Roasted broccoli sounds delicious!
When is your road trip? I hope your cousin is supportive. It sounds like she will be.
I wish I could wave a magic wand for you and clean up your kitchen 
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Sounds like some good goalsā¦ Just remember you actually need the good carbs to stabalize your blood sugar so donāt cut out all carbs (Iām sure you know thatā¤ļø)
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Thx for that Menno, always appreciate your kind words of wisdom!
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Checking in
Day51
Been a busy day overall. Mood was up n down. Day started great but then slowly started going downhill mood-wise. Just so tired and super sore from the gym yesterday. Then I hit the gym once my hubby got home and I worked out the same sore body parts (my legs especially), even tho I could barely walk properly anyway. So yaā¦ I think I may have figured out why Iām in a weird mood actually. Just while typing this I realized how I am not listening to my body. My legs hurt so I did stretch and drink extra water. But then I also worked out again (squats and lunges n all thatā¦ which now made them hurt even more). I see a bad pattern happening already which is related to my old thinking with the gym. I felt abit crappy about missing the gym this morning so I made up for it later on. I shouldve just taken the day off to rest or altered the workout plan I am following to do upper body instead. Anyway, I need to remember what @its_me_stella said about working out and the reason behind why I am working out and to make sure I am listening to my body. Thatās important. Addiction wise I havenāt had crazy urges lately. Thankful for that! Spiritual connection is good! Had an early hot shower and feeling better. But I miss u all and need to be on here more I think. Hugs to all!
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Awww shucks! Thanks so much!
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Thank you so much!
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Thank you so much! Appreciate your encouragement 
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Morning check in, 98 days.
Cant belive Im almost at 100 days with not drinking alcohol, I have not had one drop in 2022.
I can really feel the differance. But Im not taking it for granted, I have to work for it every day, I dont know what tomorrow will bring, only taking it one day at a time. Im not drinking today.
Had a hard day yesterday, and in a brief moment I did do something stupid, not drinking, but something Im not suppouse to do. I think today will be a better day.
I dont know if you all remember how much pains and stuff I had, everyday was a struggle. I now feel a lot better, not 100% I still have pains and other, but not as bad as earlier.
But one thing I really do struggle with, is the getting up in the morning. It is hell. I get up, everyday. But its so hard, I feel so dead, not ever rested. I dont know what to do to change or help this. Anyone have good tips?
Have a great day everyone 
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Yes, I do know that 
I eat too much junk right now and this has to end 
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Congrats on 98 days!
Coffee. Cold showers. And some more coffee.
Stay strong!
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Another sober day, went to a p.m. meeting tonight. Iām finding that mid-week meeting helps a lot. Looking forward to starting a new work project tomorrow. I finished the other one that had been hanging on for a month and a half yesterday. Had some talks with my son, so that is good. Weāll see how things go.
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Thank you
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Check in ā¦ 96 days ā¦ been a bit poorlyā¦ achey joints thing that put me in a bed for a dayā¦ maybe more a detox thing cos Iāve been taking chlorella for a couple of weeksā¦ughā¦ . Anyhow. Taking it easy cos havenāt eaten too much cos of the feverā¦ Still Sober 
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Checking in on day 54. Sober and feeling good!
2 more early morning alarms and than a have a day off. Looking forward to that!
My girlfriend is feeling a bit ill so this afternoon after work Iām gonna take care of her. We donāt live together yet so Iāll take all the time I can get with her.
Sheās super supportive to me. And Iām very hapoy that I can give her the best version of me.
Have a great sober day everyone!
ODAAT
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Yesssss, but I still have to be patient for a while. I think they need at least 4 laser sessions and there has to be 2 months between each of them. So it takes at least 8 months untill I can make an appointment for the new tattoo.
But I promiss you and @anon53116147 that I will show it to you here when Iām happy with it.
And maybe I share the before picture as well but depends on how I feel about it then. Now I still canāt look at it because I hate it.
The tattoo artist fucked up big time 
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Day 2. Long day ahead
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Coffee. Therapy day. Last one but two. Iāve always been terrible at farewells. Just want to run away and have often done just that. Not this time, the therapists are making sure of that. For today weāre asked to bring a small gift to all the other group members, for them to put into their toolkits. Yes they do those in therapy too, and yes I still donāt think too much of that. But after today Iāll have some stuff in it I guess.
Iām bringing these. Gifts I got and stuff I found. All significant. Good karma travels around as my friend in Texas just told me. I hope it works that way.
Itās not easy, feeling all these feelings. Itās goddamned hard at times even. But itās infinitely better than numbing it all with booze and drugs, and ending up feeling nothing but anxiety and despair. Iām sober and clean and hope you will all be too friends. Just for today. Love from my place.
@GVLNative Kyle my 
brother! So good to see you. Hope youāre good. Love.
@Rockstar24777 Huge congrats Rob! Hoping to follow your example soon.
@Bomdhil Long days will end as well. Keep going. ODAAT.
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Did you find you started craving more sugar/simple carbs when trying to get sober? I have noticed that for myself! Itās hard to balance everything out.
I also love your last two goalsā¦ More creativity and more readingā¤ļø
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Came home yesterday afternoon. More exhausted than I usually am when getting home so I fell asleep at 9.30pm to wake up at 7am again. Long night, but still feeling like shit so guess Iāll be going back to bed this afternoon, instead of hitting the gym.
Just need some time to process last weeks.
Before leaving I had a final talk with one of the crew. He was doing so well - borrowed extra money for another shed for his company at home, so he could expand that intending to stop life at sea at an earlier age to be with his family.
Everything is gone now. Destroyed sheds, destroyed company, destroyed hopes and dreams. Nothing left but mortgages and a loan to pay backā¦
Looking at him, I didnāt know what to say to him. There just isnāt a reply suitableā¦
Makes me grateful fo rthe peaceful life and place Iām in at the moment.
And grateful that I actually Ɣm able to reckognise, interpretate and deal with how it makes me feel by now. Sober, without having to suppress anything of it.
Started my course on peer support a week ago. Itās a next step in my recovery, but also a first step in looking ahead. After this course I want to start two additional courses, coaching and autism coach.
Maybe one day itāll help me help others starting this journey.
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