In recovery I learned a big part of my loneliness was my own fault, beforehand I blamed everyone and everything else. I came to realise I put my addictions above anything, so I were never the one to ask friends to do anything, yet I expected them to invite me and ask me to do things. Now I take way more initiative in relationships and I feel much better about myself. 
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ahh it was like that. Iām sorry, but Iām really proud of you for persevering. Because the longer you delay, the harder it gets. And now you have taken the first step. I understand it wasnāt easy, but it will be. It just takes some time. So powerful of you to overcome your fears!
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Hey all, checking in on day 680. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Had a lovely weekend, albeit hard work as I offered to help paint a room and now my arm is dead! But no drinking. Awful Saturday night laying awake, thinking about my estranged mother and family and going around and around in emotional prison. (circa PMS also ON TOP)
Felt hungover yesterday again spontaneously even though nearly 16 days soberā¦I think itās the tiredness from anxious night and also the emotional low and sadness. Anyway, that was yesterday. Planning a productive sober well ahead. Letās go.
I canāt control others behaviour. I was thinking constantly about how my mom would break free if she got sober and faced everything, but the truth is she wants her insular cell and booze more than her daughters. She only wants her enablers.
Itās going to be a thinking week I think, just need to ensure it doesnāt nudge me too much.
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Good morning all. I woke up with a week clean. Woo hoo!! Iām back on track. Canāt say that the fears of the future, nor the regrets of the past have disappeared. Itās only been a week off a relapse. Yet with the help of the program and this community, I have faith the above mentioned defects will disappear.
Thanks for your support. Have a good day.
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Thatās a great quote. I always felt that my perfect level of drunk, which I equated with happiness for a long time, was one drink ahead or one drink ago, never right now.
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Checking in 1 month 20 days sober !
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Day 159
Just checking in, hope everyone has a great day today!
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Hey everyone. Starting over the counter today. Yesterday spiraled so fast for me. I was out and ended up having a drink and I didnāt even think about it. I just did it. It got so out of hand I ended up stopping at the liquor store to get more later in the day. I donāt even remember doing that. It just snowballed so quickly. Now I wake up and Iām feeling so sick from a hangover. When Iām starting to feel better Iāll have to take the time to look back and see where I could have done something different. Find a way to learn from it all. Guess thatās all. Time to build up the days again. Hope everyone else is doing good.
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This is spot on. I frequently tell people that I like drinking but I hate being drunk. Normies are like āthat doesnāt make any sense!ā. Only another alcoholic will understand. But its even more accurate to say āIāll be happy in 15 minutesā. Thanks for posting!
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Morning Check Inā:high_brightness:
Day 70
OMG that definitely was one hell of a rough night sleeping. Iām exhausted right now. Will definitly be an easy going day. Last night had some urges to use. That thought had been sort of there since after work. It wasnt a strong urgeā¦ just annoyingly there. Didnāt end up doing great with my eating last night so Iām sure not feeling well physically caused me to have unplesant dreams. Dreams of my abusive ex which woke me up a few times. Then getting woke up due to back pain and cramps which were oddly really painful this time. Took some Tylenol to help with the pain and then managed to get some sleep after that. It was rough 
thankfully I dont experience nights like this often. Will turn this day around tho and enjoy the beautiful weather amd the opportunities this day brings!
Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
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Checking in on sober day 352. Gross rainy weather this morning but it beats the desert. Lived that life. No thanks haha. Everyone in our home woke up dragging ass this morning, the result of having multiple kids on different travel sports teams on Sundays. I love it. Weāll miss the chaos when they get older and move out. Hitting the gym now and some homework later on. Have a great day everyone. Itās a great day to be above ground and sober.
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Good morning everyone. Made it through another rough couple days with the help of this community and my network in AA. Going to keep things basic today. I found a Applebeeās gift card that Iām pretty excited about because Iām really broke ā¦ so Iām going to go get a burger at lunch. It will give me something to do and the sunshine and being outside will be a good change from hiding in the house the last couple days. I also have an appointment today to talk about this anxiety Iām struggling with. As well my lease is up in two weeks and Iām considering going to a sober living to continue this journey and have some more protection so to speakā¦ I just hope today goes good and I pray that there can be some peace and calmness. Hope Everybody has a good day
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Day 318 has begun. The weekend was a bit of a loss. I have been really sleepy and sluggish, especially in the afternoon. Too much morning coffee? Dreary weather? Side effects of antidepressants? Probably all of the above. Besides, I have really fallen behind exercising. Now that the snow has mostly melted, I would love to get back to biking. Maybe I should bike to work todayā¦
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Welcome Dannie.
Iām glad you found us.
Congrats on 22/23 days of sobriety.
Stick around. This place works.
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113 days sober and 894 days from substances!!! Im almost at my 900!! Have a blessed day everyone!!
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Day 216 checking in
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Checking in:
2 years
16 weeks
1 day
Forgot my Sunday night check in. 
Keeping wicked busy and wicked sober and wicked hangover free. So many benefits of sobriety but that hangover free one never gets tiring. Me 
Over 2 years without a hangover. Fucking Priceless.
You guys keep up the good fight. Itās worth it and so are you.
God grant me the serenity to accept the people I cannot change, the courage to change the one I can, and the wisdom to know itās me.
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Checking in at day 236.
Just finished working. I have the feeling that I am getting more and more into the work rhythm. I started working on April 1st after 1.5 years in and out of clinic but before I started working I got covid. After work I was so very tired and I didnāt know if it was because I was not used to the work or because of covid. But it seems to be getting better with the fatigue. This Sunday after the meeting Iām going to have coffee with a potential sponsor. I find it very exciting, I really want to work on the 12 steps and itās nice to have someone next to you in that process. I still donāt understand why I havenāt had cravings yet? That in contrast to other times of being clean. It may be that my medication that is supposed to take away the cravings is working, but I didnāt believe in it. But I feel great! Only I donāt like meds so eventually Iāll taper off when the time comes!
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