Congratulations @mamador on your 60 days!
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Thank you so much @Cjp for your insight. Yes, I need to speak positively about the job loss. I hope to secure a position soon. It has been one month. I was able to get letters if recommendation from my Board President and from another two Trustees. Those should help too. Deep breathā¦.cross your fingers. Next week are my interviews. Thanks, Mike
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Morning Check in
Day 106
Woke up in a really weird mood. But once I got going I was fine. Had to catch up on a lot of phone calls that I had been procrastinating on for a while. But I got them done! Now I am working on some ideas for gluten free cupcakes/brownies that I need to bake for a birthday party. Itās a double birthday so it will be fun to bake and decorate a variety of designs and flavors. Nothing else is really new I guess.
Hope everyone is having am addiction free day!
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Checking in. I had to take a prescribed narcotic today for
My appointment and I think it made me feel highā¦ I used it as correctly but Iām scared it effected me too
Much now Iām suppose to go to a meeting w my sponsor and I feel like so guilty and ashamed rnā¦ I hate this feeling.
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You used it as prescribed so itās no fault of yours Flannery. No guilt. Good youāre sharing about it and not bottling it up inside. Just keep going. Hugs.
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Thank you that makes me feel a lot better 
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Thank you so much! Itās been nice even though it started rough lol, but Iām glad Iām here every day!
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Thank youu! Weāre like 2 days apart I think, and I feel like itās cool having people here that made these choices around the same time, it feels like a class or something lol! I know thereās no graduating but still! The camaraderie is everything sometimes
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Day 15, hello all. Feeling good with my progress but in bad shape today with hives from a severe allergic reaction. At urgent care office getting a steroid and Benadryl shot.
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Thanks! Itās definitely been some rough times here and there for sure (so many lol), but Iām glad to finally be getting better at knowing myself which was honestly the hardest part I think getting into this
Wow, that is amazing, I love it 
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There is no shame in following Drās instructions Flannery. You are here being open and honest about your feelings which is amazing, I am glad you didnāt keep that bottled up inside. That type of stuff makes me sick. I hope you have a great meeting and feel lots of support from your sponsor.
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Made it through a strange day yesterday by communicating and sticking to routinesā¦ I would like to thank this community and the people that reached out yesterday ā¦ Iām still terrified of alcohol. Iām terrified because I constantly remind myself about the truth of alcohol. I hope it stays that way .
Spent today trying to continue moving forward. Iāve been applying to a lot of jobs out of my comfort zone. Iāve had to switch emails on my indeed account and forgot to update. I got an email Thursday for a loan processor job that is really good. I didnāt make any excuses for not seeing the email I just expressed interest if itās still available or anything else. One of the qualifications was typing so Iām glad Iāve been taking these classes and trying to practice and get my form back from high school haha. Hopefully the position has not been filled and it was only a phone interview request. But itās progress. Iām going to keep applying to better jobs. I have an interview for a position at a dry cleaner on Thursday which I will do temporary until I find the right job Iām looking for. I have 15 years of customer service experience. Iām going to find a way to utilize this experience in a more professional environment that can lead to a career.
Iām going to try to stay positive today and keep working towards my goals. I hope that everybody has a good day. Stay strong.
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I canāt remember if i checked in todayā¦ hahah jeepers thatās bad. Anyways, Iām going to check in againā¦
Substance free for 884 days
SH free for 403 days
Sugar free for 19.75 days.
Trigger warning ED
As some of you know I have been having therapy to try to help me with my eating disorder. It has helped for sure, I feel like with anything it is very messy though. Being the seasoned addict that I am messy is difficult for me so immediately I try to get my fingers in there to āfixā everything the way I see fit. Itās just not working. I can see how the 12 steps could possibly work around my eating disorder but I am having a hard time with the abstinence part of it. Being that I suffer with anorexia and sugar addiction itās just so super fucked up. So I need to abstain from sugar or I am a fiending addict who tears her house apart, shoveling ridiculous things into her mouth trying to get a sugar fix. When I live like this the only calories I consume are from sugar. Now the anorexic in me LOVES restricting thingsā¦ so once those first ten days of jonesing for sweets is done with I love not feeding myself sugar which triggers other eating disorder thoughts and behaviors. I feel like i just canāt win, itās pretty fuckedā¦ anyways I am surrendering and I am going to Overeaters Anonymous tonight. Fuck this shit, sick of suffering.
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Fifty two days today sober. Been sleeping well but feeling stressed with work. Doesnāt actually make me want to drink, more escape away. Luckily Iām away for a couple of days now for the silver jubilee.
Iām still focused. No regrets at not drinking. 
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Checking in at day 272.
I especially took my rest today and the doctor tells me to measure and write down my temperature in the near future. If there is no improvement I may have to see an internist. I also worked on step 1 from the workbook. For now Iām watching Birds of Prey. This film is on the Dutch TV now. I had not seen it yet and the film is already from 2020 it is a sequel of suicide squid but is now only about the girlfriend of the joker. Not much more to tell about my day except that I made it again today without having to fight or survive but just keep living. Iām going to bed soon.
I wish everyone a good night or an addiction free day
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Checking in on day 212. Today marks 7 months! For some reason Iām not too happy 
My health has improved a lot and I should be proud, but Iām somewhat melancholic lately. I guess itās just a phase! 
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Iām sorry to hear youāre struggling like this. I donāt know much about eating disorders and sugar addiction. But I can imagine that as with other addictions there are triggers that might make it worse? In my case it was the other way around, I used and then I couldnāt eat and finally I didnāt weigh anything. I hope you find the strength to become healthy in all areas of life but not all at once and take it easy. Maybe you can make a plan for a week what you can do every day to get your health on the right track. Then you have a little more overview. Anyway youāre already on it, youāre here and youāre sharing. I wish you good luck and get well soon
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63 days today. My sleep is a bit out of whack again. Getting ready to head off to the gym before work. I donāt have a lot of energy but I know Iāll feel better afterwards.
Still feeling like a bit of a ghost atm, like no one really sees me. I work, and have lots happening at home, but outside of that I feel a bit invisible. I need to find some friends, just so damn time poor.
Anyway, have a great day everyone.
@mamador we are so close in our sober dates, itās nice to have that feeling of doing this thing together with others. Makes it feel a little bit easier.
@Matt im sorry your struggling. One day, just today. Take it easy. We are here for you.
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Thank you Stella! Hope you are doing good 
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