Checking in, 568 days no alcohol. I relapsed on smoking after almost 3 months. Sometimes it’s overwhelming on how many fields should we pay attention not to slip back into old habits, constantly monitoring if it’s an escape or is it within the normal scale. Especially with the normal scale being a lot tighter for us. It’s still difficult for me to focus on building instead of just avoiding destruction.
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Checking in at the top of day 42, a little late today, its been a busy day, but good day. Went to work a little this morning while my daughter went horseback riding with a friend of hers. Then I did a little shopping. Picked up my kiddo, and then went and saw the new Bobs Burgers movie! We’ve been waiting on that movie to come out for a couple years now, and was not disappointed. After the movie, we packed my kiddos bag and I dropped her off to spend a month with her dad. It’s always a bummer time of the year when he gets her for such a large chunk of time, but its important that she has that time with her dad so I will learn to get over it. Sober. I plan on taking this month to focus on beginning some kind of exercise routine at the gym, and begin that new habit. I pay for the membership, may as well use the damn thing lol. Plus it will be a good distraction from not having my little broke best friend around haha. Goodnight all!
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I’m also proud of you for not doing it. I know the feeling of being the outsider or being the black sheep in the family. It is heavy. But I’ve resigned myself to it. It is mainly the shortcomings of those people, the lack of insight, prejudices, and not wanting to make the effort to hear your story. Now they don’t need to hear that. But in many cases this is not your fault so please try to rise above it. You did a good job!
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Good morning, how wonderful of you. I know you can do it. I am also looking forward to the game. Saw some images on the news this morning. The city is turning in the color red
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That sounds like a really hurtful experience.
For myself, I’ve been able to mend some of my family relationships as I got older by expressing where I was hurt, what I need from them, setting boundaries, etc. For others in my family though, I’ve had to accept that not having them in my life is best. It hurts, but I’ve also learned that I have the ability to create my own family. I can create a community of friends and choose to surround myself with people who love, appreciate, and are there for me. I remember feeling very hopeless and alone and alienated because of my family relationships. But that has changed. Partly because of healing and growth with some, and mostly by choosing my new family.
Super long-winded way of saying - These things can change. You are worthwhile. You deserve to have people around that love, care for, and support you. Hugs.
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Hope Liverpool do it
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Two big clubs, two grand traditions, sure is going to be a great match. 
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“Drink excuses cover any base”. Wise and great truth. Good Luck!!!
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Late on my coffee. There was a party somewhere in my building block last night so I didn’t get much sleep. I’m still OK and there’s not much I need to do today. Watch some sports. Cook some food. Nap a bit. Stay sober and clean. Just for today that’s enough.
Have as good a Saturday as you all can friends. Make it clean and sober or nothing will come of it. Just for today.
Did a long 
ride yesterday. Riding around the Veluwe makes me forget I live in one of the most densely populated countries in the world. Love.
@EFountains @BrianP Enjoy the footy lads. It could be a good match. For me it’s Giro d’Italia first. Last mountain stage today, in the Dolomites. Best road cycling in the world there.
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Checking in at day 269.
Still fever but decided to go for a short visit to my brother-in-law’s birthday. It’s so crazy but I’ve just been on the radio haha. This is the 2nd time I send an text to my favorite radio station. 1st time I requested a song on the day I was 7 months clean so I explained that in the text and the DJ actually responded to my app by playing my song and he told my story that I was clean for 7 months. I thought it was very special. Normally I’m never singled out for these kinds of things. And just now the DJ had a statement because apparently it is Female Hygiene Day and I disagreed with the statement and I texted why. But what I didn’t expect was that the dj called me and asked if I wanted to talk about the subject and my opinion on the radio haha so funny and a bit scary but it went great.
Have a geat and sober day everyone 
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It really is overwhelming how vigilant you have to be not to slip back into those habits. It’s almost exhausting sometimes. I quit smoking for 4 years and one day out of the blue picked one up and haven’t been able to quit them again since. I guess we can really never let our guard down.
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Hey all, checking in on day 713. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Day 10 checking in!
Super sleepy, was a good sober Friday. Had some friends call that were super drunk and going raving. Was more obnoxious than triggering lol. That’s p much it!
Thanks guys, good luck out there, giving you all good vibes!
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I’ll have to check to see what’s on.
Hi everyone, just a quick message to say hi.
Tonight will be 13 days… getting close to that fortnight mark !!
It’s pretty warm here today, but I’ve only spent half the day working, so I can’t complain. Working 7 days a week gets to be tiring sometimes, but you would think that I would be used to it after nearly 25 years ! 
Oh well, there’s always tomorrow.
Have a good day, everyone.
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@Misokatsu
忘れました。日本には、どこに住んでいます。
天気はどうですか。
イタリアには、結構暑いです。
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Checking in day 4. Beautiful out in the northeast part of PA today. Took the kiddos to breakfast and probably just get some stuff done around house that I been putting off. Have a good day people.
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Day 715 clean and sober today. Rough couple of days but I surprisingly feel back on point this morning. Last weekend of night shift, starting days next Wednesday. Have an amazing day everyone, love you guys!!! 
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Here checking in , so far so good and thinking about all time that has past.
Already years ago I bought tickets for a festival which was cancelled two times due to covid and this weekend it finally was time to liquidate the ticket but now I’m older, a lot happened and this was certainly not the moment to visit a big festival like “intents” …
The tickets I gave away to a couple of nearly strangers who I see walking sometimes and in the end it gave me a bundle of joy to see the surprised faces of a couple that otherwise probably would never had the chance to go to a festival like that and for me it is just the right choice at the right time.
I spended some time writing instead and below is the translated result.
I hope it makes any sense to ya’ll but I felt like sharing it.
I’m struggling with a lot but I’m relentless clinging on the bright light that is shining in the future I see myself in.
A lot still has to be done and fears to be conquered but I find strength in the story’s I read here on the forum that you all share and I find the courage in myself back again by just reading some of them and that makes me feel blessed and thankful.
I tried to translate my Dutch jiberish scribbles into English and after an hour of doubt I’m just going to post it anyway.
I wish you all a sober and safe weekend!
and for those reading this post entirely i hope it makes sense in what way whatsoever.
Bless and take care peopz
A light of shadow-tones
blinking and flickering,
the lights of gray shades are untouchable heavy~
like jet-black smoke vapors clinging
to the suffocating worldviews.
Like magnets playing in a wealth of harp fingers, making one forget the notes ~ cleaved by strings of unexposed danger…
That dreams are on the map ~
and before the dish the star chef only
tender by passing, judging breath’s,
tears squeezed gadgets and fits ~
slow down-the days to smashed glasses that were rather full of emotions…
their light~ unworn silk-heavy ~ soft innocence preserving statements and also in “higher” sounding professions the yet underexposed screaming repetitions of evil marinades,- chocolate pralinades and the seafood as a salty witness is the judge inquired about the shadow side of the unfinished shards -the lustily wandering tormented mountains of a ~~
never more waltzing dance which ashore is cracking its storm of notes in its own reflection without prisms standing still in the center of the eye,
knocked off and knocked away and is silent for a while
it is dry for a while
and it’s deaf for a while
just believe that there’s
courtesy in this rain~archery bow
And there stood the righteousness…
in disbelief
It seems there’s joy behind walls of greeve
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Nice post. Good on ya. Be well.
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