1273 days af and 3 days no caffeine.
I am pretty proud about the caffeine. Otherwise, not in perfect condition, that’s an understatement. Apperantly, quarantine is to be reduced down to 5 days beginning of n may. That would be good.
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Sorry to hear your feeling like this 
Give your local mental health crises team a call,
they are professionals and thats what they are there for, too help you get through difficult times in crisis.
Iv used them myself they really help if your truthfull about how you really feel.
It upsets me to read when your sad, but i have poor mental health and i am no way a professional and i dont always know what to say xx
Thinking of you lots sending you hugs and love 
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Day 17 
crazy nightmare last nite only 4 hrs sleep feel so drained but at least still sober have a great day all
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Coffee. Group therapy is done. Glad it’s over although I will miss it and the folks there too. We had a nice closure, exchanged telephone numbers, evaluated a little bit, shared some treats and said our goodbyes. That was that. Did a good goodbye for a change. I learned loads about myself and how I function in the world, and how to function a bit better too. Still have an exit talk planned with one of the therapists. There is some stuff -sexual, gender, abuse- that I didn’t get to address and maybe talking with another therapist about that might be a good idea. Will see.
Luna has kidney issues. As is very common in older cats. So it’s back to the vet today, for some treatment and medicine and some advice. Poor kitty. Happy I got some money saved too. All worth it.
So let’s have another sober and clean day my friends. And make it as good as we all can. Because our lives are much better this way. And because we deserve it. One day at a time. Love from Luna and me.
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I definitely think it helps to plan yur evening ahead, with something else you will look forward to, take out food, film, relaxing bath, visit good company that good for sobriety. I have to do this the i spend the day looking forward to my new experience.
I know its hard, but slowly you will start to feel the enjoyment of the smallest things again.
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Love back to you, and Luna, Menno. That’s a sweet girl there, looking at you, ready for her bicycle ride. Success and thoughts for the treatment and care. 
@SoberWalker beautiful pic of the cows. Happy for you w your gallbladder coming out soon. And the tattoo off. Admire your resolve on that.
@ShesGotMoxie saw post yesterday, (haven’t been on the site much) your father in law had died. Thinking about you all. I am so sorry. Glad you were there.
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At the end of the day it’s night…hope everyone is travelling ok 
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Beautiful cat, hope she responds well to the treatment 
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This is not ok. Were they all govt, or private, or a combo? Another thing that ticks me off is when I see a ramp that has the incorrect rise over run. Like… did you expect the person’s chair /walker to , idk, have 4w drive? Traction wheels? 
I hope your thrush is better. If you didn’t know, or if no one told you, it loves warm, wet, and dark environments, and SUGAR!
Thanks for the really great pogo postcards. I love seeing new places. If you ever raid and need another, invite me. I’m probably online!
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Day 220 checking in 
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Hello all, checking in on Day 21. So tired today but not working so can’t really complain. I had my eye scan this morning and it is looking good, the burst blood vessel is being reabsorbed (gross) so my vision is clearing.
It is so cold in England at the moment, hard to feel motivated to do much. Think I might treat myself to a lovely nap this afternoon 
Have a good day everyone
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Day 478
So I had this little surprise when I came into work last night. It may not seem huge to some. But man I couldn’t have even kept a job at all 2 years ago. I’m pretty stoked about this. 
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Day 11 checking in.
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Day 47. I confess I am often thinking about drinking a Heineken 0.0, but I am resisting. I fear I won’t be satisfied and end up drinking alcohol.
Have a nice weekend!
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In yesterday’s meeting, I shared for the very first time about my fear of men and my insecurity amongst them. Not an easy subject when you are a man yourself.
But I also shared that I’m starting to realise most of them, like me, don’t match our social masculine norms of how men are supposed to be.
Sadly, if I can’t let go completely of those norms and expectations, there will always be a part of me comparing itself to others. And with that, I’ll always be a part of the problem.
It really bugs me, how other men thought a tv revelation was something to laugh and joke about. But though I may not be laughing with them, question still is : would I stand up against them, or would I just remain silent and try to look away ?
And that’s basically the split I found myself in : not feeling happy in our social norms, but not being strong and confident enough to walk away from it.
Untill this morning I noted something good díd come from the 020 region except a lousy football team that is named after a cleaning agent 
A movement not only focussing on male emancipation as in involving them in feminine equality, but also in trying to change those social masculine norms.
Which was a good start of my day, but coming to think of it also adresses (again) one of the main things I struggle with : the difficulty of bringing the emotional and cognitive processes together. They can run parallel for ages, without coming together. Untill suddenly the words male emancipation get linked to what I’m struggling with. One of those “aha” moments that explain so very much, but that also make me realise how rare they are in my life.
Not sure how to deal with that, guess I’ll just have to accept that’s how my brains are wired.
Have a good weekend all, stay clean and sober ! 
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Be careful with that one Felipe. I drink all 0.0 beers, except Heineken for it tastes too much like beer…
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Hey all, checking in on day 684. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Day 3. Complaints don’t solve anything. Just learning how to change my heart
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Welcome. Keep going.
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Thank you, I have no other choice but to try
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