@moonchild7994 congrats on things getting better and all of your progress 
@Planipennia a belated welcome 
congrats on 51 days nice photo 
@Dan531 belated congrats on 900 days
@Miranda belated congrats on 2 weeks sorry youāre feeling depressed, sending strength 
@Hazy belated congrats on triple digits 
ā¦after further reading, sorry to read about your relapse, glad youāre back, always keep trying 
sending strength and hope
@SadMemeQueen I relate to your posts so much š« sending strength and hope to you, and prayers for you Grandpa well done for the eating without distractions
@emi belated congrats on 30 days
@zzz belated congrats on your week
@Kelsey55 belated congrats on 20 months
@Matt sorry youāre feeling discouraged at work, I hope things change for the better soon
@shilohRica belated congrats on triple digits meditation helps me when I feel how you described, sending strength
@Wunderbar I hope you enjoyed the concert and that you are having a nice holiday
@Hotic belated congrats on 1200 days
@Damage.Inc70 a belated welcome congrats on 2 days
@GOKU2019 congrats on 6 months Iām glad youāre starting to feel better and I hope you can get back outside soon
@tribeSF belated congrats on 2 weeks
@anon86198612 belated congrats on 90 days
@SelfLove_42 belated congrats on 150 days after further readingā¦5 months
@Deelzebub belated congrats on all the 4s
@Bones_80 a belated welcome congrats on your week
@Kalie6701 belated congrats on 80 days
@Tam a belated welcome congrats on 3 weeks
@DTC52 congrats on playing the tape through and thinking of the consequences .and congrats on your week now too
@Fury congrats on your devilish number 
@Kareness congrats on 1950 days sorry about your car, hope you get it back soon
@EFountains sorry about the allergies, I suffer too, I hope you can find something that helps 
congrats on your week
@CloudzBeBlue welcome congrats on day one
@mamador Iām glad youāre feeling stronger this time round congrats on your new PB
@Stormy congrats on a sober night out Iām glad you felt comfortable and had a great time
@ChristinaV sorry to read of your relapse, glad youāve got back up though congrats on 2 days
Thanks @CATMANCAM for being such a kind person to reply to each person in a considered way. Thatās so beautiful 
Wow that is great newsā¦ good luck Friday you can do it. Iāll keep my fingers crossed that you get the job. Let us know
@Charlie_C what an awesome personalised gift 
@DryIn785 sorry to hear this 
sending strength, stay with us, Iām glad thereās a little hope
@Gmac126 sorry about the argument with your husband and your friendās accident, glad sheās okay, I hope things with your husband will be too sending strength congrats on your month+
@Shna welcome congrats on 3 days youāre already doing it, we do this one day, sometimes one hour, or minute at a time, stay busy, stay connected here, keep checking in, and try not to let yourself get too (H)ungry (A)ngry (L)onely or (T)ired -HALTā:pray:t2: Iām so glad that opening up has been met with support
@PaigeTurner congrats on 5 months and all the service you are doing
@anon74766472 good luck with your interview 
616 days no alcohol.
81 days no cocaine.
1 day no binge-eating.
Itās been a while. I was still 150 posts behind on the last thread when I started catching up, but I made it here now 
I got totally caught up in being there for my friend who had recently got out of prison and lost his grandma, I supported him well enough that he made it to the funeral, but his drinking escalated straight after, and he went missing 2 days later, and told me he was smoking crack but was lying about his location and company. With the help of a mutual friend, I liased with the police and he was found safe, heās now back in a different prison, I really am hoping he gets some support for his grief while heās inside this time around, sadly itās the safest place for him.
I got heavily addicted to 20mg nicotine disposable vapes, I think I already mentioned that before my absence, but I have managed to cut down to 12mg nicotine liquid in my regular vape, and have bought supplies to cut down every fortnight by half the strength, it is definitely something I want to stop, due to the nature of my using, itās a very expensive habit, and I do feel calmer the less nicotine I have.
My eating disorder/junk food bingeing addiction escalated the worst it ever has, Iām sure this had to do with that it was the lead-up to my Mumās death anniversary (17th), but I am now the heaviest Iāve ever been and completely immobile other than getting around this small flat. I am a prisoner of my fat due to the anxiety of not wanting to be seen like this, so I stopped attending meetings, also because of the toxic bs that was drilled into me by my ex-sponsorship line, about not being a ārecovery thiefā.
With the support of my doctor, due to the surgeons saying I needed to lose āas much weight as possibleā before my gallbladder removal surgery, but me gaining a stone and a half since then, I am once again attempting the meal replacement diet, this is day two, I am more motivated than ever and plan to do this for the rest of the year. Hunger is something I am just going to have to get used to, and I need to be very strong and maintain a high resistance to any cravings.
The shame of still feeling like Iām very much in active addiction did keep me away, but Iām planning to be more reliable with my presence here again now.
I hope youāre all okay
Checking in at 230 days.
