Checking in
Day14
Feeling okay so far. Really using HALT today cuz im not listening to my body very well and I’m getting irritable. Even when good things are happening, I can still get overwhelmed. I’m not lonely or angry but I am hungry and tired. I just feel like I have so much to do. And I’m getting thru my list of stuff but at the same time I’m not taking care of my needs like eating. So im sitting down and eating now and rehydration with water. I got my meds and YES they were covered! So im going to try it and see how they work overtime. Other than that the rest of the day is cleaning and tidying up the apartment. Making supper. And self care!
Hope everyone’s day is decent!
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Thank you Eric…feeling good. ODAT.
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Checking in on day 296 alcohol free. I had my last physical exam of my military career today. I’m in as good of shape today based on blood and urine tests as I was when I entered the service 20 years ago which is a miracle given the way I treated my body like a dumpster for 19 of those years roughly. My joints on the other hand have seen better days lol.
For those keeping up, I passed the pre-employment assessments and received a call back for a second round of interviews for a company I have my eyes on for my second act so that’s exciting.
“[T]hey are being fulfilled among us, sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly.” Let me tell you, my life is full of promises fulfilled these days. Promises to myself, to my wife, to my kids, and to my future.
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Sweeeeeet 200…good on ya
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Amen Dan
Beautifully said.
Best of luck on landing your new job…and thank you for your service.
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Impressive…Good on ya.
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Checking in 6 weeks sober !
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Thank you for sharing. I have two sons and a daughter and don’t really know what I’d do if I lost one of them. They are the reason my cPTSD hasn’t won (probably, I’m hard-headed tho)
I came in here to be proud of my 60 days today, but am so much more thankful for the focus shift your post provided <3 Super psyched for your sober days!
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Way to Go!! Gary!!
Congrats on the 6 weeks!
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Moxie!!!
Congrats on the 200 AF
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Great job on the 2 weeks Dana!
Keep using those tools.
Keep breathing.
5 min meditations go a long way.
Keep using HALT.
And by all means keep reaching out. We’re always here.
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@Lynnie6191 welcome 
congrats on your days so far 
@1in8billion I always love seeing and reading your posts 
@Pica congrats on 70 days sending love and strength
@Lotusflower good luck with the return to full time work 
@anon42928441 congrats on your week
@Bomdhil congrats on your week
@Cherrijam welcome back
@SadMemeQueen I’m so sorry you went through CSA and still find yourself around your abuser regularly. I also agree with what Stella said regarding ‘forced affection’. Love and solidarity
@Hopeful777 sorry you’ve been struggling, sending strength and I hope there is soon resolution for the work situation and a more well suited job in your future
@Mno sending strength
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@Tito23 congrats on the new job
@anon53116147 It’s amazing to read that you feel proud of a tattoo you’ve done 
@Jls1 congrats on your week
@anon74766472 nice number 
sending strength
@Tragicfarinelli welcome back
@zzz good luck for your first day at the new job feel better soon
@ShesGotMoxie congrats on 200 days I’m so sorry about the creeps 
I hope you’re okay
@Butterflymoonwoman congrats on 2 weeks I’m really pleased you got your meds and they were covered 
@Dansig congrats on your good health and the call back
@Gbw3006 congrats on 6 weeks
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@Lorelai @icebear @Butterflymoonwoman @siand @SoberWalker @Deep @Chiron
Thank you all for the congrats and words of support for my health situation. Much appreciated.
The purple and chest pains are back again tonight, so I’m going to try to get an appointment with whichever doctor is on duty tomorrow, and maybe it will be a different one than I’ve been speaking to.
567 days no alcohol.
32 days no cocaine.
9 days no binge-eating.
With all the new stuff I’m doing, per suggestions from my sponsor, my daily routines, rituals, and timings are all thrown out. For a person with ADHD & ASD this is not a good mix. I am trying really hard to adjust, but when my head is in a mess and I’m not doing everything in the same way and at the same time every day, I can start to forget important things…I found myself last night unable to sit or lay down, I was pacing around and talking to myself, including being verbally abusive to myself in every mirror I walked past. It was really scary, and I was worried I’d need to go back to the mental hospital to keep myself safe, thankfully although I was clearly having a psychotic episode, I retained just enough self-awareness that when I realised it had gone from 9pm to 2:30am and I was still awake and behaving in this way, I questioned why and realised I hadn’t taken my evening meds after the meeting, this is because I usually take them at 6/7pm with dinner, but I didn’t want to fall asleep during the Zoom meeting. Anyway, took them all as soon as I realised, and eventually closed my eyes at 4:30am until I was awoken by hungry cats at 8am. I said my prayers and put a meditation on, but I obviously hadn’t had enough sleep because the next thing I know, I’m awoken by a phonecall from a CA fellow, I didn’t answer as I saw that the time was 11:32 and rang my sponsor straight away because I’m supposed to call him at 11:30! I explained as best I could.
Anyway, that’s why I missed yesterday’s check-in. It was a good day before all of that, because I picked my sponsor up and he came to mine for a couple of hours to start step work. Interesting to hear the science behind the ‘physical allergy’. He’s coming over again tomorrow afternoon. I am really enjoying the Zoom meetings he recommend, they are all solution based with main shares. It’s the face to face local meeting tomorrow night, so after step work with my sponsor, I will be attending that.
I took my meds about an hour ago, it’s now 00:37am so I’m hoping to close my eyes and get some sleep now.
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7 7/16 M AF Checking in clean and sober.
Happy Monday to all. Ty HP for
watching out for and providing for us. Before I do my 2nd meditation going to do some clean up around the house. Actually I can do the tasks mindfully watching my arms move etc. And will proceed to drop the complaining habit.
Just this present moment, together 
🧘♂:hugs:
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day 5, your doing great 
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Thank you
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Thank you, I’m feeling better today and talking about my feelings with one of my close friends and it’s making me feel better. Thank you for pushing me to talk about my feelings here, I know it’s exactly what I should be doing to stay sober.
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Thank you❤️
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