruplet on your quadruple numbers!!! It’s a big one. I feel it. You did it! Hugs & Love & Everything.
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Lizard brain is a good way of putting it. I have been reading all about the unconscious mind, and the need to persuade that that we don’t actually want the drink. Hard though.
Good luck, and hope we both avoid those annoying dreams!
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Congratulations on asking him to be your sponsor! Huge step. I haven’t read the logic behind the groups decision to see mental health medication as not being sober, but it doesn’t seem at all right to me. In fact, it seems dangerous to encourage people to stop taking medication that they need because of imbalances. I would have thought that was crazy at the best of times, but coupled with people trying to get sober it makes no sense.
Well done for not letting that put you off though, sounds like you are making amazing progress
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Such a beautiful picture, thanks for sharing. It is a beautiful sunny day here in Hertfordshire, makes me feel like anything is possible.
I completely understand your work problems. I have finally found my place, and I can’t express the difference it makes to the load I carried around. I had to give up my dream job to get here. It may have been a dream I theory but the reality was just awful. And then I was battling not just the reality of the job, but giving up my dream. So much emotion is attached to our work and identity. Sadly it took an emergency trip in an ambulance for suspected stroke (it wasn’t) before I accepted that wasn’t working. There is a picture of me from that time with a bloated face, spots everywhere, looking exhausted on the hospital bed. I can’t believe how many warning signs I ignored.
Sorry, that turned into therapy for me 
I was trying to empathise and ended up spilling years worth of angst! 
I hope you find your path. I found mine by basically prioritising my mental health and recovery from illness. I had to let go of a lot of stuff first and settle for a “right job for now” rather than the perfect, destination job if that makes sense.
Good luck!
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February 23…
I know this is anxiety that I have after drinking yesterday, but I am afraid that sticking to this date later can start to freak me out like this guy…
and that can lead to relapse in the future…
I know this is not a try to get and extra day to drink. I know, I tried it before and getting like Feb 24 would end in much calmer counting… while days like 13 triggers me.
I remember I was sober like 2 or 3 months, going to AA few times a week. I got this ‘‘bad luck’’ sobriety date and every time I was celebrating my date, the number spinned and spinned in my mind that one day I said, f**** I will reset it.
Oh my Birth date is April 23… you see I start to become crazy ALREADY 
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I know what you mean about dates, mine is 6th Feb which was always an important date to me, so feel the opposite and like to see it.
Can you just say 24th? You don’t have to drink today to start the timer tomorrow?
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For some people counting is counterproductive. I think for quite a lot actually. It makes them extra anxious. We all should take it one day at a time anyway. So, just as a suggestion, why not stop counting? Just for today you will not drink. I won’t either. We’ll probably won’t drink tomorrow either, but we’ll worry about that when tomorrow arrives. Have a good sober day zzz.
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Day 23 
I’d be telling lies if I said it was easy but I can say from the bottom of my heart it is worth it.
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