Good morning!
One week free after last relapse and depression.
Now calm, quiet and trying to be, at least, a normal person. I myself am not the best man in the world, but I am better without the booze. Of course!!!.
Best wishes!
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I admitted my problem tonight to those Iāve been hiding it from. Best friends and boyfriendā¦ that was rough. But felt good! They showed supportā¦ and surprise. But mostly support. So that feels good.
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Day 154 here , 5 months.
So much has happened in 5 months.
I was using dope, selling dope and making a mockery of myself 6 months ago.
Today, I am working a program, staying clean, serving those on the streets I once used with , did dirt with and walked by on a daily. Iām an assistant to an amazing woman whose also put in her time to four Women Recovery Homes, managing two of the four right now , working PT for besties service company AND still human and manage to feel the ups and downs of life ā¦ All clean and sober and with better judgement.
I am in awe over all I accomplish in a single day.
Not too long ago I couldnāt get past the pipe, bong, needle, bottle or next man. My fix was toxic and Iād allow myself to stay stuck.
Iām so grateful for recovery today. Iām grateful to God the Father. Iām grateful that I see my worth now and I see my purpose.
Iām grateful.
Pray
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Instant coffee. Great hike yesterday, up the Black Mountain which turned out to be pretty white still. Remind me to bring spikes and/or snowshoes next time. Made it without but it was hard work at times. Great fun though!
Moving west today, to a lower part of the country near the German border. Will keep you posted. Sober and clean. Like I expect from you all here. Itās the only way for us all. Love from Svoboda nad Upou.
@Shna Welcome Shaunna! Glad to have you aboard. So much support here, and strength in numbers. Wishing you all success.
@Hazy Glad youāre right back at it. Upwards and onwards. ODAAT for all of us.
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Nice. In Japan, people sometimes grate apple in, for the crunch and sweetness. I like to slice cucumber finely, sprinkle with salt, leave, then squeeze out the water, and add that to potato salad. Red onion is also yum.
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Thank you letās keep pushing towards that year odaat 
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Day 616
Decent day at work, tomorrow is my day off, but have usual list of housework and work to do. Now the weather is good I can easily stay up after the kids have gone to bed to do my own things, which is great.
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Day 1262.
I am on my way to the interview. I am pretty nervous. Although there is nothing to be afraid of. I have nothing to lose.
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All success to you Freundin! Always stress with stuff like this. Nice bike BTW.
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Aaah, I am so sorry you are having a hard time.
I totally get the Mum guilt. I spent most of their early years telling myself at night āmust try harder tomorrowā and was so hard on myself. My sister and I had an interesting conversation with my Mum recently that completely reassured me. It turns out, some of her worst days were our favourite. The days when she was sick or struggling, was studying all day, and just let us watch TV all day, ordered pizza for tea. She had major guilt but we loved them!
I think it is great that you are open about having a bad day. Kids need to know that grown-ups struggle, and your mood is no reflection on them. It is a good life lesson.
Hope you feel better today. And the weather sorts itself out. It is beautiful weather in England and it has made all the difference to everyoneās mood 
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Apologies for incoming spam, I have been absent for 12ish days, so Iāve been catching up and have 10 posts 
@Cherry_Kisses belated congrats on 2 months 
@Stormy belated congrats on 40 days I hope youāre feeling better by now 
@Misokatsu belated congrats on 600 days and after further readingā¦20 months+ Iām pleased youāre getting some time to yourself in the evenings too 
@AllyP belated congrats on 2 weeks Iām so sorry your dealing with a gaslighting husband, sending strength
@kat261 belated congrats on 250 days sorry you didnāt get the apartment 
Iām glad your son is doing better and I hope meeting the bf went well good luck with the nail-biting quit, itās been a lifelong habit of mine too, the nail polish to help you stop is vile but does work 
@michaeljlogan74 belated congrats on 30 days and the interview
@felipeandrews belated congrats on 30 days, now 35 best of luck with the quest for a new job, it sounds like youāre making opportunities for yourself 
@Its_me_Stella sorry Iām very late to the party but Woohoo Iām so happy and excited for you with the new relationship 
sorry about the ānot so great newsā and that your parents werenāt emotionally available/supportive, I hope thereās a solution and Iām so glad you have your recovery family 
@Deep belated congrats on your month, now 36 days thanks for the shout-out
@ShesGotMoxie apologies, Iām 12ish days behind on this thread, but that is a lot of tragic loss, Iām so sorry 
after further readingā¦and to now be going through this with your father-in-law, without the support of his wife 
sending you strength and a heart hug š« congrats on 8 months
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Welcome back 
Catching up will take another 12 I guess? 
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@Bran522 belated congrats on 90 days
@NikkiD0904 a belated welcome congrats on all those days you bought with you
@LabLover222 belated congrats on triple digits 
@Minatasha belated congrats on 40 days Iām sorry youāre feeling so sad š« sending strength
@anon9289869 belated congrats on your milestones for ED and smoking Iām glad you had a nice time at the cabin, and I hope the depression and sickness has lifted some since
@Tito23 belated congrats on 4 months and the recognition at work
@Butterflymoonwoman belated congrats on 60 days I am exactly like that with emotions too, itās like Iām terrified to feel my pain, because Iāve felt it in the past and that hasnāt turned out well. Thanks also for the shout-out
@Sanuk belated congrats on 30 days Iām sorry youāre having a tough time, I hope your son is feeling better soon sending strength
@Gbw3006 belated congrats on your month
@Caite1025 belated congrats on 30 days
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Good Morning all, checking in on Day 11.
