I’m glad you’re right back Mike. Takes a lot of courage. Book mark this post. Make a hard copy. Post it somewhere you can remind yourself. Screen shot it. Make it your home page or something.
04/27/2022 sounds like a great sobriety date to me. Protect it with everything you got.
See you on the gratitude thread.
Just for today my friend.
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@Lotusflower Welcome back
@JennyH The days will clock up again, odaat
@ShesGotMoxie Sending strength
@michaeljlogan74 Sorry to hear that. Pick urself up and get back on it.
@SadMemeQueen Good luck for the interview 
@Butterflymoonwoman That looks so intricate! How long does it take? I have to make a cake for my son’s birthday at the weekend, it will pale in comparison to yours!
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Fuck yeah. You win.
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Day 637
A really hard day. So close to on the spot quitting my job today. I spent my 30 minute lunch break crying. I put so much into this job and it’s never enough. We are short staffed by 12 people, the work load is so heavy, and so many of us are quitting yet they continue to undervalue us. I am at my wits end.
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@Wisconsin I hope your first day went okay
@Charlie_C feel better soon
@DeadMist thank you 
it feels exactly like that sometimes, but I try to tell myself the same thing I tell myself about alcohol…we need to drink to survive, but not drink that 
Happy Birthday to your middle 
I bet they are all so happy to have you sober and present too 
@IamThechange thank you
@DTC52 thank you
@BrianP welcome congrats on 3 days 
@DryIn785 thank you
@Bomdhil never give up
@Planipennia thank you
@Lotusflower I’m glad you and yours have recovered 
it really does make a difference checking-in here every day doesn’t it?
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Awe thank u 
I was really proud of myself for how I handled all that. Those things 100% would have triggered me to use and in the past I would has caved. Thank u for the support!!! How havs you been? What’s new in ur world?
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@JennyH I’m glad you’re recovering, hoping your energy levels elevate soon
@ShesGotMoxie I’m sorry for your loss, sending strength and a virtual hug, if wanted 🫂
@michaeljlogan74 congrats on coming straight back here with honesty 
I hope you’re doing okay today?
@roses4me you’re welcome thank you
@SadMemeQueen congrats on getting an interview good luck for next Tuesday 
@Butterflymoonwoman you are so talented! 
how on Earth did you make that? 
@shilohRica thank you I did play on Community Day 
it was so cool that it was a brand new Pokémon, I got a half-decent shiny bear out of it too did you play?
@anon9289869 I’m so sorry you’ve had an awful day, it’s really hard to stay motivated when you don’t feel valued 
sending strength and a virtual hug, if wanted 🫂
625 days no alcohol.
90 days no cocaine.
1 day no binge-eating.
I am so tired, but forcing my eyes to stay open to restart the habit of checking-in at the end of every day, that’s my intention.
As well as my mouth, the other area where thrush commonly occurs is also affected, and I have a lot of pelvic pain. Damn these antibiotics!
Anyway, I went to the supermarket, which has a medicine section, to get something to treat it. I went in my electric wheelchair and it was a pretty wild experience! It struggled with my weight on the slopes and uneven ground in my area, but was great on the smooth, flat floor in the shopping centre. I crashed into things a couple of times, and heard people laughing even over my music and noise-cancelling headphones. I also struggled, but did manage to reach the things I needed, and an assistant helped me check-out, because the self-service check-outs are not quite wheelchair accessible, atleast I know that now for the future. I used the chair on the lowest speed setting, and it really did struggle on slopes, I kept thinking it was going to tip over! 
I am going to ask Google whether using a higher speed setting would help, but I’m also using it as motivation to lose my weight, it for sure wouldn’t struggle as much if I had a healthy BMI.
I ate some food from the ready-to-eat section in the supermarket at lunchtime, pasta, crisps, and an energy drink. I needed something more than a shake today, probably because my immune system is fighting all these infections, but it was definitely not a binge, not in the amount I ate, the way I ate, or how I felt afterwards.
I am a little stressed about the new flat, because when I spoke to the lady from the estate agents last Friday, she said I’d receive the lease to sign, via email, on Monday. I followed it up with an email this morning, and now she’s saying I will have it atleast a week before my tenancy starts, but that’s not til the end of June, and in the meantime I have nothing in writing, to confirm, or any assurance that I’ve got the tenancy. I couldn’t figure out how to respond so I’ve left it for now.
Happy to be back at 90 days , it feels like so much longer. Looking forward to therapy on Friday after a three week break.
