Checking in
Day36
Feeling good! Hubby is off to his dental appointment. I think I’m nervous enough for the both of us 
Anyway, he will ne a few hours in the chair. Then once he gets home I will run to grab his prescriptions and some softer foods. Going to do my nails today and some cleaning while I wait for him. Feeling grateful 
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Thank you. It’s funny that’s originally what I was going to name it. With the help of @Dan531 i went with noblefallsink. It’s the meaning of my girls names and seemed very fitting.
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Day 159 hanging with my girls and going to jog for a little. Had the chance to help someone on my tattoo groups a person was looking to upgrade machines. So I gifted them my old one for free. I hope it helps them. Hope everyone is having a good day much love
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Checking in 82 days. And I have not eaten any chocolate or anything else like that, but now in the evening I really want!! Stay strong 
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Checking in on day 18
Allergies say hello 🥲:sneezing_face:
Didn’t miss them…
My nose is bright red and I feel like ugh 
I hope I can sleep this night 
Have a beautiful sober day team 
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Checking in 17 days sober .
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Congrats and great work! 30 days is huge. It only gets better. Life will still happen but you’re more equipped now to face it head on. Keep up the excellent progress.
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Welcome back Ally. I’ve had that experience so many times, with various things. “Oh just this one thing will be fine. I’ve got it now.” This would inevitably lead to me mentally kicking myself and starting over again, and again, and again. Though most of my struggles happened before I found TS, but I still have a few things to push through.
I understand what you’re saying about cliques. Every closed system has them. Sometimes said people don’t realize that other people would even include them in a clique. But people get to know each other and are comfortable with that, or with this place I think that you have people who are at different levels of their recovery and sometimes tend to focus on those who are at their same level because that’s what’s useful to them.
We humans tend to focus on ourselves and what we need. We’re also not psychic; which… While that might be useful to a point, it’s probably best that we’re not! 
But still, it can hurt when someone feels left out. I can’t say if anyone purposefully ignored you or not since I don’t know the situations, but I can tell you that when you take part in this forum, you become an important part of making it what it is, and you’ll start gathering your own little group that you feel comfortable with.
I can tell you that for certain, there are people here who do not like me. I’m long winded, too analytical and precise, or weirdly vague. I struggle to write colloquially, so sometimes my ‘teacher’ voice creeps in or it sounds like I’m writing a thesis rather than a simple reply. 
I tell you this honestly and without self-deprecation because I want you to know you’re not alone. We all have our quirks, and we all have things that we will like or dislike about others.
But you’re right, we’re all human. We’re all on our own journey. You always have to live with yourself, so I think what really matters here is: Do you like you? I’m glad you’re back and you are going to succeed. I know you will.
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Thanks @ChristinaV! And congrats to you that you’re back! We’ve got this. One day at a time. This time I know it’s for me. This time already feels so different. I didn’t have a date I set like a count down, which I’ve always done and then missed. Let’s gooo!!!
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Thank you @Butterflymoonwoman! I feel mentally in a different headspace, though I know I will face challenges and pressures. Loving the support of being here again!
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In the last 3 days, I’ve gotten maybe… 5? Hours of sleep? Total? I rescheduled my students for today. I’m so tired that I think it would be dangerous for me to drive, and I like to give them my full attention, and today I just can’t. I know sleep will return. I’ve been through this with other things. But right now I spend a lot of time repeating my personal mantra in my mind so I don’t decide to step things back to make it easier on myself.
“Never again.”
I’m nearing the end of a long list of shit, and many years worth of clean up. Once I get there, I’ll never again go though this.
@anon42928441 30 days! Great job!
@anon74766472 What a great catch on that number! I love it!
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Thank you! Yes, I am ready to see where this new way of life will take me 
I appreciate that!
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Day 5, I’m here. Eating a little more today. Still not actually hungry. I feel a lot of anger at myself
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Checking in on Day 45. It has been a really busy day and now sitting here struggling to process it all. I am completely over stimulated and it is making me really anxious. Can’t seem to get my mind to stop. Haven’t experienced this level of overstimulation since being sober and really struggling. Normally I would drink through it (obviously just delaying the problem so I won’t).
I have enjoyed reading everyone’s updates, keeping me somewhat grounded. Thank you all 
PS, are there any good nerdy threads here? I know a lot of people are studying and read a lot. I would love to go down a rabbit hole of different thoughts/perspectives.
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I haven’t had a lot of time today to check in and read everybody else’s check-ins which makes me feel a bit anxious actually because I feel bad not being that present. I’m feeling really off today though. I don’t know what it is but probably a combination of being exhausted and… I don’t know what else it’s just an off day. Feeling kind of blah. Hopefully it will improve. I’m going to try to find some things to make myself feel better I’ll check in later.
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@Butterflymoonwoman May ur friend RIP
@AllyP Nothing shameful in restarting. I also get FOMO pretty easily. But everyone is welcome here. Groups form because that is human nature. But don’t let it distract from ur journey.
@resilienttranskid Sending love and strength 
@anon42928441 Congrats! 
@Deelzebub I hear u! The number of times I drank again because I had a quarter of a bottle of wine left 
. You are worth more than 18 quid!
@JennyH Start one!
@Miranda Only do what u can. Sometimes we all can’t be as present or giving as we’d like. That’s ok
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Your welcome. How ya doing?
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