Feeling a lot better today on covid day 9, still testing strongly positive so going to work from home. Wishing everyone else struggling with covid their own speedy recovery.
Back to work today, hoping it wonāt be too difficult as couldnāt get to sleep last night and nowhere near 100%. Just drinking coffee now and watching skateboarding videos with my daughter. Like hanging out with the boys from my teens all over again 
Oh yay, just seen you are back @CATMANCAM Good to see you
Have a really good day everyone. Hope the sun is shining where you are, makes all the difference.
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@Alycia belated congrats on 2 weeks, now 20 days I really hope you get the house of your dreams and Iām glad the clouds are lifting
@Rockstar24777 belated congrats on getting the new job and on your devilish number 
I hope you do get to move into your own place soon after further readingā¦belated congrats on 22 months sorry youāve been feeling sad, sending strength
@Tors belated congrats on your week
@Sunny11 belated congrats on 600 days
@icebear belated congrats on 10 months so pleased for and proud of you for this new PB it gives me hope that I will one day be able to see a higher number than 459 for Cocaine. Sorry about the fight with your partner and the persistent cold weather, Iām hoping for brighter and warmer day for you soon
@SQG a belated welcome to you congrats on your days so far
@MsMotorista belated congrats on 200 days
@Mdh35 belated congrats on 30 days
@Dansig belated congrats on 11 months and your health transformation and now for the cool number catch 
@Kacialyn belated congrats on 70 days, now 78, and on getting your son into therapy, Iām so pleased heās enjoying it too it sounds like a wonderful Easter weekend with your daughter
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@Fargesia itās called an M.O.T here in the UK. Glad yours passed with only bulb replacements needed
@Sabrina80 belated congrats on 5 weeks
@anon53116147 sorry to read this, but glad to see you back at it and so pleased youāre reaching out for therapy feel better soon that potato salad looks 
@paper_boats belated congrats on 200 days sending strength
@vaariesga belated congrats on 650 days
@Tors sorry to read you had a slip, hope youāre back at it
@Dmcg1987 belated congrats on 200 days
@5th_dimension belated congrats on 500 days
@mcsm a belated welcome congrats on your exam results
@Wakikki belated congrats on triple digits sorry youāve caught Covid, I hope youāre starting to feel better now
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@C_8 belated congrats on 900 days
@FAE1 a belated welcome and congrats on triple digits sorry for the struggles youāve endured the firsts are all so hard, sending strength
@Eddieroots belated congrats on 40 days
@Mich80 belated congrats on 5 months and a sober concert I hope you had a nice time away
@Complicatedmama itās always lovely to see you checking in and to hear the children are all thriving, youāre amazing I can relate to the losses never going away and the what ifs, sending you love and strength I hope you and the children had a fun Easter after further readingā¦Iām sorry about your fall and resulting injury, I hope youāve got some support and have a smooth recovery and Iām sorry your sister turned up and unsettled everything when you had nice plans
@Penguin itās always good to see you checking in, Iām glad life is going well for you and that youāre enjoying work congrats on your year 
@jjcarson belated congrats on 27 months I hope your new job is going well and that your knee is healing after further readingā¦sorry you feel the need to leave, be well
@Mno I hope youāre enjoying your well deserved time off and holiday I love the photo of your ādramatic dawnā 
also pleased you feel the interview went well after further readingā¦congrats on getting the new job! you will be truly amazing, you really deserve this also, thanks for the shout-out
@David1 belated congrats on triple digits
@JennyH sorry to read you had a slip, congrats on getting back at it right away and double digits after further readingā¦sorry you caught Covid, I hope you feel better very soon I love the photos from your walk and thank you for the welcome back
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Thank you, you are so kind to tag everyone. You bring so much to this group
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@Seb sending love and strength, it really hurts to lose a furry best friend and the anniversaries really suck too š« congrats on triple digits
@Lotusflower sorry to read your family was hit with Covid, Iām glad youāre all feeling mostly better happy birthday to your daughter 
@Singtone good to see you checking back in with your sobriety in tact, congrats Iām pleased you and your family have recovered from Covid, sorry you all caught it. I hope the football game went well Also, I love the computer game analogy 
@Nordique belated congrats on your devilish number after further readingā¦22 months too
@Tragicfarinelli a belated welcome back, glad you had a nice sober break
@LaDyLooNtje belated congrats on all the 2s and also for your sonās visit, which I hope went well
@Jmillwill Iām so glad you, your family, and your animals were safe from the wildfire
@SoberWalker belated congrats on 1300+ days
@Bomdhil belated congrats on your week
@DeadMist congrats on setting boundaries and letting people go
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Day 210 checking in I remember my relapse when I had over 880 days I will get there again odaat Iāve learned a few things from my relapse we win or we learn we never lose
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