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The lace doesn’t take long but it is kind if finicky. I wasted ingredients the 1st time but the 2nd time i stuck it out and worked with it and prayed it came out okay haha U add ingredients together. Spread it onto a cake lace mat. Scrape off excess. And then bake it for 15 min on very low oven temp. Then gentle peel it off the mat 
I would love to see a pic of ur cake if up to it? Honestly tho, I have always thot that cakes are the best when they are made for family and lots of love are put into them. I always enjoy baking cakes but it’s the ones for family that that are the best! Ull do amazing!
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Thank u soo much for the congrats on 70 days! Hope ur doing well! What is new with u lately? Anything exciting? How’s ur recovery going?
The lace is made with a cake lace mixture that I made (I watched a video), and it’s spread onto a cake lace mat and baked. Then u peel it off the mat it was a neat thing to do!
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Catmancam thank you for asking. The first day went better than expected. There was one person that I recognized from an online outpatient program I went to. I also worked alongside a woman who openly admitted she is in a sober house. So yes all my anxiety regarding acceptance there no longer exists. Throughout the day after work I have been running into strangers who are in recovery as well. As the saying goes, it takes one to know one. God bless.
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Day 53
I need it to be a year sober already. I dont know where im living this fall. Wish I was in a different timeline where I never drank.
Lonely. I did this. I did this to myself. Writers block. Means abstract art and reading, I know that. I read a good essay today. Working on finishing a painting from a time when i liked myself more!
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Arigato Gozaimasu!
(sadly the only Japanese I know 
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Starting back on day one, it’s only been a few hours but I have drive right now and i will continue to hold that to move forward and take control back for myself
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Thank you Fleur
Good to be back…missed you all 
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Oh no, sorry for your loss Carolyn. I hope your family can find some peace in this difficult time.
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Hey Cam
Thank you!!! Yes it does. I wish I could find the time like you to read and respond to your friends. Such a lovely thing…from a lovely person.
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Wow! Congrats on 90 days!! Really so very proud of u! It bothers me tho to hear how others giggle or laugh while u used ur chair. People are soo ignorant 
Im glad someone helped u thru check out and u didnt have to struggle in that sense.
Actually, ill share someone with u (and others) that I havent mentioned on TS yet i dont think. There is someone very, very close to me who actually was diagnosed with a brainstem tumor. And bcuz of this he has other medical conditons. He has noise canceling headphones too, a communication ipad, and uses a wheelchair and walker to get around. He also has gtube to eat and has a tracheostomy (a device in his neck to help protect his upper airway). Being around him and helping him and advocating for him has opened my eyes to the medical field and to how inaccessible alot of things are in our society when it comes to wheelchair use. I bothers me alot actually. I think alot of people don’t even think about it until they are placed in a situation where they notice it. I never noticed it myself to this kind of extent until I started helping him 3 years ago. I’ve had to really learn how to talk to people (professional and not) so that I get results for him. He gets alot of glares due to his medical condition and I used to just glare people down or make a snarky remark back. Now I educate others about his condition, cuz most people are just curious. Anyways sort of rambling bit I wanted u to know that I sort of understand in a sense about medical conditions and equipment and that u are not alone my friend. I’m sorry that u have to go thru that. Mentally it’s hard to handle sometimes. Ur an amazing person and I’m so proud of u and grateful ur here and working towards a better overall lifestyle.
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Day 193
Back to my nightly walks/jogs. On my longest sober streak. I don’t miss the booze, and no more cravings. I still think about those drunken nights tho. How embarrassing. Smh.
All I think is about my fam now, my wife, and my munchkins. Everything is going good. No drama, no lies, don’t gotta hide nothin.
Thank u all for your support. Stay strong!
Much love.
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Rounding off day 11 and my kiddos bday. Wow, what a busy day! Went to work this am, did payroll and a few other items then left. Picked up my daughter early for some lunch, ear piercings (second hole) and shopping. Then we went and picked up her half brother and her step sister and went to go see the new Sonic movie. It was a great day. Normally I’ll have a cocktail or glass of wine at the movies, but this time I had an Italian soda, then treated myself to an affogato. Soooo good!!! But the cravings have been getting stronger the more healthy I get (been down with a sinus infection since I admitted my addiction)… is that normal? Like my mouth literally waters now for booze… I do not like it. Im gonna have some apple juice instead lol
Busy days tomorrow thru to Sunday, more bday plans for my kiddo. Very exciting stuff. But I still plan on reading up and checking in here when I can. Here’s to another day not giving in to my elephant! Im the rider, im in charge. I got this!!
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