Checking in…
Substance free for 876 days
Sugar free for 12 days!
I just got home from my very first sober camping trip, my very first sober weekend away with a manfriend, my very first camping trip without SUGAR!!!
It
Was
Great!!!
I remember the whole weekend. There were no fights. I wasn’t hung over, puking or up for 5 days straight. I will definitely be doing it again.
When I cleaned up 2.5 years ago I never thought I would have fun or feel excited again. It took some time for those feelings to come back but they have, and they are authentic now.
Day 1343
Day 10 no sugar
Phoned the hospital yesterday because I’m worried about my recovery from surgery.
I think I have an inflamation. Today I have a appointment with the surgeon. I hope they can help me, but do not keep me
Up at 5 this morning because of the pain.
Work is starting to try to get me to work. Not today ore so, but next week. It made me irritated. Told them that. I understand I’m needed, but I can’t say when I’m good enough to work.
I can’t even wear normal pants so how can I work
Black humor is helping me these days. When I talk about my issues with others I tell them I think the surgeon has left a cotton pad inside
It’s a shame I can’t laugh without pain
Can’t walk and I miss it very much. So today an old picture from one of it.
I actually had a pretty decent day. I’ve been hanging out with my new friend an average of 5-7 hours a day. It’s fun but that time isn’t spent playing all the games I want to or doing all the crafts and things I want to. So I took today to myself. I spent most of the time coloring and I played some video games for a bit. I was worried about being alone with my thoughts but I had YouTube in the background so it actually was pretty nice. I’m going to hang out with my friend tomorrow but I’m gonna spend the morning coloring more.
I’d say that was pretty positive so this post will be my something positive. I hope you all are well. I’m so proud of each and every one of you
Day 53
Such a better day than the last week I’ve had. Put up a bunch of pictures over in the nature thread just a few minutes ago, my obsession with capturing the greenery of the Alaskan summer is in full swing and I love it unabashedly.
Kids and i went to the beach and the park today, had a lot of fun. Yes there were a few struggles with some feelings and such, as we usually have, but everything ended up being OK in the end. Happy to have days like today, capturing the goodness. Gonna meditate and work out now. Have a great night all!
Checking in first time ever!
It may not seem like a lot but:
10hrs without alkohol.
I have my second ever support group this evening at 7pm, still a bit nervous same as the first time I went but also kind of looking forward to how the conversations progress, and being In the company of people who are in the same boat as me. crossed I dont brick it and actually go
Day 3 (Part 2) - My day count ticks over about 9am so I still have a couple of hours to go before I reach day 4. But I needed a check in.
I woke up this morning with a huge bout of anxiety. Eczema flairing, heart palpitations. Talking with @BrianP has really helped with that, so thanks BrianP. I really needed that.
The more I am part of this community the more similarities I see between us all. We may have different substances that we have leant on in the past but we are all trying to work through deeper issues.
As I step towards day 4 I am thankful for being here and greatful for the support.
@Butterflymoonwoman
I am a lot less overwhelmed by work at the moment so that’s great.
I did have a bit of a health scare last night as I had a lot of pain on my chest, so I called the emergency doctor. I had never had this much pain on my chest before and it took about 3 hours for the emergency doctor to call me back. Since I was still alive at that point and my only symptom still was the pain they were sure that it had nothing to do with my vitals. Their guess is that it’s inflamed cartilage between my ribs… Yay…
But at least the pain is almost gone today. Let’s hope it doesn’t get worse once I’m at work
1081
Coffee. Not a day for lots of outdoor activities as it’s fresh with showers. Could go to the gym. Nah. There’s a new exhibition in my favourite -and oldest- building in town, the Oude Kerk. Will go and have a look there. Clean and sober.
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Make it sober and clean or nothing will come of it. Love from Amsterdam.
@BrianP Yay you Brian! A whole month! Big congrats. Keep going. @Ania Glad you found us Ania. We’re in this together. Knowing that makes all the difference. @Staringupfromthewell Make all the check ins you need friend. You made it through to day 4 now right? Right on! @Chance That’s just mind boggling numbers James. Congrats & thanks for the inspiration. @Milo1 Just keep going Milo. It’s so worth it. One day at a time and all that. Congrats. @Its_me_Stella Love ya girl! Very happy you are so happy. You kick ass. Hugs.
. I felt like a zombie this morning. I had to! Just one cup tho.
crossed I dont brick it and actually go 
