Proud of you Jen seriously your hopping right to actions and putting a stop to those thoughts. I can relate, even if one day I only had the couple drinks and controlled it the obsession was there, the next day I’d need a couple more. I didn’t stop it I let it grab me and next I was right back into my heavier drugs. But really super proud of you much love
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Day 17. Did cry a little last night, I could just feel the stir inside me wasn’t sure what was up so I just tried to let it out. Didn’t want to feel sorry for myself tho, trying to think about the day making sure I can do right and be the best I can but also not set expectations or try to be perfect just better. I am pretty excited for today and tomorrow… I will say there is still some frustration in my mom, and I’m really just trying to understand it keep my distance but also be there without making it worse, I’m not really sure what it is but it really does almost kind of bring me down too, I’m trying to find my part in it. Most of all I just hope we can both heal and have a none codependent relationship. Girls are doing good, how r u all doing today? I hope well much love
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Day 1 - Today is the latest Day 1. But I somehow feel more hopeful than before. By opening up to this community today I no longer feel alone in this struggle. I’ve been sat here reading other contributors posts and seeing how far they have gone in their journey’s and the struggles they still face helps to give me the resolve to move forward.
I always visualised my addiction as a deep dark well and it was all about how far I had fallen down it. Had I hit the bottom yet? Could I start to climb back out?
Today I have a new image to hold on to. I am walking along a road side by side with hundreds of people. Each day we take a step, some of us stumble, some of us fall but each time we help pick those people up and move forward as one.
Imagery and imagination has always been very powerful for me so thank you all for your words, your stories and your journies. May day 2 feel just as uplifting.
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I have 4 pairs of Jordan high’s but I deffinitely wear them all! But I know they are a good investment if I shouldn’t.
I like the green ones in your list very much April!
I 
the more retro ones the most. I know where this love comes from. As a kid I was in love with a white pair with a blue swoosh, a bit like your 3th example. But my parents couldn’t affort it to buy them. Since then this is my nr 1 shoe, second one is Dr Martens 
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Checking in morning of day 7. Chaperoning 8th grade field trip. If that doesn’t drive me to drip, I’m good. Wish me luck 
Y’all have a great day, keep it up
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I love this, I’m imagining myself within that group, I’m happy in the group, it’s friendly.
Well done on day one, go and get day 2 and 3 
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I absolutely love this imagery! Thank you for sharing.
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I am sorry for you loss, Mike. It’s good you saw him recently to say him good bye. 
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Hi everyone. I want to check in at 524 days drink free. I feel emotional today in a positive, uplifted almost surreal type of way. During my drinking I knew I was locked inside myself somewhere and now I can say, my true self is not trapped anymore. I have grown and developed into me. I was stunted before. It was a slow start. Counting days. Wake up work bed. Very mechanical. But I needed that to rack up days and slowly my mind began to open. Clarity. Things began to click. I started to see growth. Expanding. I became more assured in myself. I became reliable and smart and funny. I became energized and strong and thoughtful. I became Me. I am healthy and still healing. I am present and alive more than I have ever been. I have a personality. I have joys and hobbies. I am raising 2 children. We are stable. I am running a salon with 14 stylists. We just bought a house in one of America’s best small quaint towns. My life has turned around completely. I am fulfilled and loved by many. I love my life despite the pain and loss I have suffered in the past. I love the present. I indulge in the now. Thank you for all your insight, heartaches, stories, slip ups, pictures and advice. I could not have done it without this community. I have visited this forum everyday for 524 days. Solid success. Love.
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Day 1293.
Well, had to cancel my trip home today. I could have tried but trip would have been directly through the massive storms in the middle of Germany. I am grateful that my mother agreed and understands. The thing is that there is a chance that all will be okay and there is a chance that not. I am here, no cloud in the sky. But my decision is done. No looking back. Money down the toilet. Anyway.
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Trainers are my one weakness… I own way too many pairs… And now after seeing all those dam sexy trainers. I WANT!!
Such a cross addiction 
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Right now I have given up studying for the day! My brain is not having it… I’ve done four solid days. So taking the day off and gonna just take the dog for a big walk around the park today… Don’t think I can drive safely today my physical tics are causing me to struggle.
Still clean! Had a minor thought of smoking and then remembered I haven’t just done 5 month of respiratory therapy to throw it away!!
Hope everyone is well x
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I remember getting this app and I was sober maybe 3-4 days and now 24 days I take it minute at a time day by day and it does hurt cause gotta deal with anxiety fear worry stress humiliation grief etc but sober and it is not easy I couldn’t manage myself my life and now doing it sober…… lol I have to pray and talk to God and my sponsor daily about everything and anything no matter how dark and hidden the topic every feeling every fault every dilemma I’m going through every fear every worry about the future etc. it does help it is a daily struggle I do get stronger in surrendering and letting go daily but the measurements are at its smallest in improving but nonetheless it is improving I am and will be a minute by minute work in progress this app and all of you are very deserving of credit thank you all.
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I’m sorry for your loss Mike♥️
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It’s the little things. The habits. The habits after many years of drinking, I was able to grill last night without a cold beer in my hand. See for me back when the drinking started it was just a beer or two at dinner in my early 20’s. A beer at the campfire. A beer or cocktail at the birthday or wedding. Well my only concern for my early sobriety as of now is vacation. We are set to go to Florida June 12th. I will take it day by day. It’s only my Wife and Kids so should be able to get through it also my wife is my support in my sobriety even though she never told me I had a problem. I have known for a couple years that I can’t control my drinking. For now I have no outside influences so It’s easy. I have to avoid the situations that were those little things that spiraled into uncontrollable binging. Great day so far and another sober night. As I’ve said in my earliest post sleep has always been my excuse for drinking well I downloaded the calm app and listened to a sleep story fell asleep almost immediately.
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I’m sorry you had to cancel but your safety is definitely more important than money.
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2m 1d… So grateful
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Simply beautiful! Thank you so much for sharing what is possible for all of us with sobriety. I am so very happy for you and your family 
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Thank you. It’s not my safety but the possibility to being stuck in the middle of the night as I would’ve taken the last train.
Side note for anyone in Germany during the next 3 months. We printed some money and can use all regional public transport in Germany for 9 Euro per month 
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