Beautiful flowers @Mno ! I hope that means your day will end up being nice despite a lot of the things that could make it less so. Sorry you had to change plans which affected your good friend. Hopefully that will all work out.
Hugs and strength for the day. May it be the best that it can be. 
WHats that in the window? It looks like a giant hair dryer.
Wishing you success.
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I have an awful memory too. Always double-booking and forgetting appointments. I try to always write things down, but sometimes I write in my notebook but look at the calendar, or vice versa.
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Day 586
Pretty regular Sunday, park, ramen, homework, and aa meeting later. The confrontation with the neighbour still going round my head. Good old āwanting to be liked by everyone, even people I donāt like or people who donāt really matterā.
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Checking in on day 140
Iām currently heading straight to 5 months AF and smoke free (still some days leftā¦ but Iām totally determined this time)
Iām sleeping so much better, my smart watch tells me that sometimes I donāt even wake up during night time! 
. It took me quite some time to get to that point (approx 3 months into sobriety). Iām still taking melatonin.
@Mno I used to have some serious memory problems, and still have sometimes. But it was more a short term memory thing. One day I got to work, put my yogurt in the fridge. 2 secs later I would look at my lunch bag and think ādamn, I forgot my yogurt at homeā. And then I realized it was already in the fridge. I had put it their 2 secs before, but that sequence was totally gone. That scared the shā¬&t out of me, and was one of the reasons I said I really have to get my BS together. I had more of these, but luckily this hasnāt happened anymore lately.
Today Iām off, and itās gonna be a little round of cleaning! I have 2 cats, and they are losing soooo much hair right now! Spring is around the corner! 
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Happy Sunday morning to all of you on this 143rd day of freedom!
Iām up early in the cabin at Lake of the Ozarks in Missouri for a few days of relaxation, dog walking, reading, writing, fishing and being with my sweetie.
The last few weeks of teaching have been demanding and rewarding and Iām glad for a few days away.
Iāve been doing fine on the work of maintaining my sobriety. That is to say that it has been a bit of work, but Iām able to stay strong and keep to my decision. And it is this quiet early morning time that is my favorite. Iām learning other mental strategies to use when I have the urge to drink and Iām so glad that Iām not escalating my own anxiety by putting poison in my body and setting off the cycle of the hangover and the next drink.
In fact Iām starting to think about even more options of how to spend my liberated time and energy. Iām going to explore the training possibilities for emergency medical responder and similar work. Iāve always been interested and I have some related skills, so that may be an upcoming chapter!
This will be a beautiful early spring day and I hope to get in a kayak and paddle around a bit. I also have a stack of books to read, and my personal journal for more writing. I brought good food along and lots of tea.
I donāt check in here daily, but I do think of all of you, this big group of kind people who are trying so hard to live well. I wish you all peace and love.
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Checking in on day 36. Sober and clear headed. Woke up hangover free. The best feeling ever on a sunday morning!
Stay strong everyone.
Have a great sunday!
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Early mornings free of pain and regret are the best. Thinking of this feeling when I have the urge to drink is what gets me through every time. Enjoy your freedom!
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Hey everyone! Day 21. Made it to three full weeks. When I first started this journey I never thought I would make it this far. I had my share of relapses and moments where I let myself give in without thinking about the consequences. Now, I have learned from those relapses and the days are stacking up. Writing that just made me think of a line in a song:
āYou donāt lose if you learn from your mistakesā
I am seeing how true that is. We have our ups and downs, but as long as we see our mistakes and learn from them, then we can all work on continuing our sobriety and let the days grow. It makes me feel good that I have been able to see that.
Well I am off to play a round of golf with a friend since the weather is finally getting nice out.
Hope everyone has an amazing day!
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Checking in on Day 28! 
. Iāve been doing okay just working and still getting used to my new schedule. These days Iām practicing having gratitude this relapse messed with my money since i
I was in the hospital and missed a week of work so Iām backed up on some bills but instead Of crying about it, I just paid the bills I could and I tried to show gratitude to my HP for at least still having a roof over my head. I was sort of kicking myself saying if I didnāt binge drink I wouldāve still had money left that I needed, but I did drink and thatās nobodyās fault but my own. These are the moments I need to remember when I do get the urge to drink. I need to remember the consequences that comes with drinking and for me and they are never GOOD!! Iām sure you all can relate and this is why I love the support of this community, you are my tribe and you get me!
