The drink has really been calling me the last couple days. I feel like I’m at war right now. I’m really fighting for this right now. I try to not let it go past a thought and I called somebody right away. I really haven’t ate today like I’m supposed to. I haven’t played guitar in two days … These are the signs that I need to listen to. Once again just like last night’s post I’m going to try to start over again today. This is usually around the time where I go back to a drink. And for me going back to drinking is a medical emergency. I feel homesick and I kind of want to go back to Florida But I wonder if it’s just for the wrong reasons because I’m struggling and I want to go back to somewhere that’s easy. I Don’t even know… Just took the dog out, might go for a walk. Just want it To be the morning… The nighttime is always out to get me
I’ve had a lot nights like that. A few weeks ago, I couldnt stop thinking about boozin. Feeling way better now tho. I just thought about all those drunken nights, the people I hurt, making a fool out of myself. I can’t go back to those dark times, man. Not sure what you’ve been through, but I’ve talked to you on other threads, and you seem like a chill dude. I’ll be prayin for ya. Stay up, brother.
Thanks for reaching back. Pretty much same exact story. Realistically I want to drink because I slept all day, I didn’t really work my program, I didn’t work on my music, I didn’t eat food, and I was feeling sorry for myself. Of course I want to go drink! But yeah I just I still have to call people and run it by them, like this is what I’m thinking about doing what do you think? Then I have to be reminded of the horrible Withdrawals every morning, stealing from stores, ruining relationships and jobs and all of that shit happens immediately… I think I’m going to be OK I’m just going to keep reaching out. I’m walking up to the store to buy a bunch of fruit. That’s usually my go to when I’m craving alcohol
Checking in on 86 days AF!!!
Some days are better than others….one minute, one hour, and one day at a time sometimes.
Goodnight everyone, I’m blessed to have another day sober
Thank you. Simply I just did not take care of myself today. It’s cool being able to realize it though pretty quickly when I want to drink that it’s because of simple reasons and I actually don’t want to drink. I got some raspberries and blueberries, which I feel like kind of tricks my brain sometimes as a reward. Thank you for reaching back and I hope you have a good night. Stay strong… Hope you can push through tonight as well. We just have to keep communicating!
1955 days today. The week started with my car being towed. And the week ended with my twins having their 14th birthday! I feel like I’m doing better about handling the ups and downs. Or at least for once my depression is in remission and I’m feeling level. Spending more time on here probably helps with that. The repairs plus rental car will be expensive, over $4000. I feel grateful that I have the money and can afford it more than I feel bad about the cost if that makes sense. And it will motivate me to work since I need the income!
Day 6! Was a good day. Started to get bored at work today so I decided to clean all the bathrooms (3). I work with all men, im the only chick there, and they do NOT clean well. Half ass doesn’t even cover what they do lol. It was one of those if you want it done right do it yourself kinda jobs. And man, men are gross… do guys just go to the bathroom, pull it out, hands on hips and piss like a sprinkler dancing around in circles??? Never have I ever seen so much piss on the walls lol. Took me an hour to get just that one done. The other 2 super quick and easy. Needless to say I couldn’t get the pee smell out of my nose, felt like I was covered in it… so when I got home I showered and naturally removed a layer of skin. Then made a cauliflower crust pizza and some salad for dinner, laid down in my bed and watched a serial killer documentary with my kiddo. Despite the nasty ass bathroom. It was a damn good day! Stay up fellow sober travelers I know im new here but I’m excited about how sober living is going to be like further down the road. And seeing all you 3 and 4 digits sobers in here gives me all the hope
1450
Instant coffee. Last morning in the Czech Republic for now. We did a nice little walk through the woods of Middle Bohemia yesterday. Now it’s just dropping Tomek off at the train station and myself at the airport.
It’s been fun. On we go. Clean and sober. ODAAT.
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Make it sober and clean or nothing will come of it. Love from Tomek and me.
@Desire2ChangeToday Huge congrats Shay! Awesome feat! @SadMemeQueen Happy for you Megan. Keep growing you. @anon53116147 Keep coming back friend. We can do this. Together. @Minatasha Glad to read you made it through sober. One day at a time for all of us. Same goes for you @Bluekoolaid. @Deelzebub Yay for 50 days! @LaDyLooNtje A better day for you today Ilona. Glad I don’t do night shifts followed by day ones no more.
I know im new here but I’m excited about how sober living is going to be like further down the road. And seeing all you 3 and 4 digits sobers in here gives me all the hope 
