Done!
Stay grounded and take it one moment at a time, focused on what you can control, which is yourself and your reactions. From that, you will teach your kids how to live in our unpredictable world, in an empowered, healthy way - just like you. 
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Ughhā¦ Thank goodness itās only a couple of days!! Still soooo frustrating Iām sure!
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Just saying happy Easter and hope everyone has a good day. Feeling a little better, ended up breaking out in a bad rash over my body but today feeling ok. Actually was kind of nice bc the whole time Iāve been sick my mind has been so quiet no constant over thinking and racing thoughts. Girls came over quick got some chocolate and stuff. Still just recovering but doing ok much love
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Actually hearing my addict whispering to me a little bit too. If youāre freshly sober the Czech Republic probably isnāt the best place to be, if youāre planning a relapse it probably is. Lots of people drinking in the street, booze is very cheap & literally everywhere.
Anyway. Talked about my crave with my travel companion. Iām posting here. And doing something about the cause of my crave which is a fight with my friend just before I left for my holidays. Writing her a letter, not sure Iāll send it but it helps to gather my thoughts and feelings. Actually now the crave has passed. Thanks for reading. Love from me.
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Day 43
Avoiding my family, its painful and exhausting to be around them sometimes.
Painful and exhausting to be around myself!
All i can commit to today is sobriety
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Glad to see u posting Mike! And Iām glad u got a bit of a chance to get some calmess and quiet in ur mind lately 
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Yesā¦yesā¦yes! Everything you said happens! I find the oldest has the hardest time because she understands and we literally just got over her not coming for her birthday. But sheās here now and weāll just deal with everything as it comes like we always do. The oldest she takes everything hard no matter if itās good or bad sheās very dramatic she gets that from her mom lol! Our damage control lasts months sometimes because she lives it over and over. Because she just donāt understand why her Mom can have a whole life without her kids. Those are the words of my 7 year old niece. She understands and actually comprehends whatās going on. I hurt for her because of that. Thank you Stella! I feel less alone. 
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Omg!!! This is the CUTEST pic EVER!!! Happy Easter to u all 
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Day 183
Thought I was feeling better. Woke up with the chills again and a headache. Gadammit, dude. I just had get sick on Easter day. The fam went to chill with the inlaws. I can already smell the Carne asada from here.
Yall have a great Easter. Take care and stay safe!
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Made it to 21 days. Today is a struggle especially as itās such a lovely day outside and thereās nothing Iād like more at this moment than sit in the sunshine with a glass of whiskey with some tunes playing
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Youāre here instead though. Good work. Tells me you wonāt give in because you donāt want to give in. We donāt need this glass of booze to sit in the sun and enjoy ourselves. Weāre not depriving ourselves of anything by not drinking. Weāre actually giving ourselves back our lives from stupid drinking and stupid addiction. Iām glad youāre here. Weāre in this together and were not giving in.
What kind of tunes do you like?
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Stay well and drink lots of water 
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Hey guys. Its day 35 for me.
@SelfLove_42 Hey bro, congrats on reaching 5 months. Its not easy but you did it. Will be joining the 5 month club soon with you.
@CATMANCAM Hey. Missing your post. Hope you are doing well.
Have a nice day. Much love.
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Thank you. Needed that. I stripped some wallpaper instead with a bit of ub40. I listen to a broad range from the carpenters to Ed Sheeran. Made my 26 year old daughter watch grease with me last night 
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Checking in
Day 62
Iām needing to go home and I have 1.5 hours to go. I hate feeling on edge sometimes just literally trying to calm the storm with my client who goes from high to low in under 1 secā¦ literally. I feel for herā¦ I really do. She has bipolar, anxiety, depression, OCD, an intellectual disability, along with epilepsy, as well as a potential diagnosis of schizophrenia. She struggles ALOT and holidays are hard bcuz her family tends to not see her on holidays. Its a lot for her and I want to help and support her the best I can. No one knows that I am working thru my own stuff tho (nor do they need to know)ā¦ but with certain clients I need to be āon my gameā so to speak. And when Iām not (like today), it just really takes alot out of me 
And thatās when thots of using pop up. Iām drained today but no thots of using tho. Just canāt wait to go home soon.
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Hey everyone. Day 6. Getting real bad urges today. Part of it is being a Sunday and the other part is having sports on to watch. Iāve tried to distract myself all day. I did laundry, dishes, hell, I even rearranged the furniture in the living room and did a deep clean. I even ran out of garbage bags, but am purposely avoiding going to get more because the temptation to get something to drink while at the store is just to much today. I canāt give in today, I have so much to do for work and early tomorrow that I canāt drink. I know how it will go, Iāll be late and hungover and just naturally feeling bad all day and it will just snowball the rest of the week. I canāt let that happen. I even stood under the hot water in the shower for a half hour trying to calm these thoughts down. Just need to make it through the next few hours and I know Iāll be ok for the week.
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Day 168 !!
Happy Easter everyone!
Today will be taking it easy and focusing on basics just like every day. Trying to stick to my morning routine and learning that I can restart my day if I start acting a fool, or behaving like one. I can always restart my day. Iām learning to be OK with my feelings and know that Iām not supposed to feel great all the time. Here lately Iām trying to put more effort into the food that Iām putting in my body, and currently learning how to cook. Though the majority of my family is in Florida I still can participate and be able to communicate with them today and be a part of Their celebrationsā¦ they may be going different directions in their life but itās still family .
Today Iāll be taking a break from busking as Iām pretty sunburnt from the last couple days itās getting pretty hot here in Arizona and summer is here. I need to invest in some long sleeve shirts, and find more shade spots to play. Going to hang out with my cousin today and cook some tilapia and rice in a couple hours. Overall Iāve been grateful for the simple things lately. Music and food especially! Hope everybody has a good day. Stay strong family
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