Day 203 checking in 
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Day 178
Congrats to yall reachin those milestones, and some of yall hittin the triple digits.
Sober is the way.
Stay strong!
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Checking in on day 361.
I started my new job 6 weeks ago. The last time I worked in that profession was while still drinking. Quit my old job when I quit drinking and started to build a new sober life ā¦ oh my god, is this new work experience an eye opener!! It is so much easier! I thought the stress and the responsibility were killing me before, but it was the drinking (who knew) ā¦ what did I do to myself? How was I able to work at all? I rember the existential dread, the depression, the pain, the secrets, not to mention the stress of hiding my shaking hands and the constant fear of fainting. That wasnāt living at all, it was barely keeping up a facade. Iām so glad Iām getting a new chance to work as a sober person, because I always loved my job and now Iām even starting to enjoy it 
@Misokatsu I totally feel you! Great job on making that class work in spite of the technical difficulties!
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I can relate! Congrats on 835 days! Cocaine was mine and it had a hold on me some terrible. I lost everything and hit a rock bottom. And your right, every day counts. As humans we all learn and grow each day and im so glad to have found this place because its nice to be able to talk and relate to people that truly understand. We all got this and it feels like a wonderful family! I feel blessed.
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Dr appointment this morning. He was stoked I got to 7 days but gave some health results thatās definitely brought the reality home that I need to take this seriously.
As he put it āyou are a single parent, you only have one heart, you need to look after your heart for your sonā
Got to go get work ready, chat soon
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That a rough spot. Iām struggling keeping my emotions in check tooā¦ Anger mostly.
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Day 12 and rearranging my heart and mind. Making room for more proper growth and remembering grace for myself and the ones Iāve had carrying me along so many times
Wrote out a morning schedule Iāll place in my bathroom (I have no memory/routine skills rn, pushing myself and building that neural pathway)
Harnessing these current manic phase powers for the good of the land and identifying power vs peril and remembering I can gracefully agree or even be wrong without crumbling.
Is thisā¦life in a growth recovery place? Creating success? I can do this here
Only craving success, not drugs.
Iām observing for pink clouds though regardless, and last addition is going to be adding a tracking system for my phase regulation/mood swings etc.
Hoping youāre all having a good Tuesday 
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Dude those shoes are awesomeee 
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Day 461
So Iāve been really struggling to keep my emotions in check. And by emotions I mean my lack of emotions or angerā¦ Iāve always just sat silently and washed the emotions down with booze and drugs.
Trying to find a healthy balance. I will not become a doormat again. But also donāt wanna be overly unnecessarily bitchy. Oh wellā¦ Guess it will come with timeā¦ Or people will leave me alone 
Iām actually okay with either. Iām at a place in my life where you are either complimenting my life or you can exit stage left. I canāt let people keep me in a headspace that takes away from bettering myself and being the best mom I can be for my girls. Iām past the drama and BS. Iāve lost several people in my life either bc I stopped using or bc I stopped letting them treat me some kinda wayā¦ If demanding common decency And basic respect is too much than you can go. 
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Thanks! I love them. I never use to wear very bright shoes lol but these I really like!
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I feel you. Sorry your dealing with some difficult emotions. Definitely think itās important not to have toxic people in our lives though so Iām kind of in the same boat. I feel like Iāve lost a lot of relationships and Iām scared that I might lose more. It seems that becoming sober opens your eyes up to how people are really treating you though.
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Such a nice post! Congratulations on day 30!
I almost made it there before I relapsed on day 24 and I wouldnāt have made it so far without this app either. Iām almost at 2 weeks again and super excited (okay well I donāt want to get too excitedā¦
ā¦ Honestly it kind of scares me when I say that for some reason) but anyway, thereās no way I could do this alone. Iām so glad youāre here @Deep and that weāre all in this togetherā¤ļø
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Day 822.
They say that to do the same thing over and over, and expect different results everytime, is the definition of insanity. Render me insane.
I need freedom, by any means necessary, regardless of who or what Iāll have to sacrifice.
Me isnāt working anymore. I donāt know what the next evolution of my sobriety, but I do know why I havenāt gotten there.
Farewell TS.
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Exactly. I always let people walk on me. Never wanted to rock the boat. It might make things awkward or they might want to walk out of my life. The last year Iāve realizedā¦ If you to suppress yourself to maintain relationshipsā¦ They arenāt worth maintaining.
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Checking in-Day 30!
This is the 2nd time around - ODAAT.
Feeling good and proud of myself.
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Congrats on your 30 days! 
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