Last night I found out that the family who came to eat Easter Monday, had left a bottle of wine and 5 beers. I knew they would have a drink with the food and I asked them to bring it themselves but also to take it home again. I donāt mind people around me drinking on a holiday if itās not too much. I donāt like it when people drink in front of me when visiting on a regular basis. But donāt like having alcohol in the house either. Drink is not my main substance, but it has often ensured that during a period of being clean from drugs, a drink has a very low threshold for drugs and I relapsed. Boundaries then fade. But now I was sitting in my house with that booze. In the past Iāve never been able to throw drugs away when I quit, I had to finish it first. I couldnāt even throw the booze away. So I went to my neighbors who I know have a drink every now and then on the weekend and offered them a delicious bottle of wine and a few beers. I saw that they thought it was a nice gesture and just when they wanted to take it I said with my stupid face āI didnāt put anything in it hahaā then they thanked me kindly and said they had enough booze in stock. Oh well, I think thatās the case with my past, but someone who has nothing to do with drugs canāt appreciate such a joke. So with pain and effort I very quickly washed down all the booze and threw away the bottles. Itās not a drug, but I now see booze as a comparable substance and I threw it awayā¦Yeahh!!
Ahhh what a great photo. Congratulations on your 51 days. The good thing is that you feel much fitter and more energetic. I am happy for you. I hope to see more wildlife photos from you when you go out for a walk.
Very nice words!
congratulations on your 154 days. I read you a lot of good
for others, what in time does a lot of good to your own recovery. Keep it up.
Right on. I know that can be difficult! I was never a fan of tossing my stash eitherā¦ my ex would flush it and then just go buy more so I just saw it as a wasteā¦ but there I go with my addict thinking.
So proud tho. Dumping alcohol is HUGE. And youāre right. People that donāt have our history donāt understand. I say things that get me looked out funny all the time. 
Anyways. Major win for you! Way to go!
Ugh rough man. I had covid over Christmas. Quarantined with my 3 kids was definitely an adventure. But I got the flu a few weeks ago it felt quite similar. So maybe its not covid?
Hope you feel better soon!
Day 467.
Man itās been exhausting. Somehow my schedule got worked so that I was working 10 nights straight. And then the last 2 were doublesā¦ Finally got a little sleep yesterdayā¦ Managed to get red velvet waffle mix all over me while making breakfast this morning 
I was even finding it in my hair. It was a mess of epic proportions.
All 3 of my girls are playing softballā¦ definitely adds to the chaos but oh how I love watching them. I played my whole life so watching my girls learn is amazing. So thankful Iām sober and free of the control and abuse that was life with my exā¦ and able to enjoy these moments.
Gonna get some time off and enjoy life this weekend. So Iām super excited for that!
Hope everyone had a good Easter and had a great week.
Haha if I find my breakfast incredibly tasty, I always save pieces in my hair for laterā¦ very normalš
Great, a few days off in the weekend. Enjoy it and do the things you like. Because of my work I always have to plan and if I have a day off or several days off, I always get the most out of it. Whether those are things where you relax or more active activities, what you need at that moment. Recovering also includes rewarding yourself for your good work and effort so that you actually get the feeling that you are being rewarded in some way. I do that on my days off. Enjoy, make it something beautiful!
Thanks, Cam. Iām really glad youāre back! We missed you! Sending you strength 
You are 100% correct about the inhibitions. Alcohol is my DOC, but if Iām offered something else while drunk, I usually take it.
Congrats on being strong enough to dump it out; Iāve done that before and it feels like Iām betraying an old friend. Stay strong!
Hey all, checking in on day 674. I hope everybody has a good one!
Well done 
. My dad has been staying from Spain for a couple of weeks and he usually drinks beer every night while heās hereā¦ he left about 4 beers in the house, and I got rid of them by drinking them, and then getting more. I was by myself in the house for a couple of days so after that binge I continued yesterday, woke up at 5am in a state of anxiety. Not good. Square 1 is just the same. I went to the gym today and got myself membershipā¦ I have yoga booked tonight and so hopefully I have these things put in place for myself to use rather than alcohol. 
I make the breakfast for the hotel lol
I have big plansā¦ I will be treating myself. Hopefully pictures will follow lol I have been working on self care. I actually got my nails done doe the first time in almost 3 years. And I got my hair done last week. Iām learning lol 
I understand very well what you mean. Good that you got yourself together. Membership at the gym is a very good step. For me it helps to make a good schedule so that you actually go to the gym regularly. Yoga is excellent and helps me a lot. You have taken good steps, these are all things you can do instead of drinking. What I just said about planning for the gym you can also make for the rest of the day so that you have something to hold on to and structure. You then have less chance of empty holes in the day in which you can sink in with your thoughts. Of course you can schedule rest moments, but they also feel like rest moments since the rest of the day is filled. Itās just advice, it helps me. By the way, I only plan my activities during the day and in the evening I like to watch a movie. Research what works best for you!