Checking in…
835 days substance free
353 days self injury free
And without counting days I have been doing quite well with my ED lately.
I have changed a lot in the last 2 years. Well the hugest part of me that has changed is how I deal with my life. Today I seem to be able to handle life on lifes terms with the help of the many tools I have put into place. I recieved some “not so great news” from the urologist yesterday after the plethora of tests I have been going through lately. Years ago my reaction would have been to rage, throw a fit, be angry with the world, scream " WHY ME?!?!?!?",then I would have abused my body in everyway I could imagine.
It’s different today. I can see the small glimmer of hope today and that is what I am focused on. I have abused my body enough in this lifetime and that’s probably half the reason I am in the position I am in. So I will just take this day by day, I will not focus on what could be the final outcome but instead focus on putting all of my energy into trying to fix what is out of sorts today.
Thats not all that’s going on but that’s enough. I am still clean and I have an inner serenity I never thought possible.
Congrats on making it through a tumultuous first eight months Carolyn. The level of pain and sadness you have endured in the begining of your recovery has been unfair. Its a gift to be able to witness a human showing the strength and grace that you have through it all. Your footing has stayed strong and you have just taken each tidal as they have come. There is a lot of value in your story, thank you for sticking around and sharing it with us.
Lots of love, I am very proud of you and happy for you.
Thank you, got loads of great pictures and lovely memories I’m very lucky!
That’s so good that your daughter plays too, must be so rewarding to see don’t give up on your dream of your season ticket, you never know what might happen one day
Hello guys. Checking in day 30.
Just wanted to tell you guys that am really grateful to be here.
These 30 days have been very easy going. Before finding this community, I would really struggle to get past 30 days. I would relapse every 2-3 weeks for months.
Being here makes me confident that I will be able to quit my addiction.
I pride myself on my Quit Lit consumption but have not gotten around to that book yet. You motivated the purchase. I love that analogy, for drinking and anything hard we try in life. Addicts are so mean to themselves in their heads. In the words of Michelangelo on his death bed “Ancoro Imparo” (still I learn). Happy sober day to you friend.
Thank you for the compliment! I Jordan’s.
For my tattoo I need to have patients. It takes multiple sessions, at least 6 with 2 months between each. But 10 is an option as well, so it takes a looong time
Now I have to wait for approaval of the tattooshop. But it’s so expensive that I think I need some extra luck…
I truly hope it goes well and tnat this all can be distant memory for u at some point. Iebeen loving new Jordan’s too. My hubby bkgubt them for me not top too long ago. They are super bright and make me super happy!
I like yours as well!