You can do it. You got this.
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5.5 months clean today.
My 18 year old, whom I havenāt spoken with in 4 years has now been responding to my texts. Hallelujah!
My ex husband has decided to stop allowing me to speak to my three youngest. He is hoping Iāll fall and fail. Challenge accepted. 
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My best friend turned boyfriend turned ghosts me aquaintence has been a ghost in my life. Iām used to this from men.
My prayers have been to God for Him to remove those that are not for me and help me not be hurt when they go away. So maybe he is not for me.
Ugh
Iām a Peer coach now. I also begin HeartMath training and certification on Wednesday. Super grateful for that.
Been managing two recovery homes and also being the owners assistant. I love it and am honored to be a part of the solution today.
I ask God to fill me up so I may have an overflow to pour out to others.
I love this forum. Itās been a while and I am so thankful to each of you.
God bless 
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Morning friends! Checking in on the top of day 6. Iām not feeling a good vibe today, very untrusting of myself and getting through today. Iām almost through my tool kit already, itās the morning where I am still, been up for 6 hours and trying to think of other things to keep my busy, but today is tough so far.
I hope everyone is hanging in there and has the most amazing day!! Mine will be trying but I guess knowing that going in maybe will help.
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You can do it, youāre just as strong as any if us trying to do it!
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Itās such a mind f%!$ at the beginning; like youāre going against yourself or something. Youāre actually finding the true you, all the good and badā¦with no need to add anything to it!
Hope to see you around, Ami!
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Hi all Kat here checking in Day 268.
Itās been a strange week, I found myself sleeping 22 hours a day most days, not cleaning apartment or going to gym like I should have been. This coincided with me not taking my caffeine pills. Well, back at work this morning and seem to be back to normal.
I did make it to in-person meetings on Tues and Wed but all in all I donāt feel recovery has been a priority for me. I need to do step work and keep in touch with my sponsor.
Anyway love to you all!
Kat
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Good for you Alison. And congratulations on your 5.5 clean.
This isnāt how the saying goes. Butā¦ā¦I believe
Actions over time
Equals blessings. 
Thank you for showing us how that is done.
And nice to see you checking in.
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1962 days. Quick check in, I want to stay focused on work today. Iām self employed, and lately Iāve been thinking (incorrectly) that itās more important to catch up on social media, or plan a vacation or even do my finances. Being an alcoholic I have a compulsive personality that will make me want to do those things as SOON as I think of them and then keep doing them for a LONG time. So then everything gets done except work. Have a good day everyone!
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Thank you @Mno @Miranda @LaDyLooNtje @CATMANCAM and @michaeljlogan74 for your responses. Yāall helped me get through yesterday.
These especially ^^ are my mantras to get me through the next few days of work.
Circumstances at work havenāt changed but my mindset has. Incorporating short meditation breaks into my day is helping me feel safe within my space so I donāt get so overwhelmed. Sadly for now I just need to stick it out at this job. Keeping my eyes open for a job thatās a better fit. My partner is pretty fed up with his job as well and we have been talking about starting our own business, so thatāll be a new consideration while we look into where to move and buy a house in the future.
Until then itās the good ole odaat. Day 639 today. Love to you all! 
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I am moving forwardā¦Yes, I had a relapse. Iāve been through the āringerā! Yes, I understand that I should use my tools to assist me in my sobriety. I was weak, however, Iām back to business. I told my sponsor and will be attending AA meetings this weekend.
Too much time on my handsā¦ugh.
Looking at the same job board is really frustrating and depressing. I did get an opportunity to do a role with a senior living developer, but the pay is 50% what Iām used too. Their is considerable upside if the company performs and a Partner opportunity in the future. It could be fun and exciting.
Hmmmmā¦.Iām overwhelmed and just need to relax my mind. I have other opportunities in the horizon. Beautiful day in Michigan today! I can see the Sun! Going to take the pup out for a walk and listen to some vinyl.
On the turntable ~
āEccentric Funkā compilation
Numero Group Records -2020
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Day 195
My oldest son woke up barfing. I think thereās a stomach flu goin around.
Iāve been dealing with some bad heart burn. I already cut back on fast food and coffee. I use to drink like 4 or 5 cups a day, Iām down to 1 cup. Iām going to try herbal tea today. I took prilosec and tums, nothing seems to help.
Yall have a great day! Stay strong, fam!
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I totally understand Katā¤ļø
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Good morning all! Its been a few days.since check in. Im at 117 days sober and 898 substance free. Welcome to all the people that have found this place. Everyone is wonderful!
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Checking in on day 93. Happy Friday 
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@DeadMist congratulations Kayla! That is awesome 
@CATMANCAM always grateful for your responses. I hope the new place works out for you, so it can ease some of your anxiety about it. Sending you love and strength!
@JennyH glad to hear that it is good news with your eye. I hope it recovers well for you!
@Mno that is a beautiful little girl you have there. Sending love to Luna. Hope the visit and treatment goes well.
Hey everyone. Day 4 check in. Barely slept last night, for the life of me I just couldnāt seem to fall asleep. Tried a few different things but none of them worked. Eventually I drifted off, but that alarm in the morning hit me hard. Maybe I can get a nap in later if all goes well.
Had my doctor visit today. Blood pressure a little high, but he said if I stay away from alcohol it will start to normalize in about 4 weeks. Should get the blood work results back next week. We also spent some time talking and he would like me to see someone, he thinks I have mild to severe depression and that the drinking is a coping mechanism. He gave me a couple of names to check with.
Accidentally threw myself a craving today. It is going to be a good weekend so I was thinking of making burgers and fries. I found myself standing in he beer aisle looking around at the different kinds. I stood there for about five minutes before I snapped out of it and was like, what am I doing? I got out of that aisle quickly and checked out. Itās amazing how routine it is for me to think of making burgers and having a beer to go along with it. Surprised myself, but held strong.
Wishing you all a happy sober day!
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Thatās what happened to me drinking non alcoholic beer lead me back to the real thing be careful with that some people can drink them without any issue me on the other hand itās a no no
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Day 89, getting real close to 90(4.5hours left).
I would never have thought I couldāve gone this long without alcohol. Iām now 16 days out of the clinic which equals my longest time without alcohol in the last 5 years before the clinic.
Iām very grateful for all other addicts that have helped me, through telling their own stories and struggles that much relate to my own. Have a great day everyone, stay strong 
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Day 3 for me 
Havenāt slept since I stopped. Hopefully will tonight! Gym and good food and naltrexone seem to be helping
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