Day #683 sober. Still attending about 4-5 meetings a week, feeling safe and stable, not wanting to drink, but still feeling pretty isolated and lonely. Went backpacking this weekend with my son and some other father/son’s and still coaching middle school baseball, but in the midst of being around all those people, I find myself lonely and craving real connection and conversation.
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Try eggplant 
instead of meat 
. I tried this vegetarian version on one popular ar restsurant. Very good one. I also try to eat less meat. At the moment I try to pick more fish instead. Probably spiritual reasons plays big role here, but also all those antiibiotics they use and cruelty is something that pushes me away. Trying to stay with friendly farm food as much as possible. Thats why I posted a picture without meat
before. Don’t want to insult anyone who are against eating meat. Well we try our best, step by step. We need to detoxify our bodies but our minds more importantly - too. Change does not comes in one day and changing eating habbit is a BIG task. Drinking always puts me on bad diet and kicks me of my discipline. I hate that. Happy to be back on track 
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My heart goes out to everyone in Ukraine. My partners great grandparents were born there and he has friends in Kyiv, who are scared and trying to get out.
In a world of unexplainable evil I feel suffocated, confused, and powerless. All I know to do is to pray for the people involved and for a kinder world. No matter how hopeless it feels sometimes. 
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Day 143 AF Not in a good head space right now. Difficult work/business issues and disappointments. I’m angry and frustrated. These are things that I used to deal with by drowning it in alcohol but I’m not going to do that. ~ sigh ~ But heaven help the next supplier that tells me the cost of their product has gone up AGAIN. I am ready to explode on what inflation is doing to my business.
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Hey guys. Checking in day 31.
Feeling tired and gonna go to bed early. I have noticed some urges popping up. Will be very aware for the next few days.
And little disturbed about the ukraine situation. Sending prayers to these people. It must be very scary.
@CATMANCAM Thanks. You are doing good yourself. Keep up the good work.
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Day 622 clean and sober today. I hope everyone has a great day today, love you guys!!! 
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Welcome back, you have been missed.
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I think a huge part of the stress I’m feeling has to do with the high tensions in the world. I soak up those negative emotions and internalize them. I know you’re very empathic too. We need to put our shields up (Trekker reference). I’ll have to back off from the news and social media again.
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Hey April…yes it is magical love it!
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Late Check in… Sober!
Today was a tough day. I was realy close to a relapse, but gladly it didn’t happen.
I couldn’t sleep after my night shift, although I was tired this drove me crazy.
I has been a few weeks since I had this crazy cravings. I had my plan ready to go to the shop and buy some beers and drink my self to sleep. Luckily I felt asleep for 1 hour…when I awoke the craving was less powerfull and I recognized that drinking alcohol will net help me to have a good sleep and it will make me feel worse.
Happy to be sober and ready for my last night shift 
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Great to see you back here! 
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Sorry you had such a struggle but glad you made it through.
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Hugs and much love to you my sweet dear.
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Thank you Alisa
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Checking in 
Hit this milestone again today! Feeling much different in my recovery in a sense this time around. I really been trying to work on the inner stuff, being aware of my thoughts, which in turn effects the outter stuff. And also definitely working on my connection with my HP.
Today I finally got some good news! I have health benefits now! Husband kept pushing for them and we have our benefit cards now! So thankful
I’m ordered my meds for tmrw, but unsure at this point if the benefits cover this specific med 
it’s quite new over here so I’m not sure. Anyway, I really hope so and I hope this helps my mental health. I will fins out tmrw if I can get it.Other than that, things are ok today. Jist taking it easy. Hope everyone is managing alright today too! Hugs!
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I agree, I think many of us are empaths here 
it is difficult that someone I love has friends directly affected. I’ll be there for him, send all the love I can, and do my best to be kind to those around me.
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I hear you. Keep strong.
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Look at you go Dana !! 
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Day 50 AF
In those 50 days I have come to a better understanding of addictions. Having been clean from a 13yr marijuana habit for 8 years now, I learned I simply replaced one addiction with another. Feeling positive and strong this time around. Thanks to everyone in this fantastic group for sharing and encouraging. Love you guys.
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Checking in again. Just made it through a work social event without a relapse. This particular event has been a problem for me before, so I am happy to have come through to the other side. Now I am in bed with a chamomile tea. Wishing for peace in the world tonight.
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