Those dang feelings Dana. 
. They do change quickly sometimes. I feel like I stole your calmness and gave you my anxiety 
sorry 
Keep that H. A. L. T. In mind. Good thing you got the H. Taken care of. I only do one cup of fresh ground coffee a day. Also Iām a firm believer in those milestone maladies. Your coming up on 30. Keep doing what you doing. The addict brain in you doesnāt like this new shit youāre doing. Time to use all your tools and protect that clean date of yours at all cost. 60, 90, and 300 fuck with my head something awful. Itās real. Even when you know itās coming. You know we got your back. Weāll be here for ya.
Love you girl.
#fuckaddiction
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Just time to sell that Cali condo. End of an era. That 8 hour drive with 4 cats and 2 dogs and a couple of old coots is getting tiresome. It served its purpose. I will keep my sober stuff together. Thatās why I went back to the basics. Let it out on here. Go for a workout. Hot shower. Nice dinner. Feel better. Holding it in serves no purpose right?
Weāll end up somewhere new. Hopefully my final destination. Before the Autumnal Leaves Care Home
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No apologize needed Mike! Not for a bit! Itās ok to ask. Iām just not confortable with this tattoo and I do not want to see it as a part of me. So I do not look at it and I do not show it to others.
When itās fixed I show it to you, promised! And maybe then I show you the before as well. I have to see how I feel about it by then 
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Day 146.
Took a break from excersising this week. But Ima jump back on it tomorrow.
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Congratulations @Dazercat on your 800!!
Itās a big deal! Truly celebrate in a special to you way! Big congratulations too for reaching out for support when youāre feeling vulnerable! Hugs. 
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Congratulations! Iām just heading to bed, but that was the best thing to see before I fall asleep. What an inspiration!!!
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I definitely understand, I am so scared to do that to a client. But thatās why I triple check make sure they like it and show them design in the mirror several times move critique the stencil as much as possible. Me myself 
my arm is tore up and my legs because idk Iām just own my practice canvas Iāll test different methods on my arms and legs to see what works and figure out give and motions. Iām currently blacking out my left arm and it hurts so bad, so it looks goofy bc I havenāt finished it and them Iām going to do some white out tattoos over time. Iām sure the artist will figure something out for you. We are creative and always want to make sure you are happy. And actually I fibbed I have had two unhappy clients one was my fault and the other was poor after care but of course I got blamed for it . Sorry for detailing the thread much love, Iāll stop talking about tattoos now 
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Aww thank you.
You are also very inspiring. Iām not an old timer yet. But it helps me to have new people on here. And remember I donāt want to start over. Just ODAAT. You new guys keep us sober more than youāll ever know.
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Hi Eric, didnāt knew you had moving plans and now you are moving out your place?
Where do you go to? It must be an upgrate but I do understand your feelings. Changes are scary and milestones are difficult as well and you have both 
Today you can tackle number 1:
Your 800 days milestone congratulations Eric 
Next week you will tackle number 2, I hope you have a nice house to go to and make it a fine home for you, your wife and your lovely cats and dog 
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Thank you Claudia. Appreciate all your support. Just selling that Cali condo for now. It served its purpose. End of an era for us. Iām going to miss it. Weāll see what happens.
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Day 172 checking in Have a good day everyone
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Congratulations! I appreciate ur wonderful presence on here 
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Thanks Fleur.
Appreciate it.
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Yay you Eric! Party!
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Good morning on day 8 
The weekends stress me more about drinking, it has always been this way. Itās because Iām bored.
Luckily there is SO much laundry and stuff in my apartment to do that at least til 8pm I wonāt get bored. And then? Iāll pretty sure come here today and tomorrow more often and chat with you guys bc it helps me.
I start to think about how drinking will make me feel. Not good at all. Shakiness, headache and malnutrition. And I donāt want that.
Iāll stay in bed 15 more minutes now to scroll and read on here.
Have a beautiful sober and strong day team 
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Day 578
Sobriety isnāt being all rainbow glitter and unicorn farts right now. Struggling to be calm and kind. And still hoping WW3 doesnāt break out, and feeling guilty about how I have already kinda got used to the awfulness of the news.
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I feel you.
People are losing jobs over here bc the gas prices are so high. Supermarkets have not as much stuff as they used to, empty shelves here and there. And Covid is still pretty much there but mask mandates end next week.
Itās overwhelming.
But us 2 using our drug of choice, how would that help and better the situation? I think this is the question we need to ask.
Sending hugs your way š«
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Day 2
I am really afraid of April 2. My girlfriend invited me to very big few day Birdthday party of her family. And I am saying her that I will not drink there, and she is like well ok but at least āa little bitā you need to.
She is almost non drinker and dont understands that drinking in moderation is also a problem that people are nkt aware of that the problem exists afterall. I mean people USING DRUG.
She does not think I have drinking problem, because I usually try to count days and relapse once a week, sometimes I reach 1 month or 2 non drinking, so she thinks I control it.
The problem is I know I have a problem and I never reached more than 3 months does not matter how hard I try. And ai know how it is good when you do not think about using and feel real freedom. Every relapse takes that momentum away from me and I always fail with my goals, discipline, sport and so on.
Maybe that ājust a little bitā for her is relaxing and nothing that much, but for me it just takes too much away from me, I feel low on energy for few days and anxienty.
April 2 is far away, but I am afraid of it.
I try to talk about it but as she knows how drink time to time, she thinks to take few shots would not be a big problem.
Maybe yes, but I dont want to loose momentum, and it woukd be like 2 steps forward and 3 steps back.
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