Aha, I didn’t knew that history. Interesting! Thank you for the information. The photo reminded me about our holiday in Trier a while back 
Planning to go to it again in june. It so nice to walk there!
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Day 469
So my 5 year old has been really sick. I got home from work this morning and she climbed into bed with me and we’ve been watching movies and snacking she’s finally eating so I’m letting her eat in my bed 
Out if no where she just looks at me and says mommy I would be really sad if you died. So please don’t die.
Y’all that shook me too my core. I’m so glad I’ve made the changes I’ve made… I know life is unpredictable… But at least now I have a chance to be around for a long while. Before I knew any day was gonna be the day. The day I OD. The day he finally killed me. The day I drank myself into a coma.
So today I remember where I was and how far I’ve come. And continue to strive towards my goals.
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That is so true. Life is too short to make a mess of it. Tough question from such a little one haha but that’s how little ones are honest and they ask everything. Glad you can now also give an open and honest answer. You are doing great and have come from a long way. Proud of you🌷
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Thank you so much. Oh my kids are the thing that jolted me out of my stupid. My now 7 year old was 5 when she said she wanted to be just like me when she grew up. That got my head right real quick… decided in that moment that I should do be someone I was okay with them being.
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Hello guys. Just checking in day 38.
Its around these days during my last streak I had the most intense urges. Will be very aware during these next days.
Have a nice day guys. Peace.
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I have that with my son. He’s 15 and he may be in foster care, but he knows I’m his biological mother. He may grow up in a different family but in the monthly visits to him I definitely feel responsible to be a good mom. So that if he needs me I can be there for him because puberty is not easy. And I pay special attention to him at this age as I have an addiction and so does his father and it’s hereditary so I worry about that sometimes.
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I understand completely. My girls are still young and I’m always wondering… About the addiction and about what kinda damage our living situation causes them.
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yeap, someone here just really likes to flag me 
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What I did different this time I think I never did before. I always had that last one. Last cigarette, last drink…
I remember someone said there are nothing last one for an addcit. So I did not had that last one cigarette this time. Same I did with alcohol. It feels different, like my addict mind is not happy about it, but everytime before it tricked me with this little, let’s have that last one, this time for real trick. And I’ve been taking that last one for years.
Well here it is, TODAY I did not had my last one drug, and I will keep pushing it One Day At A Time!
ODAAT
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You can do it! Stay strong and ask for help when the going gets tough. You are not alone🌷
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I saw a good one today thought I would share. Addiction is giving up everything for one thing. Recovery is giving up one thing for everything.
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That is so incredibly sweet! Please keep up the good work!
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Congrats on 5 months Des!!!
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Great example of perseverance!
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Checking in day 46
Halfway to 90
Didnt realize it was the holiday 4/20 until a celebration post on social media
My favorite holiday! And i cant celebrate today…ill give some money to someone in need and maybe get a cbd edible…cant do moderation. Cant start again, dont have the capacity in head or heart.
Im ok today. Brought my lunch. Need to vacuum out my car this evening. Need to just do one task after another. Yesterday i fell into this pit like i do, where i ate a bagel, forced myself to shower, and crawled into bed to vegetate. Not tonight! I have 2 days left in the work week. Next step is finishing work, then vacuuming car, then home and moving around a bit before bed. Thats it.
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So sorry to hear about your close friend. I’m sure she appreciates your support.
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Hang tough @deep and stay strong. We are sober twins! Sending you positive energy for endurance and encouragement.
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Checking in again as really need it today, managed to get to almost bedtime (and hit 12 days). My Dad has been admitted to hospital but it is all looking OK really, covid aside. I am hopeful it won’t be long, and he is receiving treatment so in the best place.
My day got more stressful with various legal bits going on, very draining. I woke up with such optimism for the day.
But…it was my first proper test of having to sit with really horrible feelings and I passed. I had no choice really, still feeling weak and testing positive so couldn’t get out and walk off the feelings. Just had to sit with them and resist the cravings. I made it!
I hope everyone else is having a good day 
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I’m happy to hear that things are moving forward and you are demonstrating such incredible perseverance. Thank you for thinking of me as I navigate my challenges…very thoughtful of you.
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Checking in on day 109, got lots on with work and things so really stressed and tired lately but staying strong (usually it would of been to turn to alcohol). Knowing I’m dealing with things better without alcohol is keeping me on track.
Keep going all!
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