Checking in daily to maintain focus #39

[SoberWalker]

#Day 1261

My 2 oldest children have Covid. The oldest one discovered it when on holiday in Hungary with a friend. My daughter 2 days ago. They live on their own so we can easily keep our distance. Visit her yesterday to put some food and stuff on her doorstep. The oldest one is heading home today.
Today is a day off for me. Have to see the dentist and treat myself with a visit to a triftshop.
Tonight I have dinner with a good friend to share the pictures from the wedding.
7 nights to go before touch up tattoo

Picture from yesterday walk to my daughters house. Spring is there!
Make this day a day to be proud of, that is my intention too!!

[Alisa]

Wishing you a good day and a happy spring @SoberWalker ! Beautiful pic! get well to your children!

[Dmcg1987]

Day 163 checking in odaat

[CATMANCAM]

@Butterflymoonwoman thank you I feel like a totally different person! I hope you found some moments of peace in your day
@SadMemeQueen sorry to hear this please believe you can start again
@Peace welcome back congrats on 3 days
@Hazy congrats on 60 days and a sponsor who is there for you
@Mno thank you and thank you for sharing the photo of that moving piece of Art
@Lotusflower thank you so much I’m proud of you too
@ryanjames022819 congrats on 50 days
@anon42928441 congrats on double digits
@zzz congrats on your week
@Bomdhil congrats on double digits

[CATMANCAM]

@Brookiemonster618 congrats on almost 3.5 years
@DryIn785 glad it went well
@SadMemeQueen I can relate a lot to how you feel, because I relapaed on day 460, and that relapse has left me with a mystery health issue that may be permanent. I hope we can both heal in this next stage of our recovery. Sending Love, Strength, and Hope
@Kacialyn congrats on your month I’m proud of you too
@StarK31 congrats on double digits I wake early too, between 3-4am most days, I find if I start my settling down routine around 7pm, I am usually asleep by 9/9:30pm, but with now doing meetings til 9/9:30pm, then my check-in here, I’ve been going to bed much later and it is hard to adjust and I’m tired in the mornings now. Hopefully you will adjust if this is your shift going forwards
@SoberWalker that is such a lovely photo of those beautiful flowers You’ve got through a week, you can do it again Enjoy the meet-up with your friend sending well wishes for your children with Covid

569 days no alcohol.
34 days no cocaine.
11 days no binge-eating.

My internet was down so I was unable to finish this check-in for yesterday, but here it is…

Did my daily prayers and meditated twice for the first time since I relapsed in mid-December, it felt so good.

I called some newcomers, I am so filled with joy that we all seem to share the same hope and enthusiasm for the program.

Some guys further along their path have started calling me to see how I’m doing, and they share how speaking to me keeps lighting them up. We keep it by giving it away .

Attended a Hybrid meeting last night, via Zoom, it was a great share.

I feel like a completely different person, I keep wondering if I’m still sane

I’m a little in my head this morning, but coming here helps, and once it’s mid morning I can phone the newcomers’ numbers I got from the meeting last night, and I’m sure I’ll feel energized again after those calls, then I can call my sponsor at 11:30am.

Hope, Faith, Courage; I’m grateful to be experiencing all of it.

[Mno]

999. Coffee. The sun is out. Might ride my bike to therapy. I had maybe my dreamiest night ever. I remember five different ones. And even though the content wasn’t all nice, the images in 'm were beautiful. I feel pretty good. Despite the mess in the world. I do my best. Sober and clean. One day at a time.
     Have as good a day as you all can friends. Make it clean and sober or nothing will come of it. Love from The Netherlands where yesterday obviously it was take-a-picture-of-a-crocus day, right Claudia? @SoberWalker
     
     
     
     
     @SadMemeQueen Glad you’re here. You’re not giving up. Hugs.
     @CATMANCAM Nice to see you in the morning for a chance friend. And even better seeing you do so well.
     @Kacialyn A full month yay Kaci! Big congrats lady.

[SoberWalker]

Thank you, you are always such a kind person up here Good luck with the phone calls and may they help massive!

[SoberWalker]

Ha ha, yes it was Menno! Love yours too with the in it.
I made loads of pictures of them, it made me happy! I hate wintertime, so bring on the warmth!

And another spam crocus

[ShadowFax]

Checking in Sober and Hangover free.

I am feeling much better today then the last couple of days. The enormous anxiety is gone for now. I am not sure where it came from, since I didn’t have those anxiety attacks for weeks. I don’t now how to relate them or how to express myself about it. What I do now is that I am sober and I feel good about that.
I have one day of work left and then my holiday starts. I will go by train to Luxembourg and have a one week hiking trip with my close friend. Packing will definitely give me some stress, because I have to carry everything in my backpack . But I can handle that kind of stress.

