@Annedizzle
@Miranda
I know y’all are around here somewhere.
Congratulations on your 10 days.
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Day 171.
A good, yet exhausting day.
Productive, busy, wholesome.
No time given to allow the anxiety demon to jab at my soul.
No complaints besides it being overly cloudy so i couldn’t enjoy the sunrise this morning.
If that is my only complaint, then it was clearly and ultimately a good day.
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You made my night:hugs:
. I saw this and smiled from ear to ear:heart:
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Woohoo, thank you!!! 
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I feel kind I’ve been having a few days like that too. I’m supposed to be completing an on line course-but I can’t focus. It’s more important to stay sober and not force the studying right now because it makes me soooo anxious.
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It’s day 7 for me.
My first week. I am not having a good day today. I’m exhausted. I know it’s part of the process. Getting a schedule. Getting through the acne and sweats and such after you stop drinking. I feel like if I even take a day to just rest I’ll relapse. I know it will pass. I know I am worth it. But im still struggling with the cravings.
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I wanted to respond to that post earlier, but I was overthinking what to say🤣 seriously!! I typed and deleted and typed and delete.
Sounds like you had a rough day. Congrats on keeping it together. I understand the headache thing when holding in frustration. Have you tried a meditation to release anger/frustration. I’ve found a few that really help. I’ll try to find a link… Hope you’re feeling better now♥️
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Day 5 is almost here. I have not had a day 5 in years but it sure feels like a win. I can’t stop grinning. I know things will get harder but I am ready for it this time. I am not looking back. ODAAT.
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Yay! I was right where your are 5 days ago!!! Day ten feels good! Keep going, I’m excited for you. It’s not all easy, you’re right, bit it is soooo worth it!
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Congratulations on your first week Emilee. It really was the hardest week of my life. Stick around. Keep checking in. Stay involved here.
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@Butterflymoonwoman congrats on the good news re hubby’s dental treatment 
I’m pleased it has helped to strengthen your recovery, hold on to that 
I’m sorry the therapist was dismissive 
@PaigeTurner thank you so much for these beautiful heartfelt words, I read them in a sleepy haze and pressed the heart around 4am yesterday morning, and they meant a lot then, but reading them again now, wide awake and in a new place mentally, they mean even more. Thank you for taking the time to write them, I see your kind soul, and I’m sorry you know the quiet pain of the suicidal spirit too. I too, feel blessed to share the air, this earth, and our struggles, with you
@anon53116147 sentiment felt and appreciated. Much love to you too Nice work throwing away the pre-workout and acknowledging it as a real problem. I managed to quit caffeine for 14 months but it has crept back into my life recently too, I’m limiting myself to iced coffees at the moment, not allowing myself to buy energy drinks or sodas because they do give me jitters, shakes, and chest pains. Wishing you a successful quit with it
@Lisa07 thank you Lisa 
@mno I agree, everything happens for a reason Thank you for the stunning photo reminding me how beautiful nature can be 
@Mich80 congrats on 4 months
@Pica congrats on 80 days
@kat261 thank you
@Sabrina80 Good luck with the Angiograph examinations 
@Chiron thank you for your compassion I really hope your vet can appease the Gods so your cat continues to get her meds so sorry you have to jump through such hoops 
sending strength
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Thanks girl! I’ve never tried one for anger. I seriously might have to try this!
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@JennyH prayers for your daughter’s health
@Deadman congrats on 1250 days
@Kdog sending strength
@WitchyKitty congrats on your week
@Miranda @Annedizzle congrats both on double digits (if I have interpreted @Dazercat correctly)
@Caite1025 welcome congrats on 5 days
577 days no alcohol.
42 days no cocaine.
19 days no binge-eating.
Fell asleep around 11pm whilst catching up, it’s now nearly 5:00am here in the UK.
Yesterday I felt very raw and fragile emotionally, also lost, a bit shaky and on the verge of tears all day and evening, but overall, a welcome and stark contrast from feeling suicidal. At this moment in time I feel very stable and okay. I also have my Testosterone shot in under 4 hours, and then I’m visiting my new friend at midday, so today is going to be a good day! 
I have just remembered to turn my boiler on so there will be hot water for my shower in a couple of hours, before that I’m going to try for a nap, failing that I will just be on here with my SAD lamp on.
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I tried to send one through messages, did you get it? Not sure if it went through.
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Checking in
Day25 in 30 min
Really proud of my hubby right now. I feel like he’s really taking his recovery seriously.
He went out for a smoke on our balcony snd noticed our buildings Concierge trying to unlock someone’s car (I guess they locked their keys inside). My hubby decided to help cuz the Concierge is a much older man and even tho he tries to help, can’t always help. Anyway he comes upstairs and tells me… the car that needed breaking in to was one if our old old dealers from like many years ago! They obviously knew each other. Thr Concierge went inside cuz it was cold. My hubby unlocks the door for this guy and the guy asks him if he still needs “food”(our DOC) and would give him some for free as a thank you. My hubby said he went on a diet long ago and laughs and then the guy have him $20 instead for helping him. Omg wow… my hubby comes upstairs and said we domt need that shit and goes for a smoke. Proud moment right now! I sometimes would wonder if he was really serious about getting clean… Told him how proud I am of him 
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That’s so great to hear! I’m happy for you both♥️
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Me on the other hand is trying to keep it together cause it’s sooooo hard seeing my hubby on his fifth beer… Just enough to change his mood. I’m trying super hard to focus on me. He’s doing the best he can in this moment. He’s a good guy. It’s my addiction making me feel so angry
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#Day 1269 
Went to the tattoo shop yesterday. The tattoo artist who would fix up my failed new tattoo listened to my story and called another artist (the owner) for a second opinion.
The decided to get back to the drawinig tables, so no touch up for me yet.
So they made pictures (again 
) and come back with a plan. If drawing doesn’t lead to a solid plan it’s going to be the laser thing on their costs. Then remove the part that is ugly and tattoo it again.
So I have to wait again and I’m not good at that. But at the end I will be happy they said because it will be fixed one way ore another.
But for now I still have an ugly tattoo on my arm 
Feels like I’m being tested. My mantra these days is: what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.
I hope I can laugh about this when it’s fixed and it is a good story for a party. But for now I found it horrible.
Picture made during my walk before tattooshop to try to get my mind more calm, it worked.
Now a day of work ahead.
Have a good day all of you! A good sober/clean day, because that’s the best option for all of us
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Thank you. I appreciate it. I was really concerned about being able to get one specific medication before she ran out because she takes it four times a day and I didn’t want her to suffer.
I was also personally angry about it because I had to deal with this kind of stuff during my years of addiction, and I don’t need this crap now that I’m clean. I know some people take their pets’ medications, of course I logically know and understand and it’s not personal; but I have left over trauma from that time in my life and the insinuation this flag brings up pushes on that sensitive spot.
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Oh I love that photo.
I’m sorry you have to wait longer… I have a hard time waiting too, but it is so good to make sure it’s exactly what you want. It’s something to look forward to, and when it’s done you’ll definitely have a good story with a happy ending:heart:
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