I too dread going to work tomorrow…Ugh. Usually I would drink myself silly to stave off the Sunday Blues. Now, I’m going to ensure I stay busy, do my reading, pray to my HP and enjoy the company of my family. I still get the Sunday Blues, just haven’t figured out how to manage the feelings. Work…ugh.
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Day 70 
I can’t believe I have made it too 70 fucking days 
I have my good days and bad days. My sleep is awful , doesn’t seem to be getting any better , I’m hoping some clean eating and exercise will start to help that.
My face and chest area are in constant acne break out which I hope passes soon.
But even through all the things that I dislike that are going on with my body. I love the fact that I can say I’m sober
Here’s to another 24 hours of sobriety to myself and to everyone on here , love you all 
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Hi Kat- you deserve a day off. Thanks for your support!
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Those monster truck shows are so much fun! I haven’t been to one in minute.
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Day 176
Gonna clean up the apt today. Back to the grind tomorrow.
Have a great sober Sunday!
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Day 667 clean and sober. Have an amazing day everyone, love you guys! 
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Checking in
Day 55
How I look right now, trying to control the things I can’t. I’m seeing it and I’m noticing it. Now to stop it 
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Good morning all checking in on day 233. Still raining. Had a few good days and then back into the slump. Can’t really find the root of it besides a few things but nothing really major or connecting. Made some small progress in meditation. Haven’t had a major urge to drink, certainly crossed my mind, but know it’s not gonna help no matter how shitty the situation is. Stay safe and take care everyone.
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1558. Happy lazy Sunday TS! It’s been awhile, life has been busy to say the least. Kids are doing well, they’re thriving. Had a couple encounters with their Mom saying she’s coming for a visit and then never shows. But, that’s her and I’ve learned to cope and adjust. As some of you know the earlier months of the year are always difficult. My sisters bday is in Feb, my husband passing and my daughters bday/passing are all in Feb and March. I did good this year I was sad those days but we celebrated each of them on those days and it gave us peace. I miss them all so much. It never goes away. The one thing that sticks with me the most are the what-if’s? I try not to get stuck there and it’s mostly my daughter I wonder about. What if she was here with us today…what would our lives look like…What would she look like…all those question fester and linger during these months. I feel so strong in my sobriety and for that I am grateful. I hope you all are doing well. I’m going to read here for a bit and try and catch up…lol!
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I’m like counting the days!! I’m a few days away and I can’t wait for my own 666
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Hell yeah brother congratulations man!!!
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Welcome back my friend 
Keep moving forward!
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Glad your back man.
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Checking in
Day 55
Was doing some reading and it was about emotion and being able to just literally sit with emotion before letting it go. Sitting with feelings and observing them without judgement is sooo hard for me. I often feel like I need to change intense emotion and to do so, quickly. For many years I used substances or outside sources to change how I felt. I manipulated my emotions and changed them to suit me in an attempt to just feel “okay”. Being in recovery now, I do feel crazy emotion… but I don’t like to sit with them and I STILL try to change how I feel… but by using healthier coping skills, exercise, meditation, prayer, cleaning, music or self care etc. It works for sure! But I want to get to the point where I just feel emotion and sit there with them (sort of exploring the emotion and asking questions and observing emotion without judging it good or bad). I want to feel and be okay with how I feel. I can see this sort of being a form of self love. This is my goal for the week. Just one emotion… to be able to sit with it and then let it go.
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Welcome to TS Fae, very glad you made it.
I also didn’t find freedom when I put down the substances, addiction had woven itself tightly through many aspects of my life. I understand what you say very well. Finding myself has been a beautiful journey though that I hope never ends. At first it felt overwhelming, that I was almost 50 and had no idea who I was. Then as I let go of all the ideas of what I thought I was supposed to be and just started to actually “be” life folded for me.
It takes a lot of hard work and determination to stay on this road but I can assure you that it’s worth it. I hope you stick around.
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Welcome back.
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Checking in at 359 day sober - I’m only a couple of days away from a year. It feels like an eternity and no time at all … life has been good lately: I’m setteling into my new job, I’m doing a lot of sports, learning about my emotions in therapy and finally trying to take care of myself and my needs.
I have’t really checked in much, because being addicted seems so far away and I rarely think about it - dealing with general life stuff present and sober is really fullfilling and keeps me occupied.
Now that I’m closing in on a year it’s on my mind a lot again and I’m reminded how bad it felt and how close I came to giving up on life … I feel much better now, but I realize how comfortable I settled into repressing all this this trauma and memories of being addicted. I have no desire to drink at all, but I’m afraid if I’m getting too comfortable, does that make sense? Any way, I’ll try and come back more regularely, hope everyone is doing good
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Checking in
Day 55
Work was good! I really feel like I was able to be of help today to another client with her meth addiction. I was working with my client in the upstairs suite until 4pm, but my other client who I work with was home in the downstairs suite and not mentally doing well. There are cameras hopked up for both suites so we can see what is happening and if staff need support. She came back from an AWOL yesterday and she uses meth while out of the home. At 745am she was cleaning like crazy, wearing her wigs, and pacing (what she does when she has used). I knew she would be having a hard day today bcuz of her AWOL. At 230pm the staff working with her calls upstairs to us and says she doesn’t know what to do as the client took everything out of the fridge so she could sit in it. She was trying to fit herself into the fridge and close the door and she wouldn’t come out or say why she is doing this. She kept staring blankly and saying extreme delusion things to herself. At 310pm she was still in there. I decided to go down and talk with her. We chatted about what was going on, I gave her some suggestions to help with her physical pain, asked her if she was hungry or tired, and then we agreed on 15 more min of “fridge time” (we both laughed at this), and then for her to come out and put her food back. She actually asked me when I would be working with her again (awe)…and then I left to go back to my client. At 330pm she did follow thru snd I’m proud of her. She left the fridge and put her food back. My work has no idea that I am a recovery drug addict or that I wad a prostitute years ago. My client has used meth often for years and has a history of prostitution. Even tho no one knows about my life, I feel like I can really help those in our agency who use drugs or struggle with other issues (and I do so without even saying that I have experienced it). It’s just talking on a whole diff level in a sense. I feel proud right now to be clean and sober and to be able to use my past to help others 
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That’s great, so happy u could help her.
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