Checking in daily to maintain focus #40

Nice catch! I’m counting on you to get those 8s tomorrow! :laughing: 8 is my favorite number.

Also my niece turns 8 today.

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Happy Birthday to your niece!!! :raising_hand_woman:

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Thank you for sharing your experience! I actually have the opposite problem: celibacy. I can’t talk about it with anyone because nobody understands why it’s a problem. Heck, most of my “friends” think it’s funny. :face_with_symbols_over_mouth:
Anyway, you’re amongst friends here. Never be afraid to share!

Edit: I should clarify a bit: You probably know there’s a hate group out there know as incels (involuntarily celibate). They’re misogynistic and violent and considered by the FBI to be a domestic terrorist group. I’ve been celibate most of my adult life, but I am not one of those guys. They’re on a totally different page…

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Checking in one day + 6 months sober :yellow_heart:

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My goodness, congratulations! What a wonderful achievement! :purple_heart::muscle::purple_heart:

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Congratulations Callie !!!
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Checking in
Day42
Just had am incredible ah-ha moment during an Inner Child Meditation that I did. It was unreal… from tightness in my chest from when my younger self was chatting to me about what she needs and how fearful she was. Then to a sensation of love and compassion when I was replying back to her, reassuring her, loving her. Then anger towards to my adult self (so me now) about what this adult needs to stop doing. And holy shit, the realization came to me… when I realized that I am doing practically the exact same things that others were doing to me as a child when I didn’t feel heard, scared, not loved, called names or critisized, not feeling safe, having to grow up way to fast etc, I couldn’t believe that I have pretty much continued on with the pain. Like why am I continuing the same things now, that happened to me sooo many years ago? I mean I’m getting better by listening to myself and what my body needs, or respecting myself by not using drugs etc, but the name calling, the criticizing, the not feeling good enough, the comparing… all this is stopping now. I love her too much and I wasn’t there for her then to guide her. But with all the knowledge I have now I can guide her to make better choices. Self-love is my new project (other than staying clean of course lol). But no more unloving thoughts. Just incredible to see her. She was very sad :frowning: but so beautiful and soo incredible just as she was. I love her and I can’t feel guilt for not being there, cuz she was me and I didn’t know how to cope back then.
Beautiful moment and experience tho.

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Hello friends. Checking in on day 290. One day at a time. Wishing you serenity.

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This makes me want to cry for so many reasons :purple_heart: I recently had a very similar realization and your post hits my heart deeply. Sending lots of love to you!

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Day 163

My head is spinning today. Just a buncha weird thoughts. :confused:

I hope everyone is having a great day!

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4 hours until day 14

Can’t believe I made it to two weeks without vodka!!! :confetti_ball: Tomorrow morning I meet my sobriety doctor in person - last week we met on Zoom. Excited! :yum:

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Congratulations @Callie99 !!
So happy for you for your each and every day sober! Proud of you! :purple_heart:
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It’s such a beautiful realization, but can be sad at the same time. Thank u for ur message tho :slight_smile: its nice to have someone relate. It was actually very unexpected since I wasn’t really sitting without distractions around me. It was somewhat noisy and I was being interuppted alot lol but it still came to me. I guess it was meant to come thru… idk

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Yayyyyy!!! Girl!!! 6 months :smiley: way to go!

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Congrats on 6 months!

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This is beautiful and what an amazing feeling it is to connect with yourself like that. I strongly feel when we hear and listen to our inner child (even give her a face & voice), our true healing begins. I am so happy you made that connection and I know for sure your journey in recovery is going to seem that little bit lighter.

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1025
Coffee. Last day of my workweek ahead. I can do it. I slept OK. I’m sober and clean. You all got my back. I got yours. One day at a time. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Make it clean and sober. It’s the only way to have a better life for all of us. Love from Amsterdam.

@Callie99 Yay Caroline! Huge congrats!
@Butterflymoonwoman That’s beautiful Dana. It’s funny what you describe by and large is what the 20 months of Schema therapy I’m about to finish is all about. It’s a wondrous beautiful journey looking for our inner children and reconnecting to them.

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So Im sitting here, tomorrow will be 90 days. Where did those days go? They went fast, and slow in the same time.

Some days have been easy, and some days my mind are wandering back to how nice it was to drink some wine after a day of work, or a saturday evening when having the weekend off.

But then I have to remember also, the drinking when getting up in the morning at 7-8oclock, the finishing a bottle before noone, the anxiety of not having enough, to go buy more, to not be there for my kids, the falling drunk a sleep before 18.00.

Yes I miss it. Wine. But I dont miss everything it brings with it. I cant think I never will drink again, its to hard, so I do as our friend here say, Im not drinking today and probably not tomorrow.

Have a nice day you all :slightly_smiling_face:

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Congrats @JennyH @Callie99 @C_8

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Day 18

At garage today. Mechanic believes there is something wrong with rear bridge. Enjoying little mens type of vocation. Some reggae music playing in background :notes: drinking my coffee. Have a good day team!

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