Day 180
On my way to my event tonight, should be excited but I’m just whatever about it.
Life has blindsided me once again and I know drinking will make it worse so of course the best thing to do is stay sober.
I’m grateful for being sober or else this would be another wonderful opportunity for my alcoholism to destroy my life a great deal.
Tomorrow is 6 months.
Where has the time gone.
You’re a lifetime away and so am I
U both are incredible tho 
it’s ama8zng to hear their progress but what uv mentioned. You both have alof of experience and it shows. What made you both decide to foster children?
Took the opportunity today with my wife gone to let most of the kids ride. She gets nervous. The dogs got the hackemore so I had to improvise. The oldest girl had never been on a horse and has spina bifida so it was a bit challenging getting her up there. The youngest girl has a great seat. I’d like to try some cutting with her but I sold all the cows.
You and your wife are amazing parents!! They are SO lucky to have you
We’re not doing anything special. Just trying to keep our heads above water.
@determinedworkingmom congrats on your 6 months!
@Jmillwill I’m really sorry about your insurance’s decision about your son. I hate how the lives and well being of people are in the hands of large corporations. I hope something can be done for your son.
@David1 Welcome to the forum and happy birthday!
We will continue fighting for him. He didn’t ask for this type of life.
Checking in another day sober ! 15 days so far .
I hope everything went well.
Checking in
Day33
Last check in before the end of the night. Really proud of myself and hubby. I was craving to use on my way home. I didn’t say anything to hubby but chose to work thru it on my own. I turned on my Glorify app and listened to some worship stuff and prayed and that urge left me. Chose to think positive things and act differently. It seemed to work!
Then hubby needed to step out and get some few things for work. He ended up buying me some new shoes which I wasnt expecting!! I also needed some badly. He got me these Jordan’s and then brought home supper. Told me he loved me and thanked me for all I do. I’m in shock honestly lol I mean he is a very generous person but he’s not really the most affectionate. But I think he really sees me trying and wanting a better life. We would’ve never been able to buy stuff like this in the problem. These shoes would’ve been smoked easily within a night. But thankfully we can actually start doing little things like this. It feels really good! Another reason to stay clean and sober 
Day 598
Was about to start my workout this morning and my father comes downstairs whisper yelling that there’s a bobcat. Sure enough we watched out the window for a half hour as a bobcat sat under my potting bench waiting as a rabbit creeped closer and closer. The rabbit ran under the deck and after the bobcat stalked under after it nothing else happened to our knowledge. Anticlimactic but was cool to see.
Morning felt rushed after that trying to catch up and get my training in before work. Glad tomorrow is Sunday. Rest day with lots of self care. Going to do some meditating in the morning and a nice long flowy yoga session.
Off to bed for now though. Feeling absolutely drained and hoping for a good night of deep sleep. 
Day 4, evening 
Today I got the first start of the slight shaking. Not too bad, I think it’s just routine/habit because my partner worked and I was alone and feeling nervous. So to to my energy toward something good I went to Dollar Tree and got supplies to make birthday cake kits for a local food pantry I support! I made some in December but apparently when I donated them outside the pantry (protocol) someone drove by and shot them with BBs and ruined 5 of them …. So spite is fueling me to make more. 
I include vanilla cake mix, frosting, a lemon lime soda can, (look up soda cake! Only those two ingredients) sprinkles, candles, and a card and envelope. I put it all in a 13x9 baking pan and cover with plastic wrap! 
Just having a quick dinner of rice and chicken with broccoli before I start. Been trying to eat healthier too, and already feeling better.
Thank you!! It did!! I had a virgin Ceasar and everyone else drank and I was ok!!! The more and more I do that, the easier it will be. I feel so empowered, and I get to go home sober to my daughter and enjoy the rest of my night! 
I hope you had a good night too 
I’m so proud of you. I’m glad you had a good time.
Yeah, we had a great night. I met some other guy there and he was sober too. He was on 2 years.
It felt good not tripping on small things, or causing a scene.
Checking in 8 1/8 M AF Feels good to be clean and sober and clear headed. Had a chill day today, grateful for low stress days.
Somebody said " Dear dharma friends, please be mindful". 
🧘♂ 
Yes indeed : )
Hi Chiron! Thanks so much 
Day 180 
1016
Coffee. Where is my memory. I scare myself some times. Had a date set for today with my sister weeks ago to go to my aunt, my mum’s sister, who we haven’t seen since my mum died 8 years ago. Not looking forward to it for a host of reasons.
Anyway, yesterday I had totally forgotten about it and promised a friend to help her with something urgent today. Had to cancel that last night after my sis contacted me about our travelling arrangement and I suddenly remembered. Feeling really bad about that, and not good for our friendship but the feeling of having this gaps in my memory is really the pits.
I don’t know if this comes from using. It does bother me. And it hurts my friendships. Not good. I better get myself ready because my sis will come and pick me up in an hours time. Four hours in a car with her today. And visiting a house I have bad memories from as a kid. Wish me success. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love from Amsterdam.
Day 73 AF
Taking a week off work to spend some time with my teen son. Emotions have been up and down like a yo-yo recently. I should be really happy and proud of myself. I’ve lost 15kgs in 2 and a half months and accomplished many things whilst sober, but still doubting myself. Think I need a new sobriety book.
Hope everyone is doing ok.
Day 105 check in got to be out the house at 3am (California Time) for work I’m averaging 3 hours maybe 4 of sleep if I’m lucky today working 4 to 4 honestly I don’t have the most positive mind set walking up to work but as soon as I walk through those doors it’s go time and I always find a way to get positive and that’s a great thing makes work go by so much faster after work my youngest brother invited me to a barbecue which trust I will be there in my work clothes and mad tired but I’ll make it happen. Sober Life is where it’s at and that’s a fact! Hope everyone has a great day Take Care and Stay Safe. Peace to All