Have a nice sober day my friends!

@Callie99 a belated congrats on your months of sobriety. You are doing so great.

@ShesGotMoxie and for you aswell, little late… congratulations on your days.
I am so proud of you huge inspiration to me!

@Lotusflower Tripple digits! Amazing milestone! Keep it up.
Congratulations on your days

@Hazy Congrats on your days as well Great milestone

@anon42928441 You are doing very well. congrats on your double digits.

@zzz days! Very well done! keep up the good work Congrats

[Tragicfarinelli]

Hahaha… Too right! Crisps is harder I think!

[Tragicfarinelli]

So, yesterday was a mixed bag. I had a productive day with work, ate nicely, hydrated, attended 3 online AA meetings, did my exercise (aching today). Got a call from my sister who is now in therapy, and she had questions about our childhood and was offloading the outcome of her therapy onto me with real self awareness and almost surprise. Super happy for her, my heart was swelling at her opening up and growing…

Then she was happy as she was going to have pizza and wine with her fiancé and it all sounds so lovely and joyous. It was 6pm, primetime alcohol period for me. It hit me like thunder, all the feelings at once. Dryness, panic, want.

Anyway, told her I loved her and was proud of her and continued my evening quietly with a La Croix. It eased off and the evening turned out pleasant… Asleep before 12 and got over 8 hours . Very surprised at that really all considering!

[Chiron]

@Brookiemonster618 Welcome back!
@SadMemeQueen I’m so sorry you’re feeling this emotional (and physical) pain right now. You definitely haven’t thrown everything away. There is so much life ahead of you. This difficult moment in time may act as the cement that seals this difficult issue for you. Seeing that you felt no different after, that whatever there was for you there before is gone. You can look at this as a loss, or you can look at it as an opportunity, to have something to look at in the future if you feel tempted and remember how you got nothing out of going back. It sounds like you’re going to push forward and make the most of where you’re at now, even though you don’t feel like it. That’s strength, even if right now you feel weak.
@Kacialyn congrats on your 1 month chip!
@SoberWalker Those flowers are beautiful! Both pictures!
@Mno I love bees. What a great shot you got there.

[DTC52]

Hey everyone. Checking in on day 4 here. Been a really stressful week from work. Just piles to do and not enough time in the day. Had a weird using dream last night that woke me up in the middle of the night. It felt so real! But I still woke up sober today. Loving the feeling of being able to get up early and not be sleeping in late and still feeling terrible. Starting to feel a little better, although still fatigued. Looking forward to the weekend where I can catch up on some sleep.

Glad to have this community. Let’s keep going one day at a time!

[Luckyredz]

Thanks @Chiron & @CATMANCAM

I’ve been down with Covid this last week and it’s made me very unspiritual lol. No meditation, very little morning gratitude lists, not wanting to attend or share at meetings, lot’s of social media scrolling, no exercise. It’s starting to shift now and looking forward to getting back on the spiritual wagon so to speak

[Lotusflower]

Hey Roland thank you so much for the support and encouragement. Feeling good.

Have a wonderful time on your holiday

[PaigeTurner]

Ohhhh Megan… Schucks. There is beauty in your transparency here.
Sad with you. Sitting in this pain and humbleness with you my dear sister.
You haven’t lost all the wisdom and tools. Nor the friends or family youve gained during your season of sobriety.
Quite possibly what you’ve gained is insight into unhealed spaces and unreleased hidden stuff that hasn’t been turned over.
See this as opportunity to continue on your journey toward transformation and whole healing.

You are more than able, your are more than a conqueror, you are strong, beautiful, made on purpose and for a purpose. You have gifts and talents that are specific to you alone and you have wisdom that I gain from the few shares on this app.

Keep moving forward dear sister.

It’s ok to not be okay

[Lotusflower]

Good Morning all

It’s Thursday . Breathe.

Feeling good and focused. I’m finding that I bounce back much quicker then before re incident with my ex. I gave myself one day…then got back up. With gratitude.

Sober and Serene 24 all!

[Lotusflower]

Sounds like a nice productive day and a chill sober night. Well done Emma🤗

[Rockstar24777]

Good morning! Day 629 clean and sober today. Working day shift today so I’m up super early. I hope everyone has a wonderful day today, love you guys!!!

[Misokatsu]

Day 569

Played domestic goddess today. Back and forth to Laundrymat to wash big winter blankets and did some baking too.
Happy that I jogged 20 mins and did a little yoga.