@Controller keep stacking those days! Isnt it refreshing and shocking to not have those constant negative cravings and showing up for yourself and your family? Did you tell your daughter youre sober? Youve mentioned she asked you to stop drinking “daddy drinks”
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Day 71. I am not happy, but at least sober.
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Day 663
Anxiety is kinda bad today. Taking it easy today, chatting with a close friend, and doing a bit of meal prep before work week starts tomorrow. Had dinner with my mum yesterday, we went kayaking, I got her interested in starting therapy herself 
She got to a point where she started talking about worse case scenario complications that made me nervous for my knee surgery. A week and a half until that happens so going to be working on calming those voices in my head. One things for sure, I’m not going to drink over it! Keeping the hope and the stoke high planning for some post recovery races in the coming years.
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Thanks @Butterflymoonwoman, I appreciate it 
Today went well, it was great to finally get in the classroom, meet my trainers and my classmates, and learn about the program. I feel relieved - or maybe it might be better to say I feel I’m “aboard”, like getting on a ship.
I was so nervous yesterday because of the unknowns: what would be required, what were the expectations, what did I have to do or not do to prepare (I am a classic over-preparer in these cases, diving in and drowning myself in all the details; I have trouble letting go and going with the flow).
I learned something: when I am at a doorway, when I am about to open a door and I don’t know what will happen, my mind goes into overdrive. At those times I have to reach out to share and connect, so I can keep myself safe.
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Great self awareness! I’m sooo glad it went well 
It sounds interesting! Hoping that everything is a good fit for u!
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Evening Check in
Day 98
Had such a wonderful day. Hubby asked to go for a walk with me at this huge park behind where we live. It’s gorgeous there! Lots of people tho but the sun was out and we fed some ducks. Lots of geese with their cute babies. Here’s a zoomed in pic:
Stayed clean for another day! Made a good easy supper and relaxing now before self care and icecream
Hope u all are managing okay today!
Hugs TS fam!
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Experiencing that old addage of “when you feel like you don’t have time etc to stay on top of things is exactly when you need to stay on top of things”. Nothing crazy but had a slip the other day and the part of me I’ve worked so hard to get past/retrain/heal made a guest appearance. I’ve been so overwhelmed with work and life that I got out of some good habits. Thanks all for being a place of return and reinvigorating.
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She was 5/6 when she asked now she is 8/9. I don’t even know why she asked back then. For now I haven’t told her I don’t think she would even know or understand. Also after she asked years ago I made sure that they at least didn’t see me drink. I’ll definitely tell her when she is older the impact it had and how I felt letting her down even though she didn’t know.
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I really hope all those babies aren’t from that one goose 
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