I’m so happy you’re grandpa is doing better♥️
That must be so frustrating about your math class. If you’re willing to work so hard to get it done, I really wish she would let you just finish it.
Also, I really hope the appointment goes well with your doctor. It would be nice for you to talk to the doctor alone. It must be so difficult to keep these feelings inside you. My best friend in highschool hid the fact that he was gay for soooo long because he was afraid of his parents reaction. They were very religious and had strong opinions on that matter. He finally told them. His dad had a really difficult time with it but his mom reacted better than he thought. I really wish everyone could just accept people for who they are…-gay, straight, bi, trans, black, White, tall, short, whatever. I wish that for you 
Thank you, you’re so kind
Thank you 
that means alot. Its been a struggle from day to day, some good some bad but im still going.
Thank you Patty. Appreciate you. You’ve shown me it can be done.
Checking in day 5! Today was a long one for no particular reason. Still battling this sinus infection but every day I get a little better. I honestly feel like being sick helps with the cravings, which makes me a little worried for when i do actually feel better… I still think about booze everyday I come home from work, but i busy myself with a different task. Today I decided to make dinner as soon as i got home rather than sitting down for a bit. Then cleaned the kitchen and took a shower. Im ready to go to bed 3 hours earlier than I normally would but that’s ok. I definitely need the sleep! Happy sober days! Excited for double digit days!
Sorry to hear you are still a bit sick. Super proud of you for staying sober. Try not to think too far ahead. You can stay sober even when you’re not sick, but right now just focus on each day. Today you did amazing. I find having my dinner sooner helps for sure. I went for 24 days and then had a relapse and I’m back today 21 and honestly I really haven’t had any hardcore cravings for a while now. That’s not to say it’s easy everyday but it’s definitely getting easier. Just stay in the moment and fight each craving one by one and then the days add up sometimes faster than you think they would. Your doing great! Anytime you need to reach out make sure you do because this place has saved me so many times 
1049
Instant coffee. Last full day of my vacay. One more pitoresque Czech place to visit. Yesterday we did a city trip in another country for a change. Nice enough but I do prefer nature TBH.
Just like I prefer to remain sober and clean, although that goes beyond preference really. One day at a time. Wherever I am. Like I hope and expect of you all friends. Have as good a day as you can. Make it clean and sober. Love from Dresden.
Day 10 
having horrible dreams so vivid not sure if it’s lack of booze or because I ran out of sleepers on Wednesday 
but back to double digits
I guess it adds up Ian. Hoping for you your dreams will calm down a bit. Excellent work being back in double digits. Congrats and keep going.
Congratulations on your 60 days Kiki.
That’s a fantastic accomplishment.
Great job!
Day 619
After feeling energised and productive the last week, tired today. Was in automatic mode and watching the clock at work. TGIF but have various chores and appointments this weekend. Will try to get some genuine rest in, too.
I’m glad you posted Trevor.
It always helps me to just get those kinds of thoughts out there especially at night. Just to let them go. It took me quite awhile to stop romanticizing the booze. It wasn’t an urge. But just thoughts when I might do it again. It use to drive me crazy. You’re doing great playing that tape forward. Helping your friend. Sharing it here.
Sounds like a victory for today.
I hope you sleep well.
And congrats on the 171. That’s big!!
Appreciate you Brother ~
I totally understand what you’re saying. I’ve also experienced something like this. I recognize that thought you had. So strange how our brain romanticizes using when we know the opposite. We know that one is too much and 100 is too little. I worked for a while in a house where addicts lived. Of course with the intention to spread knowledge about recovery and share experiences. But what I encountered there was too much of a trigger for me like when you want to help with your good intentions and you are fooled, the manipulation or that fleeting behavior I saw when money was present among the residents. I then stopped that work because I had relapsed, but I still work in care only in a different field of work. What I want to say is that I understand you very well with your good intentions towards your friend, but you really have to keep both feet on the ground with your past, otherwise your sobriety will suffer. And it is precisely with a friend that you are even more closely involved than with clients at work. Try to think about your own limits.
But you are doing very well. You express your thoughts here and that alone can help a lot to put it out of your mind🌷
Hello dear, I havent checked in here for a while. Just wanted to send you some love. You are always encouraging everyone else, God bless you, please remember to be your own cheerleader too. You are doing SO well Have a lovely weekend.
Hey everyone. Waking up Day 11. Slept quite a bit last night. Feeling a little better. Had some crazy dreams though, none where I’m using, just my usual crazy ones. Been dreaming a lot more lately. Glad it’s Friday. It is a nice day outside and I can finish up work a little early. Thinking of getting out for a walk or hitting up the driving range to hit some golf balls. We’ll see how it goes. Looking forward to enjoying this day sober. Hope the rest of you do as well!
Day 213 checkin in
Day 17. Yesterday I received bad news from my parents and I started to crave. I know family matters is a trigger for me. I am just learning how to deal well with it
158 days here
Professionally I’m more than great
Spiritually I’m fantastic
Emotionally I’m sooooo good and surprised at my acceptance. I used to think that not getting emotional equalled complacent yet I’ve come to understand that sometimes it’s just simply ACCEPTANCE.
Familialy (is that a word?) I’m non-existent yet accepting of it.
I visit my aging parents every week. My 3 youngest were in town over Easter and my ex didn’t follow through with the plans he and I and the kids made. (Go figure)
My bestie/boyfriend has done what every mon before him does and slowly drifts by cutting off communication little by little and then being too busy for even a simple call.
I feel bad for the fella bc I know that My HP doesn’t take kindly to certain that ngs when it comes to certain people and I’ve seen HP get down on those who mock itself and me.
(I’ll leave that there)
Had a wonderful time last night in worship with a non-profit I serve with from time to time. Praying over the inner city
I found myself really praying over my oldest sister, my oldest son and the hearts of the men in my last 15 years… Weird.
I asked HP to remove my ego, pride, self and wrong that being. I asked HP to fill me up so I can better serve he would have me serve. ESPECIALLY these women in our Recovery Homes.
Thanks for the app.
God bless fam.
Hey all, checking in on day 677. I hope everybody has a great one!