Day 86 sober
Today was disappointing, I skipped aftercare (just got out the clinic 2 weeks ago). Somewhere the thought came up it wouldn’t matter if I didn’t go today. For 30 minutes that idea kept and kept growing using any terrible stupid excuse not to go. Eventually 5 minutes before I was supposed to leave I gave in.
The rest of the day was filled with guilt, I didn’t even do anything productive OR fun, apart from going to the gym… Hope tomorrow is better.
Much respect for you. You’re so courageous. You got this!
Hey Michael you got the answer right here from your previous post ^^
Take care of yourself! Rest if you need to. You know that drinking won’t actually do any good in the end. You got this! I’m sorry you’re going through such a tough time but it is a blessing to be able to face our own feelings and get through tough times with a clear head. 
Stay strong!
Hello TS friends, I’m back to day 3. I’m excited and happy to see the successes of many since I’ve been away for the community. Here’s to working, actively working on being one of those stories this time 
I didn’t even want to admit my recent relapse but being honest with everything is only going to help me.
Well done on getting to 90 days, that’s fantastic 
That is amazing. Glad you help each other so well. Keep it up together❤
I’m sorry to hear that. Are you being treated for the anxiety? Obviously I don’t know everything about your anxiety but have you tried using the usual ways? Distraction, talking to someone, do you have a signaling plan? I don’t know if you have that in your country, but it’s very helpful to me. It tells exactly what to do when I’m at a certain fase. Such a kind of plan can be drawn up for anxiety, substance use, depression you name it. I hope you can get some sleep and treat your anxiety and then make a daily schedule so you don’t get bored.
Hang on, you can do it. I know it’s hard but the alternative is not an option.
Thank you so much @LaDyLooNtje for thinking of me. Much appreciated. I need all the support I can get. Take care-
You were super supportive of me back in January and right now I am sober & would like to be able to be here for you. Pretty much I know that you can do it because you already have & you were someone I looked up to. Just remember why you want to be sober in the first place. Your last day one, you got this.
Day 26
Getting there
Better
Trying hard every day
Tired sometimes but still getting the work done
Being here for myself, being better at that self- reliance part of things one day at a time
Scared of starting my bpd meds this week to be honest. I’m going to do it but I don’t understand how it’ll change ‘me’ rn and I’m scared of that part
Appericate it!
Been a rough go and I let stress get the better of me, which I then in turn used as an excuse to drink.
I am sorry you are struggling, you have had a really tough time so it was probably inevitable.
I echo what @anon9289869 says, use this time for you, and to heal.
Sending strength to you, hope you feel better soon.
Stay strong Michael 
do you have any hobbies you like to do? Reading any good books atm?
I don’t know…geez…just bummed out. I wish I had the fortitude of @Its_me_Stella, @Charlie_C , @Fargesia, @Dazercat, @ShesGotMoxie and @Butterflymoonwoman. I don’t know…Just so weary. Had a call with a colleague and an recruiter. I have no job! That has been my identity for 20 years…ugh. So, laying here on the couch. Hmmm…
Praise to to my HP…that’s all I got.
Day 28- checking in 
I’ve been on holidays with my kids for nearly 2 weeks. I’m up early to hit the gym before going back to work.
Bit sad to be getting back to it, but I do enjoy being in a routine. My eating and habits are much more structured when I’m working.
Not looking forward to the million comments I’m going to get about how I shouldn’t have cut my hair. I’m too sensitive for everyone’s opinions haha.
Have a good one everyone, look after yourselves
Drinking would only make it all worse. And you wouldn’t like yourself much afterwards, either. I believe you’re stronger than you give yourself credit for. I never thought I had strength, but it’s been slowly growing for the past 8+ months. Keep talking out the emotions and let them go. I believe in you. 
I completely understand the boredom part. I got my internet, cable tv, and a bunch of books I haven’t read. Problem is, I can’t focus on anything for any length time because of my anxiety. I’m on meds for it, but they don’t seem to be working. Whatever you do though, remember drinking isn’t the answer. 
I totally understand telling your colleagues about moving forward. Being short staffed seems to be the norm these days…Ugh. I hate being short staffed, but I support you in this time of transition. Well done faithful, loving, servant! So happy for you!
Hey Mike.
Sorry to hear you have no job. I can understand how that would really bum you out. I’ve never been in that position and I’m retired now but I always worked. A lot. My job was also my identity and it meant the world to me. I did loose one once. Owner was a coke head booze hound. I ended up down the street working the competition. But it did hurt that the fucker fired me. You might have to sit in those feeling a bit. But we don’t drink about it. Just for today. Hang out here when you can. Drop by the gratitude thread or the meme thread or look at some nature pics. Or a good angry power walk or 2 and a hot steaming shower.
Stick with us buddy.
So appreciate you Brother!