Checking in from Abeline Day 3
Last full day here as I fly out tomorrow evening,
But we spent the day exploring West Texas, had dinner and I got to give a 5 year old and a 10 year old some basic guitar lessons, all in all not a bad day we had fun, I’ll chalk it up as a win with @DeadMist
Spent two years in Abilene. Nice little city.
I am on day 22… well, going into 23, and I’ve also had some thoughts of drinking. Thankfully I did not give in, it feels great! I pray you are doing well and staying strong!! Please let us know 
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Checking in day 8. Sundays used to be my drink all day, days of the week. And today was a bit rough with cravings. I tried keeping myself busy. Slept in for as long as I could, ordered breakfast in, then me and my kiddo met up with my friend and her gaggle of children to go to the zoo, took them for ice cream afterwards. It was a good way to break up the day. Got home hubby brought home tacos for dinner so I didn’t have to cook. Then spent the rest of the evening putting away laundry and getting my clothes and bag ready for the gym tomorrow.
I just recently started going to the gym, and being sick all last week I didn’t go. I’m still not 100% but I need to go. I feel myself getting super lazy again, and that leads to drinking and snacking, both out of control. Plus I’ve noticed that I sleep better when I start the day at the gym. Haven’t slept so hot the last week…
Since the end of last year I’ve quit smoking, binge eating, started going to the gym and now quitting booze. So far everything I’ve changed has stuck, except food… I slip up and have mac n cheese every now and again, but I have self control, and that was the goal. Drinking is harder for sure, im celebrating day 8 today on my 8th restart since the start of the year. This time feels possible whereas the other times didn’t. Guess I just had to flip that fuck it switch for reals this time. It feels good!
Good morning! I desire all of you happy twenty four hours. It is just a matter of day by day.
We do not have to think in any record, but just in our happiness.
Day 2 checking in.
Nice to wake up to coffee and breakfast rather than a headache and vomiting.
Happy sobering everyone
My bed is ok, but I have some bad memories and stuff from my bed/bedroom, so I cant stand it. It gives me anxiety and stress. So I have been sleeping on the couch 
I did sleep in the bed tonigth. It took forever to fall asleep, but I did it.
I second that! I look forward to my morning coffee! It an accomplished feeling to wake up sober!
1052
Coffee. Back to life this Monday morning. First a zoom meeting (well it’s teams but zoom everybody knows here) with somebody from HR at -hopefully- my new work place about terms and conditions. Work a late shift at my current job later. If the talk this morning works out I’ll have to give my one months notice.
I’m a bit anxious about both. But working hard to turn that feeling around in my head, from scared anxiety to hopeful excitement. It can be done, just like I’ve been clean and sober for 1052 days now. One day at time.
Hoping for as good a week as you all can have friends. Making it clean and sober is an excellent start to doing just that. Love from Amsterdam where spring did a sprint during my absence.
@5th_dimension The right sports André! Here’s to the next Messi. Usually it isn’t played while holding coffee though.
Morning all, checking in.
Beautiful picture @Mno Hope today goes well.
Love that picture @5th_dimension I was out there last night with my daughter, practicing her goalkeeper skills. She works so hard, so proud of her.
I have been following but haven’t checked in for a few days, not sure why exactly. A little overstimulated this weekend I guess. My Dad is home from hospital and doing well. The rest of us are now Covid free, just tired. I have also lost my appetite and need to keep an eye on that as I am not eating properly. Anxiety stops me eating and I seem to be going down that route…
Congratulations to all on the milestones, and welcome to newcomers.
Hey guys 
Feelings pretty flat today on day 26. Just a bit lonely, bored, tired from all the school holiday activities with the kids. Over the weekends I see all my friends online drinking and partying. It’s lonely looking after yourself.
I want to do something, but I haven’t no energy to do anything to feel any better. Just reaching out to vent a bit.
Thanks for hearing me.
Day 13 
my pain was bad last night felt a slight urge to drink but resisted I had to remind myself I have no other choice but to stop it’s great waking up with a clear mind have a good day everyone
It’s a new way of life. A way that will literally last you a lifetime. We have to discover new ways of enjoying ourselves, new ways to socialize, new activities to do instead of the partying and drinking we did. The further in time I’m removed from that, the emptier and hollower it all turns out to have been. It’s a road to nowhere. You’re going places now. One day at a time. Two steps forward, one back. And all that. You’re doing better than you think. Congrats on 26 days Alycia. Keep going.
@Alycia Hang in there. I have also felt that at times. And it’s a deep heartache kind of feeling. Alcohol was also “my friend” which it obviously wasn’t. I also realize it’s because I want more connection. Not only with others but also my HP. As I get more comfortable in my recovery and feeling more confident and positive with everything it definitely feels like its getting easier. I also try to connect with other sisters, even if it’s only to check in on each other on whattsapp etc. Stay strong xx
Oh and @Mno has given brilliant advice. Actually going to read his post again lol.
Working hard or hardly working. Lets do this day!
@Mno
@5th_dimension
@Cherry_Kisses
Thanks guys, I really needed to hear your words of support. I know I’m heading in the right direction. What I’m feeling now is 100 times better than the crippling depression and guilt I have when I drink. I have the Will to live and do things I didn’t have the Will to do 26 days ago and that’s really something to be happy about.
I’ve been crafting and creating, taking time to relax. Walking, going to the gym.
I just get sick of my own company at times (which is funny because I have a hard time actually being around people most of the time go figure haha).
I know I have a social void I need to find an outlet in. It’s my trigger, feeling left out, lonely, like I’m not having any fun because no one invites me to things when I’m sober. I’ve just got to find a new group to hang with, a new social hobby. Which means I’m kinda mourning my friend groups, my old life.
Also it’s hard to find time find an outlet when you work mon-fri, gym and have two children in sport and music. I’m thinking about doing some music lessons with my kids, or something that is a part of their routine so I can find time for it. I used to do karate which kept me happy and sober for two years a while back, I just don’t think I can get hit in the face anymore, haha.
It’s completely fine and healthy to miss and mourn over your old lifestyle. There’s plenty of things you will miss, but there will be plenty and more you’ll get in return in recovery. Going to meetings is a great way to make friends! It’s okay to feel how you feel and speaking out about it will help alot. Sounds like you’re working hard at a new lifestyle and fun things to do, you’re doing great! There’s alot of fun to be had in recovery! 
I totally relate, I spend a lot of time on my own. I think it’s that feeling of breaking away from what is socially the norm. I feel like a loner, with no friends, in a bad way. Not being invited to things hurts in a weird way, but I’d decline the invites anyway.
Ugh I’m a ball of feelings atm.
Great comment 
