Well done on not taking your inner voice for the truth. Is there something you can do for yourself now to get you through to the night savely? Taking a bath, calling a friend, watching a movie or read something when ou can concentrate on this, or having a walk in nature, breathe in some fresh air. This voice won’t stopp calling you but there are other voices that will become stronger like this one that brought you home without stopping at the liquor store.
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Hello Everyone,
Just checking in.
I wish you all a pleasent time!
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Tired today yet alert and present.
Continuing to try and relax into the moment whilst being mindful. Helps relax my body mind and soul.
Trying for someone who’s structured life as a way of control. Whilst step one is accepting we/I have none.
Just for Today’s quote noting we no longer fear ourselves…gave me tremendous peace. As I get to know myself and deal with life head on using positive tools and accepting life on life’s terms…my resolve strengths. For this I am grateful.
Strong and serene 24
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I actually made myself lunch and then fell asleep for a little while on the couch. I felt so tired. Right now I am feeling pretty good. Going to sit down with a comic book and do a little reading and then if I’m up to it, do some work to catch up on things. I’ve been learning that when I get these types of cravings to try to do something else that take them away. Going for a walk helps, fresh air and to get some sun. If the cravings come back strong, that’s what I’m going to do.
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Day 55, love those numbers climbing up!
My mind is calm and as a reflection of that I’m finally able to keep my apartment clean and tidy.
It starts with making the bed when leaving in the morning and ends with a healthy sport routine I successfully implemented.
Since 3 weeks every 3. day I do a low impact workout, 30 minutes full power.
I eat more bc my body needs its fuel to work as it should.
I’m not perfect, but I’m making progress.
Getting better at getting better, each and every day 
Have a beautiful sober day team 
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Day 19 nearly done 
Had the worst week, physically ill and mentally low, but we are nearly there for the longer weekend.
No drinking for me. Heart strong.
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Completely relate to this! Gonna be in the same situation after work later myself. Really strong decision to make tho drivin straight past. keep it up! Not long ago I did the same thing…couldn’t sleep…ended up driving 15 miles at 3am to the nearest all night liquor store. Not for the first time. Felt absolutely defeated. I’m not doin that tonight, gonna be here if it gets tough! Good on ya, your not alone!
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Hey guys. Just checking in day 46.
@CATMANCAM Hey, congrats on reaching 90 days. Thats huge. Hope you are doing well.
Bye and peace.
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Hey michael. Sorry to hear about your job and your relapse. It must be really hard.
Do not overthink your relapse. I personally take it as a learning experience even though it may be difficult in the moment.
We will always be sober twins.
Sending strength and have a good day.
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Congrats on your 90 days cocaine free!!!
Wooooohoooooo!!!
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Welcome back Kelly.
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Thank you 
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Day 28
Meds appt is done. Started Lamotrigine today.
One more neuropsych appt for an official adhd diag. and I’m done with this portion, just keep trucking through highs and lows with more tools and support after that. I think this was the best psychiatrist appt I’ve ever had and we were able to create a clearer plan; heck the guy even agreed with my theories on having adhd as well w/my bpd.
Everything is part of the greater picture of being better. I wanna say thanks for everyone here encouraging me and letting me be part of this
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Hooray, it is exactly how I imagined, except watching the West Ham match too. Thanks for all the supportive words earlier.
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Let me share with an easy-typical thought: what a good sensation is going to bed and know that you have not drank in the whole day. Simply and pure satisfaction.
Good night!
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Hahaha, just watched Chelsea 
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I don’t even like West Ham 
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Checking in on day 117. After having a rough couple of days last week and early this week I’m back to my strong self again. Went back to day by day and focused on my routine very closely and it got me through. Wanted to share this as I’m so happy I worked through some tough days and came through sober, to anybody struggling at the moment all I can say is please keep going as the good days return and when you reach them sober you are stronger! 
thanks guys!
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Hey Michael- I’m sorry about your job 
By the sounds of it, this might be a welcome change of pace, a blessing in disguise. Maybe a new, more positive path with open up for you, and allow the time you’d like to heal and be with family.
Take care of yourself
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I’m on day 30 tomorrow and I can’t even tell you the number of times I thought and wondered maybe I could just have one or maybe after a certain amount of time I’d be able to control it. I mean isn’t that what I was trying to do for the last 10 years??? So the answer for me is NO. I Can’t moderate alcohol. Yes I kind of wish I could but then I think about how it really made me feel when I drank and I don’t miss that. Today is actually really tough one. The cravings have been okay and not too harsh lately but right now sitting here waiting for my daughter to come out of school with this dark rainy day. I’m exhausted physically and mentally. I’ve got to find something else to look forward to…or just let myself be in this moment. It will pass. I won’t regret waking up sober, but I’d definitely regret it if I drank…I always did and always will.
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