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Day 7. One full week without alcohol.
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@determinedworkingmom congrats on 6 months 
@Butterflymoonwoman thank you so much 
maybe because you donāt feel like you deserve it, because youāve been in a relationship either with a parent when you were a child or a previous partner or both, where your needs werenāt met even when you did ask and make them clear, those are the reasons I struggle to meet my own needs, let alone ask for help or state them to others, but you do deserve it, we all do, itās not something that needs to be earned. I really hope the dark cloud lifts for you soon, itās horrible to feel mentally unwell, I get like it for a few days every fortnight lately too, and how low I get really scares me. I am waiting for my doctor to return from leave, I think heās back on 24th 
Just seen your later post about the Jordans and the appreciation husband showed, yay 
@Gbw3006 congrats on 2 weeks
@Jmillwill do you have anything like Social Services in the country you live in? This sounds like a huge Safeguarding issue for your other children and in the UK the Social Services would definitely step in and help for something like this. Sending strength and I hope you can get the right help ASAP
@shilohRica it for sure is 
sending strength
@Chikai congrats on double digits
@Liz22 welcome back youāre trying again which is all we can do, so donāt let shame keep you down
@PaigeTurner I hope the move went okay
@Minatasha congrats on 2 weeks
@5th_dimension sending strength I hope you get another chance at sorting the DUI stuff
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@David1 welcome congrats on 77 days and a sober football game and happy birthday! 
@Miranda @GOKU2019 congrats both on your sober evenings out
@Mno wishing you a safe journey and a successful visit with your Aunt, sending strength re the memory stuff, mine is basically non-existent due to Fibro/ADHD/using and since I have been using the Google Calendar on my phone, after years of resisting due to not being technical, I have been able to set reminders for everything as soon as I get any appointments/commitments, and I set reminders for 1 weeek, 1 day, 3 hours, 1 hour, and 30 mins before everything, and I rarely miss or arrive late to anything now.
@Seb sending strength
@LAB Iām so glad your sobriety continues to go well, have a great few days away
@DTC52 congrats on 3 weeks
@StarK31 congrats on 4 weeks
@felipeandrews congrats on your week
586 days no alcohol.
51 days no cocaine.
28 days no binge-eating.
Checking in for yesterday, I fell asleep as soon as I began as Iād already taken my meds before dinner as it got late.
I wasnāt able to have the day of silence and stillness that I had planned, because my friend was feeling very low so I offered to go round for the morning, we watched another 2 episodes of Bel-Air.
I then came home with my addict screaming for some kind of buzz, he got that in an unhealthy way but it could have been much worse so Iām not going to dwell on that.
The binge-eating urges are honestly relentless , itās not even hunger, I just am getting such intense cravings for specific foods. This is my second longest streak so far so I am trying so hard not to give in. Mind is playing the ājust oneā game on loop but I know it would escalate, it always does.
Will check in for today later on
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Hey all, checking in on day 644. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Good morning everyone. Checking in on day 212. Got a milestone this morning for seven months. Hope everyone has a good Saturday and better Sunday! Take care and be safe everyone!
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Uggh! I just spent a week out of town taking care of my partner who had to have his gallbladder removed. It was trying and I didnāt go to meetings. Generally I can manage without my meetings as long as I keep up my RPMās (reading, prayer, & meditation). Now that Iām back home, Iāve been to a couple of meetings but missed a few that I attend regularly (I attend 7 per week). I just said ānah, I donāt feel like itā. Iām worried that Iām headed down the slippery slope; subconsciously backing out of my commitment to my program. - Chris M
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Day 123
Just checking in. Hope everyone has a great day today.
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@LAB It is so great when u start to have time and energy to spare! So many opportunities!
@DTC52 @StarK31 @felipeandrews Congrats! Some great milestones, keep it up!
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Thank you for recognizing my dinner night out.
Iām sorry you had a difficult day yesterday. I really hope today is better for you. I wonder why you are having such intense food cravings? I suffered from Bulima in my teen years, but the binge eating only happened because I was over hungry from restricting.
Youāve done so well with all of your addictions!
Congratulations and Iām sending positive thoughts for you todayā„ļø
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I would listen to your gut on this one and even if you donāt feel like going to your meetings-just go. It sounds like thatās what you need to do for yourself.
I hope you can make it to the next one and that you can check in and let us know how you are 
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