Yes that’s exactly how I feel , but we got this girl 
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Starting day 3. I have to see family today that I love very much and they all know I got my first DUI 3 days ago and this is the first time seeing them so I’m not excited about that.
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Absolutely 
Hi Kat here checking in on Day 228.
Was up at 7 this morning and hanging out with my 8-year-old took him food shopping. Just feels good being productive.
Hit a Zoom meeting last night it was someone’s 18 months which was exciting, I look forward to hitting that milestone one day. I can do it! Just gotta keep working my program.
In-person meeting tonight after my kids are picked up.
Love Kat
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It’s embarrassing to have to know we did something we shouldn’t do but being honest and accountable is part of life - and it’s part of being grounded and healthy (and sober). Take it one step at a time and stay focused on what matters: staying sober. If you do that and your head hits the pillow sober, today’s a win. 
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I’m sorry to hear about the call with your mom but I’m proud of you for being grounded and sober through it - that takes guts. And you can feel good about yourself being grounded enough to see things clearly. It’s challenging to be in this position, but it’s the first step of moving forward.
It’s hard when we get clearer about our families though, absolutely. That can be really hard. But it also is a chance for you to have a better relationship with yourself, a healthier relationship with yourself. Take care and take time to process that. Be gentle with yourself and give yourself time to feel fully, to let the feelings wash through you like a wave, and then reflect on who you are now. You’ll surprise yourself 
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Checking in
Day34
Really feeling overwhelmed right now. I’m at work and as some of u may know I have complained about the confusion surrounding my clients support plan, how we handle certain situations, the approaches we need to be doing, and then having all team members on the same page. The supervisor initially told me that I was the only one confused and that this was my problem as no one has come forward to complain. She speaks to me today and tells me I’m not the only one confused by all this. It was a good chat overall anyway. But im just exhausted 
then my clients parents came. She immediately attacked her mom, grabbing her hair and pulling her around. Then attacks her dad. Like I don’t know how much more I can stress about developing a proper support plan. Why do I have to be the one to stir stuff up and get things taken care of? Im relief staff right now also (I was full time 7 or so years ago but still). Why is it that full time Stagg aren’t saying something? Idk. Anyway the parents are ok. Its just frustrating.
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80 days! The longest I have gone with out alcohol in I dont know how many years. Went with the boat today to Sweden, to buy food and shop. The weather was sooo nice, the Sun and the sea so wonderful. Seeing all the People enjoy drink and wine did not bother me, but then It all was so romanticized in my head as I was waiting in line at the bar, so I considerated to ask if they had alcohol free wine. I ordered coffee mocca.
I dont know if I ever will drink again. Sometimes I think about summer and wine, or what ever. I cant think like this, only today. Im not drinking today.
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Yesterday was two weeks
Coming to terms that itll take years/decades that i might not have to repair the damage done from my choices. Idk. Im haunted.
I wanted to get fucked up so much this afternoon. Library was closed so i walked past every tempting place home, and walked past amother opportunity to smoke. Fuck.
But what good would that do anyone.
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Me too friend me too. 
Maybe it’s age. Maybe it’s the abuse we have given ourselves. Maybe it’s that we are restimulating so many parts of our brains that have laid dormant for so many years that it will just take us some time to recalibrate. Maybe it’s a bit of everything…
Whatever the reason I think that in my case the interpersonal situations that these mishaps can cause gift me with learning experiences everytime. I am learning how to communicate during uncomfortable moments instead of ghosting or getting loaded to make a call. I am learning what works in my approach and what sure as hell does not!!! I am pretty grateful at the end of even some of my most uncomfortable feelings due to the very, very rich lessons I learn.
I hope you find some peace in your day.
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Very true, thank you very much
Checking in on sobriety day 316. Spent the day finishing up this accent wall project my wife and I started last weekend. Projects take a while when you have 4 kids all in separate sports and activities and both spouses are working professionals. At any rate, now we wait on the blinds we ordered to come in. Our projects are now also not interrupted by beer runs so that’s a plus. We are able to communicate better through completion and laugh while growing closer together rather than growing annoyed with eachother. Have a great day everyone. It’s a great day to be above ground and sober.
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Congratz!! Keep it up
Checking in on day 16 
I got some new clothes today, and this time I’m extremely happy about them. Why? They’re black and grey.
Some years ago after I first got sober coworkers and friends asked me “Why do you always wear black? Get some colorful stuff.”
I did, but it doesn’t feel like me. I love black, grey and petrol. And all my new clothes will be that way in different shades.
What is it that I want to say with this?
Be you! Don’t change for others
Have a beautiful sober day team 
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That’s called Sober Thinking and not Insanity. Good Job !!!
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Hello guys. Made it to 1 week.
Still feeling my confidence shaken a bit from the last relapse. But am hopeful it will get better.
Have a nice day guys. Bye.
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- I’m here.
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Checking in day 15 sober
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@Lotusflower Congratulations! 
@Skweeeot A DUI can have meaning if it means u hit bottom, and get sober.
@Butterflymoomwoman You are stepping up and speaking out. Proud of you!
@Wakikki Yay! So great!
@Minatasha Hold on. It does get easier.
@Deep Congrats!
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