Yes, that’s what I keep telling myself: it will be on my arm for the rest of my life, so it better be good! It’s worth waiting. But that’s one part of my brain, the other half want it fixed yesterday 
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Day 9 of no self harm.
Nothing much to say today. Applying for some jobs. A lot of family arguments today. I’m going to have to take a shower tomorrow so that will probably take all my energy
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If you want I can send you some pictures of my arm to cheer you up 
. And I tell you being a tattoo artist who has messed up a person sucks but I’m glad they are fixing it for you, I still love being a artist but I can’t lie the anxiety I get from it is very real and I do feel it’s building me to be a stronger person. If you don’t mind me asking would you mind sending me a picture of it, I will not laugh or judge, but I seriously love looking at tattoos and studying and seeing what might of happened. I also understand if not as it makes you feel uncomfortable, and hopefully I’m not out of place asking.
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Checking In
Clean Time: 2 Days
Today was filled with a lot of positive choices and I accomplished a lot… However, it felt crappy because the urge to use is still so strong for me. 
•For the first time in 2.5 weeks I went to work and stayed for my entire shift.
•When offered drugs I said no… twice!
•I informed my co-worker who is in active addiction that I am getting clean and no longer wish to use.
•I enrolled in an outpatient program for mental health/addiction, and will do that for 3 hours in the morning three days a week.
•I called my recovery coach for support.
•I got back on my bipolar medication.
Sometimes I feel as though the cravings make me feel like my day was “bad”… But I did well today. Looking at my list of good choices just makes me realize my day wasn’t remotely bad. I just didn’t feel the best - but the outcome was good. 
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Oh that’s so amazing! I’m so glad that you made a list like that because yes l!!! Look at all of your accomplishments today.
You should be absolutely amazingly proud of yourself and I’m proud of you too 
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Hi All, 7 3/4 M AF. Checking in clean and sober, ty to TS. 
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Day 171 checking in
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Day 577
Did an amend today, that is all my inlaws done. It ended up being short and sweet, and then a long talk about my past and current marital issues . It made me think.
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Checking in Day 34. Not sure how my daughter is yet but heard her coughing in the night. She has already had covid back in December so hopefully that will help protect her. Most children seem fine.
I have decided to use the next few days to ‘heal’ the family, as we will all be in together. We are all so tired and missing some of the fun in life, if that makes sense. I have ordered a candle making kit for me and daughter to do once she is ok. We made a NY resolution to do hobbies together and that has got lost. Now it will be a Spring resolution. Husband and I also plan to get out in the garden and tidy up ready for Spring.
Of course all of the above assumes we don’t get covid ourselves 
Made a decision not to avoid cuddles with daughter so it may well happen. Just didn’t want her to feel isolated.
Sending positive vibes to all. I hope everyone has a wonderful sober day.
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Hi to all the inspirational people on this site. I don’t often post but I do read much of the daily check in entries to not only start my day but help throughout the day too.
10 days sober but also starting my 22 year without a cigarette.
Have a great day to one and all.
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Coffee. Ended up biking all the way to therapy yesterday, instead of going by train the last part because I forgot to bring a mask and I didn’t want to pay the ridiculous amount they cost at the station. It was a bit too much on my hybrid bike really. Woke up halfway through the night with the worst leg cramps ever. Really didn’t know what to do. Well, it did subside but it took quite a while of agony.
I’m OK now. But not going for much PE today. A small stroll through town will do. Sober and clean. And have some healthy food. Be in bed in time and be ready for another work week starting tomorrow morning.
Have as good a Friday as you all can friends. Make it clean and sober or nothing will come of it. Love from my ride yesterday.
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Day 7.
I was able to overcome one of my biggest fears with the angiography day!
I FUCKING DID IT!!! And I did it good!
My boss gave me a fist bump 
Anything is possible guys.
Anything.
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I am so happy for you! I am genuinely smiling right now as I type. Seriously. You are awesome. You did it! 
Also, congrats on your 7 days!
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Listen carefully to those lyrics…!
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Good morning everyone. Checking in on day 203. Yesterday was a bit tough for me. New to dealing with the emotions. Had to drop my pup off for surgery and she was sos cared and confused. Very quickly went to anger towards staff. Very lucky I’m from a small town and know most of them. But was a learning experience for sure and she’s coming home today alive and we’ll just some stitches. Have a great day everyone!!
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Congratulations!!
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Hey all, checking in on day 635. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Day 148. Went for a walk with the girls yesterday, it was just to the store quick. But I mean we have been doing this for the last idk how many years so you think they would get trying to be some what good. Nope, running so far ahead of me, darting towards the road, we’re not behaved in the store at all. And they usually are not like that at all. Lately the girls just won’t listen to me for anything at all, there mother says it once and boom they listen and I no they listen bc I watch. They will swear at me, tell me I’m dumb and a hole lot of other stuff. This morning was rough, and I just seriously hate myself. I suck, and honestly if I didn’t have my girls I’d probably go out. I hate being such a failure at life, 32 years and old and I’m a nothing. It’s wild how after 3 suicide attempts sometimes I still think about it. I did say my gratitudes this morning, maybe I didn’t mean them enough.
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