Well, a weird day at work as I’m waiting on legal papers from Human Resources. I decided to work from home tomorrow as I have an introductory interview at noon for the small town job in Georgia. Hmmm…. I’ll be prepared.
I spoke with a labor attorney today and I’m a little anxious as maybe my contract may not be so “iron proof”. Shit…I’ll just have to wait and see. I should have something to review on Friday. This whole thing is so stressful and weird. No word or communication from my Board of Directors so I’m just in a waiting period. Sorry about rambling and talking such business speak…Ugh.
Going to eat with my family and then do my AA reading and devotion for the day. Thinking of @JennyH and @Deelzebub.
Day 105 AF
Feeling fabulous about my sobriety, now trying to get other things in my life sorted. I have worked in warehousing for approximately 25 years but I would dearly love to have a job I find fulfilling. My photography is my passion and would love to somehow incorporate that. Some research to be done me thinks.
Hi all
Day 110.
I don’t usually check in as such. But today something I was super confident about pretty much tanked in a public way and I feel really crushed.
Trying to view it as a building block to better emotional resilience, and it will be as long as I can stay sober. If I drink I know I will feel worse.
I will check in over the next few days as I’m a little vulnerable to drinking atm
Day 108. I think im gonna go to bed early. My cravings have been so strong in the last few days. I dont know how to get rid of them. Im missing my husband badly since the night before easter. Going to the doctor tomorrow to see what i can do about the depression im going through. Have a great night everyone❤
My grandpa got some rest and this is probably the best I’ve seen him since back in December when he first got sick. He was walking around the house and doing all his chores and things and he was cooking for himself and everything. He was much more steady on his feet as well.
I’m doing okay I guess. Mostly numb today. since Thursday I’ve been processing some repressed childhood memories which has been rough, but I think they’re being blocked out again. I’m still figuring out how to let them be, but I just end up dissociating which makes them even foggier.
Something positive: my grandpa is doing good, and I’m finishing up a college class that I hate tomorrow. So that will be out of my hair soon
Checking in Day 65
Was able to get a little rest in today. Everything has worked out with my family member. It was a long night last night but I am grateful that I am in the position that I am in to help Ran 2 errands today. Got some groceries just now. Will be having a nice supper… steak chili on rice. Yummm. Overall feeling good about things… my recovery is good along with my spiritual connection to my HP, I also joined a support group for my emotional overeating to try and figure that piece out, I’m exercising 3x a week, trying new ways to eat healthier (trying jackfruit tmrw) and drink more water, work is going okay also, financially we are staying on track and not getting further into debt, and both me and hubby are opening up more! I am beyond grateful for what my HP has done and the strength He gives me. And grateful for u all constantly being there. Hoping to get some really good rest tonight and be able to exercise in the morning! Hope everyone is well!
Check in Day 65
Well, after doing some research on my own and taking an online test to sort of see where I’m at. I have discovered that my suspicions were correct about my eating. I absolutely fall into every criteria that a person would need to be diagnosed with a Binge Eating Disorder. The online test (which is just to get an idea), states I’m high risk for BED. And I also discovered today that shame is very much present in my life when it comes to food. I feel relieved in a sense bcuz I sort of have a “name” for what is going on. I know I had issued with food. It’s been extremes with food since I was a child. Either eating too much for diff reasons/binging, or undereating and becoming ill, or obsessing over working out and calories and weighing food etc, to doing extreme things for weight loss. This doesn’t really surprise me that I could have the disorder. But now I want to sort of work on this. I feel like it’s time to sort this out and to be rid of the shame around this. Does anyone know of any threads on here that are for like a daily checking for this? Or any tips and advice? Thanks
HI all! In spite of having a good and productive day, I got home from my last errand and suddenly my mood suddenly turned dour. I just feel restless and unsettled the last few hours. Not bad enough to drink, but disconcerting. Hope everybody has a good sober day/night!
Yes you definitely will! You got that right. But I’m sorry to here about the disappointment. Eventually it will all be in the past. You will be ok. You are ok. Try to be in the moment and don’t get stuck thinking about about was or will be. Maybe do a mindfulness meditation? Positive affirmations? I hope you can remove yourself you will get through this. You are stronger than you think you are
Ran 2 errands today. Got some groceries just now. Will be having a nice supper… steak chili on rice. Yummm. Overall feeling good about things… my recovery is good along with my spiritual connection to my HP, I also joined a support group for my emotional overeating to try and figure that piece out, I’m exercising 3x a week, trying new ways to eat healthier (trying jackfruit tmrw) and drink more water, work is going okay also, financially we are staying on track and not getting further into debt, and both me and hubby are opening up more! I am beyond grateful for what my HP has done and the strength He gives me. And grateful for u all constantly being there. Hoping to get some really good rest tonight and be able to exercise in the morning! Hope everyone is well!
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